The last goodbye :)

2007-07-03T22:00:00.001+08:00

I've moved ! :D

2007-07-01T22:02:00.000+08:00

21 pages of reasons & excuses
Sentosa & Vivo-ed with Dawn & Fiona yesterday.
Supper-ed <3

Bugis-ed with Eastina today. <3
Lunch-ed at V8 café for close to 2 ½ hours.
We talked about almost every single thing.
Life and all.
How everyone changed and had grown up.
It was such a great heart to heart talk sweetheart.
& I must say that she really knows me well.
Like my character, attitude, how I handle stuff and all.
Champion! :D
More again sweetheart!
Then walked around & homed =)
Tiredddd. But midnight talk anyone?
I just cannot get enough of talking.

I’m sorry, reallllyyy sorrryyyy.
My gosh, its making me really guilty.
SORRY, dui bu qi.
How bad can it be, very. =(

I have stopped making 11:11 & 12:12 wishes already cause it had not work for me so no point wasting my 2 minutes every night! :D

Another 2 hours & I officially win the bet!

2007-06-29T23:08:00.000+08:00

Breakfast at ECP Macs before heading down for Jog-A-Thon (?) .
We were supposed to jog but the whole group of us just refuse and we took our own sweet time to walk.
It was not that bad.
Parkway Swensens for lunch with the USUALS <3>
It was fun though we didn't really talk much cause it was quite a big group.
Homed, napped.
Tampines Mall & Century Square.
Mango sales & Metro sales.
I swear the bras are damn fucking cheap siah. :D
FUN TIME SHOPPPPIIINNNGGG tonight =)

2007-06-28T15:55:00.000+08:00

I must have lost it somehow
During Biology lesson today, Miss Koh asked,
MissKoh: Girls, do you want to go down to the eco pond?
Me: HUH ! (loudly)
Lyt: I don't want to go eco pond, I want to go pig farm.
I swear I laughed till I almost died. ( Its inside joke! )

Tomorrow's PL Walk-A-Jog at ECP -.-
Followed by Sentosa on Saturday (mt. faber again?) :D
Town/Bugis & Chalet on Sunday.

I don't know who am I missing.
But there's just someone that I miss.

2007-06-27T21:28:00.000+08:00

I am VOICELESSSSSS..
Please let me get recovered by this Friday cause I really want to enjoy this long weekend! :D
I didn't even have a chance to sleep during lessons today cause I was busy trying to talk.
Cause I'm afraid that if I fell asleep & when I wake up I will lose my voice. -.-
Lunch-ed with Xue Er, Kimberley, Lauren & Jng at Serangoon Central after school.
All those dare that we dared Xue Er and the countless times we laugh at other people.
Hougang point with Lauren after that.
She wanted to get something for someone & she took hell such a long time please.
I was telling her : eh don't test my patience, i am going to explode soon.
Imagine such a hot day and you feel so dirty and smelly walking around some stupid place with the bloody heavy bags.
Thereafter, home sweeeettt home to sleeeeeepppp! :D
Let's talk tonight again! =)
I cannot wait for the weekends to come faster so we can have daily 5am talk! =)

Whoever told you that I am going to let this whole thing go ?

2007-06-26T20:45:00.000+08:00

Its only the second day of school & I am dreading it.
This is really serious cause all I do in school is sleep.
I sleep during assembly, lessons, breaks.
I am so tired every single day.
My throat is recovering but my voice sounded disgusting.
I hope my voice recover before the 'long' weekend.
Considering Friday, Saturday, Sunday & Monday no school. :D
That way, I can really rest & maybe start studying.
Received a really shocked call from C last night.
HAHAHA!
I haven't been eating well and I can survive on 1 meal a day.
There was no supper nights for the past few days.
How bad can it be?

Waking up I see that everything is ok
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant, I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect, please don't go away, I need you now
And I'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

It's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

2007-06-25T22:25:00.000+08:00

Been down with serious painful sore throat.
Its so pain till I am so irritated to reply people & I get so irritated easily.
I forgotten what had happened for the past week.
School started today & it ended at 4pm. ;(
I just can't get to sleep in the night & I will just stay up to like 4.30am doing nothing (staring at the wall)
Okay maybe talking on the phone.
Anyone tonight? :D
3am Chinese Drama Show tonight.

There's no school on Friday which is a good thing but we still have to go ECP for PL's Jog-A-Thon?
Tsk, waste my time please.

2007-06-22T13:59:00.000+08:00

Talked to Kim last night and the both of us cannot stop whinning and complaining.
I was complaining of whole body ache & she was whinning of some other stuffs.
Lol, and thereafter talked to Dervin till 5.30am
My gosh, the conversation was damn funny.
I couldn't stop laughing throughout.
Now I don't owe anyone any midnight calls.
I am going to be so dead when school reopens cause I cannot sleep every night till like maybe 6 plus then I will start to get sleepy.
My gosh, that is really bad.
Anyway, I am going to meet the girls' tonight <333

2007-06-21T23:57:00.000+08:00

Sentosa with family & primary school usuals. HAHAHA! :D Dawn & Fiona & the girls. Cam-whored a lot & had lots of fun with them.
Usual gossip & bitching session.
Dinner at Pasir Panjang(?) Hawker.
Stingray, oyster egg, lala, chicken wings, satay...
So much food that we couldn't finish it.
Then up to Mt. Faber =)

2007-06-20T12:51:00.000+08:00

Online conference with Kim, Xuebs & Lauren last night.
It was damn funny cause I saw Kim's personal message : Love is suicide
And I told them :
Okay every one take pen knife and cut wrist.
Slit your wrists and then stained it on your wall and write down love is suicide with your blood.
Then write a letter and then leave the stain on the letter.
Then send it with your stain as stamp and then slit it with your ex lover's name on the envelope itself.
If the postman never send and return back to me i stain his face with my blood.
(It was damn funny, we laugh cause we were so suicidal for no reason.)

Talked on the phone with Kim till 5am, we talked about every single thing & I cannot stop laughing under my blanket covers. Lol & we ended the conversation with her saying wah lao, all my neighbours' maids all wake up already the 2 of us haven't even gone to bed yet. It sounded damn fuuuuuuuunnnnnnyy! :D

2007-06-19T23:57:00.000+08:00

Poke balls with JNG, Lyt & Lauren yesterday. =)
Usual talks and all.

Today the miss act clever went to gym herself.
Wah, thought very clever & think that running is really cool cause it makes you realize and think back kind of thing?
Run run run.
After that , walk home.
Go toilet black out.
Never mind after that, want to replace Singapore's Merlion.
Wah, I think more effective than Singapore's merlion siah.

Okay I am really talking lots of nonsense tonight.
I got so happy when I heard that Vodka is selling at 2 for $26 in Duty Free. ( i heard it before somemore, but i forgotton -.-)

Lyt is helping me to do Book Review and I have to pay her $1 for her services. ( she's helping me to promote, i helping people do maths homework.)
You cheer up lah! I am worse then you but I still laugh with you all. Lets budget party after N's lah.
HAHAHA!
Any takers to help me to do POA ? I pay you $1.01 ( Be glad, i pay you higher! )

Lauren, cheer up! You'll sure get a reply. COME LET'S SMILE! Lets be happy kids. Smiling won't hurt right & I am in a worse situation then you and I can actually smile & laugh :D
Love love, <3

Kimberley, professional liar. We are really the best in the whole universe.
I think both of us offended that two person in our previous life.
Sibei cham siah.
I can now really go and kill myself :(
Late night conference later okay!
I have a lot to say for tonight ! :D
Love love, <3

Its the last week of holidays & I have nothing done.
I haven't really catch up with many except for a few.
HELLO FRIENDS, let's catch up in my dreams!
I have yet to do my work & my week is packed with stuff.
Okay, I am going to stay home tomorrow for I don't know what.
And party all the way to sunday! :DDD
How 'bout that?
When am I going to start studying & back to usual self?
No idea.

EUNICE: I hope you brought your phone along and read my message. =)

This is getting really long & I have no idea why.
Maybe to kill boredom.
I'm talking to everyone.
HAHAHA!
Makes no sense but never mind.
There's far too much inside jokes tonight.
I cannot stop laughing. Lol, =)

GOODNIGHT EVERYONE, its time for supper & late night conferences! <33>

2007-06-18T12:14:00.000+08:00

Late night conference with the usual 3 girls again.
Crazy karaoke cheena singing at 3am on the phone.
Was supposed to wake up this MORNING for Gym.
But I couldn't, I am really hopeless please.
Even the continuous alarm could not wake me up.
I dreamt of me and you bear. Lol, =)

2007-06-16T15:03:00.000+08:00

As usual late night conferencing with the 3 girls.
They were busy friendstering and I was busy eating.
And I am still so tired though I just woke up.

2007-06-15T23:33:00.000+08:00

Eunice & LYT came over in the night.
We cam whored A LOT.
Be it crazy, ugly, unglamorous we do it!
HAHAHA!
Talked and all.
Its pretty fun hanging around the poolside downstairs monkeying around.

2007-06-15T13:16:00.000+08:00

This is KARMA
But not for me.
Its for you.
Don't you think that the almost similar incident happened on you?
Don't think that I am actually happy for it.
For your information, no matter how we are now, I am not actually being happy over it.
And I am feeling no better then you.
I mean being a passerby / stranger will feel the same way as I do.
Wait a minute, you might not have any idea what the hell am I talking right here.
Cause you have no idea what is happening.
Let that person tell you.
I am not going to start being a bitch and come and tell you such stuff.
You go and find it out yourself cause thats what I did that time.

2007-06-14T16:50:00.000+08:00

Something isn't right
I can feel it again feel it again
This isn't the first time
That you left me waiting
Sad excuses and false hopes high
I saw this coming still I don't know why
I let you in

I knew it all along
It's so predictable
I knew something would go wrong
So you don't have to call
Or say anything at all
It's so predictable

So take your empty words your broken promises
And all the time you stole cause I am done with this
I can give it away give it away
I'm doing everything I should've
And now I'm making a change
I'm living the day
I'm giving back what you gave me
I don't need anything

Everywhere I go
Everyone I meet
Every time I try to fall in love
They all wanna know why I'm so broken
Why am I so cold
Why I'm so hard inside.
Why am I scared
What am I afraid of
I don't even know
This story's never had an end
I've been waiting
I've been searching
I've been hoping
I've been dreaming you would come back
But I know the ending of this story
You're never coming back

Everywhere I go for the rest of my life
Everyone that I love
Everyone I care about
They're all gonna wanna know what's wrong with me
And I know what it is
I'm ending this right now..

2007-06-14T12:49:00.000+08:00

If I ever understand you
Yesterday, lunched with Jng & LYT at PS.
Walked around & cabbed home to poke balls :D
Conferenced with Kim, Ner, Lyt, Jng & xue er last night.
Amazingly Kim & I ended the night's call till 4.30am
That was to kill time for talking nonsense.
Now, I have to rush to meet Jng at Junction 8 =)

Last night's dream was pretty WEIRD.

2007-06-13T12:30:00.000+08:00

Holidays Are Boring.
I'm going to stay home for this whole week and finish up whatever that needs to be done.
PARTY & PLAY next week!
I've yet to even stay home the whole day.
I found out quite a lot of things during the holidays! :D
Lyt thinks that I should be some PI or something.
Sure, if i fail my n's.
I'm just feeling really lazy.
I'm sibei hungry until can die but I have no idea what to eat.
Please take a gun and shoot me. )=

2007-06-07T14:44:00.000+08:00

I've got this from friendster bulletin cause I am bored :(

RULES:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!!!

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY ?
I’ve never been to me

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Boston

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
better than me

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
over you

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
fuck you right back

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
will you wait for me

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Far away

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
obsession

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
give it to me

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIES?
until I get over you

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Forever in love

WhAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Chasing cars

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Just so you know

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
It ends tonight

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU??
A thousand miles

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
all good things come to an end

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Open arms

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
different

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Over it

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
right where you want me

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Notice me

WHAT SONG WILL BE THE SUBJECT WHEN YOU REPOST?
nothing in this world

Okay miss, your 15 minutes break is up.
Time to continue on your work. =)

2007-06-06T18:21:00.000+08:00

Chalet was alrights.
Escape was free. =)
I will never pay for escape cause it isn't worth it at all.
We went in for around 1 hour & we came out.
It was super boring.
Sat around in the chalet.
The chalet was like in a disastrous state please.
And I guess chalet is a super happening place :D

So tell me how's last night =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOLENE!
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JUNE!

2007-06-04T22:00:00.000+08:00

I think the holidays are making me worse.
HAHAHA!
This holiday I lied, pon school, walk out of school, skip lessons, got drunk..
Today's no exception.
I reached school at 7.35am when lessons start at 8am.
Sat at Assembly area with Kim, Xue Er, Jng, Lauren, Eunice till 9.30am then we started to go in for lesson.
Bio's break was at 10am so we had only 1/2 hour of lessons and when the 2nd half of lesson starts at 10.30am, we walked out of school and headed down to Hougang Mall for breakfast.
How cool eh.
Okay, I make 2 bet with 2 different people.
I won't want to lose out the two bets cause the consequence is real bad.
Especially the 2nd bet with Amanda & Kimberley.
My gosh, that one if I ever lose that bet I can really go and kill myself siah. =)

the next time it wouldn't be for the same reason again, I promise. =)

2007-06-03T21:42:00.000+08:00

Black Red Print

There's still 2 more days of lessons (BIOLOGY)
When school is officially closed for us.

I have no reply. (:

2007-06-01T22:25:00.000+08:00

I'm ruining myself with alcohol and the bitter taste of cigarette smoke.
Okay, I swear I am going to turn damn fat when school reopens.
First week of holiday is going to be gone soon & I have yet to done anything.
This holiday's going to be a good one! =)
JOJO, KOKO, XOXO, LOLO, LOLO, SOSO, EOEO, SOSO lets have a party again during end of holiday without drinks at my place.
Let's get high again!

So I heard that I've changed huh?
Who is the one first?
Who is the one for the sake of love gave up this friendship?
You listened to her part of the story but not mine.
So you had assumed all along that she's right & I am wrong? Corrupted?
HA-HA. I want to laugh so badly.
If you think I have nothing to say about this whole damn situation, sorry you're wrong.
Its just that I can't be bothered since you are not even by a bit.

2007-06-01T14:58:00.000+08:00

I know I am ~~corrupted~~
School was never productive.
Kim, Lauren, Jng, Xue Er, Eunice, LYT, Gurleen, Shazana, Seetoh & I gave Literature Lessons a miss.
Sat downstairs and talked non-stop.
We cannot stop laughing about Wednesday night.
I didn't know I did so much things & I said out quite much stuff.
Never mind, I don't regret a single bit to get wasted that night.
Let's all be HAPPY PEOPLE! =)
Gave accounts a miss too.
Serangoon Central macs with Fangs, Xue Er, Manda & Kim.
There was this aunty who came and talk about god for so long.
I cannot stop laughing, sorry I know I am very mean.
It was damn funny & Xue Er is damn annoying.
She kept on imitating the aunty.

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN NER =)

2007-05-31T13:25:00.000+08:00

Oh my goodness
LYT, Kim & I went for Chemistry lessons only at 10.45am when the class started at 8am & it ends at 11.30am We were in school all along & some more we were sitting downstairs the Chemistry lab. Lol. Ms Ferng was saying: Wah, you think you all changing shift uh?

Headed down to Bugis to catch Shrek 3 ( as usual, i fell asleep. it was so damn tiring) But after all the show is funny!

Rushed down to Ner's place. (HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN BABE!)
Talked around & ate the food.
Everyone wanted to go down to Konvicted after the party & so everyone was coming up with ideas dealing with parents and all.
But Kim came up with the idea of us all going to her house & drink.
So Xue Er, Siew Hwee, Lauren & Jng cabbed back to L's place the mama shop to get drinks.
Kim, Serene, Eunice, LYT & me mrt-ed down to Kim's place.
It was supposed to get everyone high but I WAS THE ONLY WHO STARTED THE EMO-ing.
EMO songs were playing & tears just naturally came along.
It was the first time that I cried like a fucking bitch in front of my friends, I swear no one seen me in that state before.
I scared quite a few of them.
With all the drunk violence of slamming my fist onto the floor.
Drinks & all.
The aim is to probably just finish that whole bottle of absolute or rather get each other drunk.
Therefore the whole night was just drink, drink, drink.
I was the first to get drunk cause I cannot stop drinking.
I think I drank the most cause my cup kept on being refilled.
Siew Hwee & I had serious rashes.
My WHOLE BODY WAS RED.
Hands, legs, face, neck, stomach...
Damn gross siah.
And so the crying came.
I cried like fuck, that kind of never ending?
Lol, Kim & Lauren cannot stop giving me drinks.
And so I drank drank drank.
And I vomited in the toilet.
Thank god Kim's toilet is not dirty cause I sat in the toilet for like almost 35 minutes.
The rest were in room screaming, shouting laughing loudly.
By the time i went back into the room, Kim was already sehh already.
Lol, she keep on laughing and saying that police coming.
Then Xue er kept on disturbing Kim saying her mother (cause there are lots of her mother's photos in the room) is staring at her & kim went to hide all the photos.
Many many many stuffs happened.
They played 'o ya bey ya som' which made most of them dropped dead.
We played 'I never' too and secrets exposed and all.
All those drama ended around 3plus.
Kim, Lauren, LYT, Xue er, Siew Hwee & I are the only ones that drop dead drunk.
I remembered sitting outside Kim's house sleeping on the floor!
Sorry to those whom we called and made hell lots of nonsense.
Cabbed home with Lauren this morning & I swear I am so tired till I slept so well after bathing.
I was feeling so disgusted with the shirt kim lent me cause its so gross with me puking & having alcohol on it. HAHAHA!

to everyone who was there last night:
Thank you so so much for last night. I never regretted that I got drunk cause I have got all of you. Thanks for all your hugs. You guys made my night! =)

Kim & LYT:
Cheer up girls. Things would get better and time will heal everything alrights! I LOVE YOU ALL VERY MUCH! <33

Now my hand hurts like crap. Its like the second time I am hurting the same hand, same finger. Okay, I think the bone will break if I hurt it the next time round.

2007-05-29T21:20:00.001+08:00

School is really boring. Chemistry till 11.30am
Had a great lunch & talk with Eunice & Kimberley at Serangoon Central.
I don't feel like going to school tomorrow but I am lazy to go and get MC.
& I think I am going to meet the girls' for breakfast at Central's macs then down to school.
I want to be LATE for lessons & I don't want to wear school uniform =(

2007-05-28T23:00:00.000+08:00

I woke up at 6am this morning stoning and left my house at 7am I walked to the bus stop and it was 7.15am
Thinking Ms Lauren Chang will be on the bus later then 7.15 so I didn't board the bus thats just directly in front of me.
But that ass just had to be one the bus some more waving at me ( i didn't see her )
So never mind I was waiting for the next bus.
Wait wait wait..
43 came I stared at it, I forgotten that 43 goes to school so I was just thinking hard and it left =(
So 2nd bus bye bye.
Waited waited still waiting..
HERE COMES MY BUS! =)
I regretted not going up the previous one cause it was squeezy.
Now I know how come EOEO said that my brain/mind works damn slow in the morning!
HAHAHA!

Lessons were boring. So the whole morning was us writing on the full scape paper to each other.

Last night I sent message to all those who are taking Chinese O's today and guess what were some replies: I took it last year due to HMT ( never mind ) , the next is : YOU TOO =) ( WAH LAO, I LOOK SO CLEVER TO YOU MEH? SORRY HOR! I AM NOT TAKING THIS YEAR! )
Waste my messages siah. Lol, I am just kidding. =)

Met Lauren, Eunice, Jng & LYT, headed down to Bugis.
Shopped around & went off to Great Grandma's place.
(The view from the window worth a million dollars siah, not kidding)
When you can see Swissotel, Suntec, Marina South (merry go round (?) ) HAHA! =)

2007-05-27T20:46:00.000+08:00

So Ms Jasmine Koh has been sibei bored for the whole day thats why she is back with a second post. This is the first time I stayed home for the whole day since last year I think. HAHA!

Okay, talked to : EOEO, SOSO, EOEO, KOKO, LOLO, LOLO, LOLO, XOXO online been fun!
Those are all different people.

EOEO wants to applaud to me for something I have not let go. Thank you very much EOEO.
XOXO is funny girl to talk to. =)
LOLO is funny also okay.

Shit, I am talking nonsense.
Please someone come and entertain me or else I will go crazy. =(

2007-05-27T16:26:00.000+08:00

Would you be there

Great Singapore Sales is here yet I am at home.
I have no motivation / mood to get out of the house.
I feel like sleeping till the next morning but I just couldn't get to sleep.
I am bored.
I am bored.
I have nothing to do thats why I am bored.
I don't want to go out and meet people thats why I am bored.
I am very tired.
I am lazy.
I don't know what to do next.
I don't feel like going to school tomorrow.
But I have no MC ( cause ferng wants mc from us )
I need some entertainment in life. ( which i dont )
I need to do so much things yet I am lazy to get out.
I am lazy to think.
I am even lazy to answer phone calls.
I am lazy to call people cause I need to think what is their number.
I am bored.
I am getting really random.
I don't care if i am random.
I feel like eating.
But I am lazy to cook or go out.
I don't want to call Delivery cause I told you I am lazy to think of the number.
I am always complaining about being bored but do nothing about it.
I am going to get out the house & go shopping tomorrow.
I hope I will be motivated.
I hope I won't be too tired.
I hope the weather won't be too hot.
I hope there's no school tomorrow. ( like real )
I am talking to Livia online now.
We are bored people.
She is getting emo.
So it ~~affects~~me.
I should start thinking of what to do.

If I were blue, would you be there for me,

And whisper in my ears that's ok.

Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight,

And say you love me one more time.

If I feel good, would you slow dance with me,

And touch my lips with tender loving care,

Would you die for me, would you run with me,

And never look back.

Would you be there to love, to be with me?

Would you swear that your love is always true?

Would you say that you'll always be the one,

to take my breath away?

2007-05-26T22:34:00.000+08:00

Tearing on the streets with your ipod on & someone just walking beside you silently really kills.
It was such fucking unglamorous moment.
Its just the 1st day of holiday & I can sense that I am going to blind by the time school reopens.

2007-05-26T13:24:00.000+08:00

Finally a change in blog skin & editing for links.
Took out those who don't update or closed down their blogs.
The weather is killing, its so hot. =(
It feels as if when I step out of the house, I will melt.
Sales, sales, sales...
Too hot for me to go out.
Midnight shopping anyone? =)

2007-05-25T23:17:00.001+08:00

They said it isn't worth it

So I woke up this morning with very puffy, red, swollen eyes.
What a way to start off my holiday.
Well, today's my self declared holiday.
Last night was hell again.
Breakfast with Daddy at Tiong Bahru (?) porridge. =)
Then trained down to HarbourFront to meet Serene & Eunice.
Went into Sentosa and bump into Karin, Darie, Amanda & sec 1 clarinet junior.
Then bump into some other PL girls on the beach.
Tanning session with them was really not bad!
Heart to heart talks in the sea was hahaha!
Back to Gardens' Kleancut. ( i realized i cut my hair real often!)
I took 1 & 1/2 hours just to finish washing, blowing, cutting and all.
Chomps with the both of them.
Stingray, lala....
Its simply love <3
Now I am so burnt and hot like a LOBSTER!
I can feel the heat siah.

Last night was a mistake.
Thanks to those who was there, I am fine. =)

2007-05-24T18:25:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 2ND MONTH ANNIVERSARY JNG & YO! =)

School has been so boring please.
More talks with Kim, Ner, Jng, Calista, Seetoh & Shazana.
Topics from: Lesbianism, Gossips, ex-boyfriends, boyfriends, courtship, relationship...
If school was like this everyday, I would really hate going to school, so slack and boring.
Anyway, the vp does not approve to give us a off day tomorrow but you know what my character.
HAHAHA! Who do you think will turn up for lessons? Tsk!
Anyway, I am so ultimate pissed that someone in the class actually when to tell Ms Chew that Lauren asked her to lie about the number of people that wants to turn up for Prom. Wtf, whatever lah. You don't want to go this year's and want to attend your guy's prom then say so lah. No need to drag the whole class down, I mean like we want to go for our own prom siah. ( but nvm, we can go PROM next year, its okay ****) ((((((((((=

Time do pass fast cause its like end of the term already.
5 months going on to 6 months is going to pass soon.
I don't see myself enjoying this year. =(

Faster let me grow 16 so I can party without worrying. =)

2007-05-23T18:19:00.000+08:00

I don't want to miss a thing

School was simply slacking and wasting my time away.
Sat around and talked about everything and they were talking about ......
So sitting there listening was not bad, cause it just fill up my whole morning.
Maybe if we lucky, our both classes are able to go for PROM this year, and Ms Chew is fighting for us not to attend school on Friday cause its just for miserably 2 hours. =)
Class outing is going to be next Thursday & we are going for STEAMBOAT!
Left my school bag in the locker & I think my mum's going to scold me.
Cabbed down to Kim's place for lunch.
Pork porridge with century egg, egg & you tiao(?) is NICE! & ice Milo. <3
Walked down to Cine & caught Blades of Glory (I thought it was a very scary movie -.-)
I almost fell asleep during the show when Kim had to comment so loudly when the couple was kissing.
But its really a nice show! Its damn funnnnnnyyyyyy.
I can't wait for the weekends to be here. ( I feel like sleeping already.)
Kim & I conclude that W is still cute. =)

XOXO

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing,
Watch you smile while you are sleeping,
While you're far away and dreaming,
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender,
I could stay lost in this moment forever,
Well, every moment spent with you,
Is a moment I treasure

I don't wanna close my eyes,
I don't wanna fall asleep,
'Cause I'd miss you, baby,
And I don't wanna miss a thing,
'Cause even when I dream of you,
The sweetest dream would never do,
I'd still miss you, baby,
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Lying close to you,
Feeling your heart beating,
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming,
Wondering if it's me you're seeing,
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together,
And I just wanna stay with you,
In this moment forever, forever and ever,

I don't wanna miss one smile,
I don't wanna miss one kiss,
Well, I just wanna be with you,
Right here with you, just like this,
I just wanna hold you close,
Feel your heart so close to mine,
And just stay here in this moment,
For all the rest of time

2007-05-21T16:02:00.000+08:00

Is that just a simple lie or there's more to it

I'm struggling hard.
Well, everyone is struggling hard not only me.
It hit me very badly.
It hurts so much that I never know that you're actually that important in my life.
That I lose my interest in everything.
But then again, I don't blame you for that.
Its just me being stupid holding on.
And probably I deserve it.

I guess everybody saw it coming, was too blind, far too blind.
I'm just fooling myself.
Pretending and all.
Thinking everything will stay.
It will still be the same.
But now, everything's too late.
But let's just take it as a lesson learnt.

It took me long enough to wake up.
Eventually, it's gonna fade with time, i know i am going to be fine after that.
I promised everyone time and time again.
Each time the promises gets broken by myself.
Its just too hard.
Yet again, I'm back to square one.

The promises does not seem realistic anymore.
It seems so fake.
I do wonder how come some people just live on life like nothing happened.
Do you mean what you said?
Do you really mean all those words?

Eh, I've been in this thing for far too long and its time to get out.
Before its really going to affect my n's.
Cause I just do not have the mood to study at all.
Not even in the mood for anything.
Really, I promised all those close ones, those around me that I will let this go.
Let myself start to concentrate and study.
Everyone did not believe me.
No one did.

I'm sorry for time and time again I broke the promises I make to you all.
You should know who you are.
Thanks for those talks. (it really was great!)
Thanks for those time being there for me no matter how busy you guys are.
This time I will really try and give me best.
Because I know there is no time to waste.
And not forgetting giving in to me endlessly.

2007-05-20T16:09:00.001+08:00

2007-05-20T11:46:00.000+08:00

Like you even bother / understand

Friday's paper 2 for accounts was ALRIGHT kind, so when Jasmine says that its alrights, it means she is going to fail until damn jialat. And oral was not bad cause the topic was not really difficult. Its about zoo and the conversation was when was the last time you went to zoo! I was so happy ( i don't know why) Cause just last month I went to zoo. Lol.

Pizza Hut at Heartland with Amanda, Eliza, Demelza, Serene, Angeline, Janice Chan, Lauren, LYT & Eunice. =) & KIMBERLEY! (happy not!)

Friday night was spent with Eliza, Eunice & Manda. Caught Spiderman 3 at Cine. I know I am slow lah but then I don't really like watching this kind of show but I had nothing to do. Lol, so the show was quite scary. I was shouting/screaming throughout the show. Really that scary and Manda & Eunice cannot stop laughing at me. I was so damn scared that I was close my eyes & ears for like almost 3/4 of the show. And not forgetting I kept on telling Amanda stuffs that almost made me laughing out loud. The show ended around 11 plus so we were wandering on the streets. Sat outside old john little building and cabbed home later on. I was so dead tired the moment I reached home & I almost fall asleep on the phone.

Saturday was spent with the girls. Janice Ng, Lauren, Nerissa, Kimberley. We went for some stupid workshop that we left halfway through. Walked to outside Kim's place and had lunch. Nice =)
Trained down to Raffles place (according to kim's mum that it would be nearer). We walked for so so so long till we reached home club. We should have bloody hell gone from Central and not walked everywhere like dumb shit. Went into Home Club. Waited for Desmond to come and we went in. We were super early I swear. It was damn funny. Walked down to Central to accompany Desmond for his late lunch and we went back. It was hell boring in the beginning. We almost fell asleep on the sofa. And when the dancing started, it was SUPER FUN. We were dancing/jumping like mad woman. It was really fun to be with the girls and I swear there are lots of funny people around. Not forgetting this guy who keeps on coming in between us. And this ah beng was dancing techno himself. Lol, and drank a few sips of vodka. Left the place around 9pm and down to central to find LYT & Livia. Was supposed to meet Samantha but sorry eh. I put people on aeroplane again. Well, at least she had something on too. =) Another time eh. Trained down to town & walked to see J's guy. I swear we were like damn noisy in a quiet building. Then down to PS BK to sit & talk cock.
(/edit) Now my leg hurts like fuck cause I was jumping like a crazy bitch with my heels on. Imaging dancing for 1 whole night with heels, it hurts like fuck. Who the hell said that last night's was a gig. Tsk!

I had a lot of fun with everyone. <33>
When the results come back, I can really go and bang the wall. Lol.

Thank you to everyone who had been there for me all these while. Not forgetting the few girls. (you know who you are.) Really xie xie ni men! =)

2007-05-17T14:35:00.000+08:00

1 MORE PAPER (:

I swear I can't wait for tomorrow's paper to be OVER.
1 more Accounts Paper 2 and I am FREE.
My gosh, I didn't know what is capital account.
Please kill me, I am going to fail accounts like nobody damn business.
Tomorrow's ORAL PRELIM too.

Bye Exams, Hello Shopping!

2007-05-16T22:42:00.000+08:00

No, I'm not crying over you

I am left with only Maths Paper 2 & Accounts Paper! =))
Alrights, Kim & I are going to get karma back X10000000000
I swear we are damn mean people who laugh at things that we are not SUPPOSED to.
Or maybe, we should not.
It feels like our papers have ended.
I cannot wait for shopping !

Last night was one night of lectures.

2007-05-15T23:36:00.000+08:00

I’m writing a 10 pages long of letter to you

Everyone been saying that I haven been serious.
I didn’t bother about work and all.
I have been trying to avoid the topic and all.
But escaping is not a solution.
Cause I escape time and time again.
Pretending things are alright.
Pretending I am okay.
I will try to get serious for my N’s.
Not forgetting be serious in life and settle down.
Not that kind of life anymore please miss.
Don't worry too much eh, to those who mentioned about it.
HAHAHA!

I am going to stay up for BIOLOGY . =)

K & I used to be blind and now still it. Please explain to me why.

2007-05-15T13:50:00.000+08:00

You are off the list
What's with all the I WILL WAKE UP & STUDY LATER kind of promises?
EMPTY ones.
I am SUPPOSED to wake up at 3.50am to study this morning but ended up SLEEPING after a call. (not surprised eh)

So J called me when I was in the subconscious mood:
4am
J: Eh miss, wake up and study for your papers tomorrow already.
Me: Huh? What? Don't want. I want to sleep. Very tired siah. Later lah later. Where are you?
(At that time, I thought it was L.)
J: What don't want? Just finished drinking? Blah blah blah.. Nag nag nag...
Me: Okay okay. I wake up okay, you don't nag. Eh you tomorrow no school uh? How come can go out and drink?
J: Huh? Who go and study? You haven't wake up is it?

Lol, I was really in a kind of tired & don't disturb mood.
Therefore, I didn't know what was J talking about.
He put down the phone & I continued sleeping. =)

2007-05-14T14:45:00.000+08:00

Upon the thought of it I’m feeling the pain

Weekends were SUPPOSED to be spent studying.

Friday night was ~~night studying~~ with Eunice, Eliza, Amanda & LYT.

Saturday was then CHOMPS for supper. (Blame on Siewhwee! She tempted me into eating in the afternoon when I was talking to her online!)

Sunday -- HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY! <33
Suntec then down to restaurant to meet the whole family.
Bought every single MOTHER a stalk.

I am supposed to be on a diet. Not touching Macs, Chomps, KFC blah blah blah.
Not even eating breakfast/ recess/ dinner & supper. =(

Times have past but I’m still holding on and on
The memories refuse to move along
But can you hear me now?

And as I thought, you can't, you're just too far away
Maybe someday, you're going to come my way and then
We could patch things up as friends
But my love, things will never be the same again

2007-05-11T15:09:00.000+08:00

A letter to your lover

I didn't have time to complete my Social Studies Paper.
1 hour and 30 minutes to finish 4 SBQ & 3 Essay based.
That's killer =(

Chinese was okay kind.
But I doubt I can even pass it.
Cause I totally have no single idea about the Comprehension (MCQ)

Chinese oral was talking nonsense.
I just blabber out whatever I think of.

Nose was a killer.
It just so irritating and annoying that I feel like leaving my nose in my drawer.
HAHAHAHA!

2007-05-10T22:00:00.000+08:00

Exams totally suck to the maximum with the ++ Blocked nose & Sore throat.

Late night studying is definitely back & I am so going to fail everything.

Maybe I will let you know, but then again, maybe I won't.

2007-05-09T15:16:00.000+08:00

Mid years is just TOMORROW :(
But then.. NEXT FRIDAY IS FREEDOM &&&&&& meeting up with Lewis.
And not forgetting passing the thing to vian.
MANY MANY CATCH UP to do! =)

Do you feel that you know more about your enemy rather than your best/close friends.

2007-05-08T13:48:00.000+08:00

What a good timing to get sick, so now I've been down with slight fever, SERIOUS SORE THROAT, slight stomache and headache. My gosh, first paper is just 2 days away and yet I am down with such nonsense. My throat is burning like crazy, its worse then having tequila or absolute down my throat. =\
Chinese Oral is on Friday (its very bad, cause I cannot even pronounce/read the Chinese words properly + no voice = FAIL!)

Medicine is so so disgusting. =(

2007-05-06T19:38:00.000+08:00

Die on the dance floor

Shopping this morning /afternoon again. My gosh, last night I dreamt of someone's funeral. I had Lewis accompanied me for it when he don't even know that person. Its really weird and messy. Evening was spent with Cheena Chinese. I realized that my mum's standard of Chinese is only at Primary school level cause she herself does not know how to do my N's Chinese. For Cloze passage, We ( cause we did it tgt ) got 7/20 with the help of dictionary. We interpret the meaning wrongly and all. I do until she told me to just forget about Chinese, too difficult. Just try to pass can already. Lol =)

After 1 year that Emmanuel 6 has passed, I've got Darie to sent the recordings to me.
So now I have:
-SYF 2005 : They stood at the edge of the sky
-Sea Breeze (Peiling's solo is the BOMB!)
-Joseph and the Technicolor code
-American Riversong
-Selection from the King and I
-Rum Bah

I can send to you if you want it. =)

2007-05-05T19:07:00.000+08:00

Beauty should be your name

JASMINE KOH arh, you better wake up or else you are going to die REAL BAD. Mid years is just next week and I am not even preparing for it. I bet I am the only one that can't be bothered cause every single person in class are like mugging real hard and I am playing/shopping real hard! I have to really stop myself from all these distractions and start having TUTION. That kind of like the person who teaches me will scold me kind. No fun no joke.

Met up with Samantha at 1030 this morning. We were supposed to meet at 0930 and as usual I overslept so yeah. Studied Maths at PS' Macs. Then both of us headed down to Raffles City , Peninsular, Marina Square. Then I went down to Bugis and PS with Serene, Jng, YO! Walked around PS down to Cathay and then Serene and I left for KOPI ROTI <3333 style="font-family:Verdana;font-size:85%;">

Don't look no farther
Cause Ill be your lover
Ill be your best friend
Tell me what I gotta do
Now im back in a flesh
Feeling so blessed, back in your corner sugar, sugar don't stress
Forget about the rest; let's go inside, im back in your zone
Baby im back in your vibe, now I cant be denied I can lie im on ya
I never ever wanna say sayonara
Some body told me that the grass was greener
On the other side andale arriba
Never really used to be a mean to cheat her
What I gotta do to be your keeper
These words coming out the speaker, true love is off the meter.

2007-05-05T00:16:00.000+08:00

All the photos below are my unglam/bad hair day/crazy/spastic. And not forgetting the girls in ISETAN UNIFORM look alike. Tsktsk!

Goodnight world, I am dead t`ired.

2007-05-04T13:17:00.001+08:00

It's not easy

6 days to mid years.
14 days to FREEDOM (well, i hope so.)

I finally got my new pinafore. It needs alteration badly but I have no time for that.

Tuesday was spent in PS, Marina Square & Suntec.
Kenny rogers is really yum yum. (AMANDA TAN ! You owe me a dinner out at KENNY ROGERS!)

Wednesday afternoon was spent in the ZOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
Its really long since I've been there. =)))

Yesterday was Kim over at my place for a while. After school, cabbed home. ( I swear cabbing makes me real broke. ) Changed and cabbed down to Bishan. I SAW MY DEAREST CRAZIEST NOSIEST GOSSIPY JUNIOR! =) I swear I was damn lucky or something cause I never bump into her outside school before. Hanged around. Its been long since I talked to D, so we had a short conversation which lasted for 30:11minutes. =)

Gave school a miss today and had breakfast at club. I studied GEOGRAPHY okay!
I can't wait for tonight and tomorrow! =)))
Stayover/Shopping! <333>

I am acting like there is no mid years. Oh my gosh, I think the whole world is so worried for their papers and all and I still can enjoy life to the fullest. Its been long since I had supper with the crazy people.

Bye world, I need to drown myself with Geography again.
Popluation, tourism, plate tectonics blah blah blah.

2007-04-30T17:14:00.002+08:00

Mid years are coming up REAL SOON and I am still in the shopping kind of mood. That kind of ‘I CANNOT BE BOTHERED” mood. Its very bad I know, but I just can’t be motivated for exams. I have no idea why.

Dear Ms Jasmine Koh, please get your engines running or else you will die very badly when the report book comes back.

" Sometimes it's still hard to believe you're gone. "

2007-04-28T12:57:00.000+08:00

Kaleidoscope

Thank you to everyone who came down to watch.
Yes yes, it was the last concert for every CCA before their Sec 4s step down.
(I hope we get to go for some overseas music exchange according to what sir told us)
A whole 13 hours in school waiting waiting and more waiting.
Cam whoring during waiting with the band members. =)
Lunched at my favorite hang out OMS. (opposite mama shop)
Lol, then performance was alrights.
Flowers are great! (but all died)
Night was one great i think.
I was in total shock seeing someone turned out. HAHA!
Supper at Kovan Macs was flooded with PL girls.
It went badly.
Angeline, Eunice and friend sent me home first. (:
The whole day was just purely cam whoring, waiting, eating junk and playing Emmanuel 6 songs.

Thank you everyone, really <33

2007-04-27T22:07:00.000+08:00

Within 1 hour of car ride, I received so many calls which is so fucking annoying I swear. Its either you guys have no fucking life or you are just trying to get on my nerves. Well congratulations, you did it. I am so fucking pissed with all those shit. Seriously, I am so IRRITATED. You want to try it out huh. Come after my mid years I can play along with you. Eh, this year you taking O's not me. I am only taking N's. So who is the one that cannot afford to play? Me or you?

Fucker siah.

I REALLY THINK I SHOULD GROW UP TO BE DETECTIVE OR PI OR SOMETHING. REALLY, CONFIRM EARN BIG BUCKS MAN. FASTER FASTER WANT TO FIND OUT ANYTHING ABOUT YOUR BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND OR YOUR FRIEND OR WHATEVER. COME AND FIND ME ! CONFIRM GOT RESULTS OUT ONE. TRUST MEEEE.. =)

2007-04-27T19:35:00.000+08:00

Kaleidoscope is just TOMORROW!

I can't wait to faster get it over and done with. Then I can start concentrating on my work.

Last night was in one of the MOODS again. Was on the phone with L and me crying for fuck. I don't know why I cried for. Whatever lah, I get so tired easily these days.

Jasmine: eh, that time i watch mini syf until i fall asleep, somemore sleep so comfortably with my legs on the seat like treat myself at home like that.
Lewis: Since when you don't sleep? You sleep wherever you go, whatever you are doing. I am not surprised at all.

I SLEEP BECAUSE I AM TIRED. AND SLEEPING IS GOOD CAUSE YOU DON'T NEED TO WORRY THIS AND THAT. =)))

I wanna call the stars
Down from the sky
I wanna live a day
That never dies
I wanna change the world
Only for you
All the impossible
I wanna do

I wanna hold you close
Under the rain
I wanna kiss your smile
And feel the pain
I know what's beautiful
Looking at you
In a world of lies
You are the truth

2007-04-26T22:02:00.000+08:00

Lessons were alrights.
Maths was almost a killer.
Band Prac was spent doing Kaleidoscope Rehearsal.

Kaleidoscope is coming in 2 days time! =)

Oh, I need serious & proper talk with some people after mid years. (Important)

I am very impressed. =))

2007-04-24T22:50:00.000+08:00

Sweet surprise

School was a tiny weeny bit of pmsy.
PE was in the new gym room.
It is one of the best room I can find in school.
I go and act macho and lift the weights and I swear I hurt my right hand.
It is really hurting like crap cause I feel like crying now.
Nownow, I feel so happy cause there are so many upcoming stuffs that are so so COOL!
Okay, Kaleidoscope is coming up this SATURDAY.
Band prac would be from 9AM to 10PM?
Afterwhich BAND SUPPER together. (location is not settled i think)
And band might be having our FAREWELL* overseas.
Either Thailand or Malaysia.
Note: FAREWELL, not for any competition or whatsoever. Its purely to have fun and take a break to have a memorable farewell. HAHAHA! I REALLY CANNOT WAIT TO GET OUT OF SINGAPORE, this depressing place. And not forgetting SHOPPING TIME! =)
See! Band became SO SO SO COOL!
Alrights, I have to do my farewell stuffs soon!
And and and, chalet have been booked/confirmed which a big YAYNESS!
4 days 3 nights but 1 night is for party cause I don't think people will be free to even come down. SO YES! =)

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I want to call you but I know you won't be there
I'm sorry for blaming you for everything
I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just want to hide 'cause it's you I miss
You know it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this
Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't to do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back
I'm sorry for blaming you for everything
I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
If I had just one more day, I would tell you how much that
I've missed you since you've been away
Oh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line to try and turn back time
I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
By hurting you

2007-04-23T21:48:00.000+08:00

I don't know & I don't want to know.

Last night dream was GREAT.
Gave school a miss.
Well, I did Maths & Cheena Chinese this morning.
I was forced to do Chinese and I swear I don't even know how to do the N Level Chinese.
I really suck at it. Its so bloody difficult, the words seems to be kind of weird.
I was made to find every single meaning of the word that I don't know but LUCKILY there was no Chinese Dictionary at home so.. =)

I'm over your lies,and I'm over your games.
I'm over you asking me,when you know I'm not okay.
You call me at night,and I pick up the phone.
And though you've been telling me,I know you're not alone.

Wanting you,to be wanting me.
No that ain't no way to be.
How I feel, read my lips,because I'm so over..
Moving on, it's my time,you never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first, a little bit,but now I'm so over.
I'm so over it..

There'll be no more crying in the rain.

2007-04-22T21:22:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BF! <3

Whole morning/afternoon was spent in Dad's office. Surfed the net and all. I must comment that his office is a good study area, I might consider going to his office SOON cause Mid Years is coming in 17 days time.

PL Kaleidoscope Night Tickets are all SOLD OUT! =)

I think I should change my bloody tag board back to Haloscan cause I can't view my own tag board. =(

Okay, I am not in the mood to study but yet I have to force myself to or else I can really forget about playing and partying during the holidays.

2007-04-21T16:37:00.000+08:00

I don't like your girlfriend

Eh, I am damn irritated by some people.
Seriously, whats your problem?
You self acclaimed that something's wrong with me for being like that.
Its true.
You are the one instead.
You are the one whose hiding everything.
Scared to let the whole wide world know and what the hell are you trying to do man?
Don't think I can't be bothered and don't know anything or cannot be able to find out.
Sorry, much to your dissapointment, it aint that way.
I know much more than you do, if you realised.
And asking people help you to cover up or rather to pretend that they don't know about it?
What the fuck siah, sorry hor.
Its that obvious.
No wonder people been asking me and all.
Thats when I figured out something went wrong.
I don't even know a single thing, ha, people thought I was lieing or helping you to cover up.
Don't come and act big and say what you want to settle things.
Cause in actual fact, THERE IS NOTHING TO SETTLE.
Don't come and pretend.
Its enough, I feel so irritated and disgusted.
When I dont hear about you, I feel so much better. Seriously.
Get them to come and lie for you?
Get a life man.
Not so free to hear all your lies and stories you make up.
Cause you know what, you are the one that will regret.
Not me.
I didn't even know such stuffs will actually happen.
And whats worse its you.
I thought you are a different person so all these time you've been pretending huh?
Or is it that I just don't understand you well enough.
HAHAHA! This is such a joke man.
Nownow, I do pity someone.
You are lieing too. =)

Now I can't sing a love song
Like the way it's meant to be
Well, I guess I'm not that good anymore
But baby, that's just me
And I will love you, baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and The words don't rhyme
And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you - Always
Now your pictures that you left behind
Are just memories of a different life
Some that made us laugh, some that made us cry
One that made you have to say goodbye
What I'd give to run my fingers through your hair
To touch your lips, to hold you near
When you say your prayers try to understand
I've made mistakes, I'm just a man
When he holds you close, when he pulls you near
When he says the words you've been needing to hear
I'll wish I was him 'cause those words are mine
To say to you till the end of time
Yeah, I will love you baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
If you told me to cry for you I could
If you told me to die for you I would
Take a look at my face
There's no price I won't pay
To say these words to you
Well, there ain't no luck
In these loaded dice
But baby if you give me just one more try
We can pack up our old dreams
And our old lives
We'll find a place where the sun still shines

2007-04-20T12:56:00.000+08:00

Cabbed home and was rushing through Demelza's scrap book.

This is the first time I am doing something for SOMEONE.

Surprisingly, it didnt turn out THAT BAD alrights.

I had to buy so many things to decorate the book cause the world knows that Jasmine cannot do art for goodness sake.

Lol, collected the photos and all.

I am so going to do a scrap book for myself after N's.

I am going to print out photos since Sec 2 or so. =)

Down to her house and cam whored all the way.

Gang song! Hahahah! (inside joke)

Left around 1030 and LYT's mum sent us to Chomps.

She's such a pang seh-er.

She's supposed to join Kim and Me for emo talk and yet she went home!

Nerissa, Janice ng, Serene, Kim and me was at chomps for supper.

Wanted to buy drinks but due to some busybody, we didn't manage to get it.

Cabbed home and Kim stayed over.

There was no emo talk but more blogsurfing and all.

And I swear I was so tired that when I yawn, I teared.

I am going to wait for Kim, Serene, Demelza to come online so they can send me all the photos we took.

The first attempt.

Hello there, Birthday Girl !

Decorating stuffs.

hello boy it's been a while
guess you'll be glad to know
that i've learned how to laugh and smile
getting over was slow
they say old lovers can be good friends
but i never thought i'd really see you
i'd really see you again
i go crazy
when i look in your eyes
i still go crazy
no my heart just can't hold that feeling inside
way deep down inside
oh baby you know when i look in your eyes
i go crazy
you say she satisfies your mind
tells you all of her dreams
i know how much that means to you
i realize that i was blind
just when i thought i was over you
i see your face and it just ain't true
no it just ain't true
i go crazy
when i look in your eyes
i still go crazy
that old flame comes alive
it's starts burning inside
way deep down inside
oh baby
you know when i look in your eyes i go crazy
i go crazy
you know when i look in your eyes
i go crazy no my heart just can't hide
that old feeling inside
way deep down inside
i go crazy you know when i look in your eyes

2007-04-19T15:46:00.000+08:00

Prata with Kim at Gardens.
I think my parents should just shift to stay at Gardens or maybe buy back our old house.
So convenient for SUPPER time and school.
I treat that place like 2nd home alr, since I hang around there almost everyday.
I have to get ready for Lauren & LYT to come over to study!
bye, this is the right time for a good afternoon nap BUT I have
-Geography Assignment (this is so bloody difficult)
-ACCOUNTS test (partnership)
-CHEMISTRY test
-Stuffs to seeeettttttlllllleeeeee

small monsters, GIANT/BIG monsters, WEIRD aliens

No one ever saw me like you do
All the things that I could add up too
I never knew just what a smile was worth
But your eyes see everything
Without a single word

Cause there's something in the way you look at me
It's as if my heart knows
You're the missing piece
You make me believe that there's nothing this world I can't be
I never know what you see but there's something in the way you look at me
If I could freeze a moment in my mind
It'll be the second that you
Touch your lips to mine
I'd like to stop the clock
Make time stands still
Cause baby this is just the way I always wanna feel

I don't know who you are
I feel different in your eyes
All I know is it happens every time
The way you look at me

2007-04-18T23:56:00.000+08:00

MATHS MAKES ME GO MAD!
Maths with Lau Yu Ting, Eunice & Lauren at Garden's Macs.
It was QUITE productive.
LYT's mum sent me home and I swear her mum is DAMN COOL.
The car's stereo is like BOOM BOOM BOOM, It feels like CLUB.
The songs all those dancing songs that kind.
It makes me think of L cause when you are in his car, you hear that kind of songs.
HAHAHAHA!
CHOMPS for dinner AGAIN.
Don't you regret, yes I do.

You're not alone
together we stand
i'll be by your side, you know
i'll take your hand
when it gets cold
and it feels like the end
there's no place to go
you know i won't give in
no i won't give in
keep holding on'
cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
just stay strong'
cause you know i'm here for you, i'm here for you
there's nothing you could say
nothing you could do
there's no other way when it comes to the truth
so keep holding on'
cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
so far away
i wish you were here
before it's too late, this could all disappear
before the doors close
and it comes to an end
with you by my side i will fight and defend
i'll fight and defend
yeah, yeah
keep holding on'
cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
just stay strong'
cause you know i'm here for you, i'm here for you
there's nothing you could say
nothing you could dothere's no other way when it comes to the truth
so keep holding on'
cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
hear me when i say, when i say i believe
nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny
whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly
keep holding on'
cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
just stay strong'cause you know i'm here for you, i'm here for you
there's nothing you could say
nothing you could do
there's no other way when it comes to the truth
so keep holding on'
cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
keep holding onkeep holding on
there's nothing you could say
nothing you could do
there's no other way when it comes to the truth
so keep holding on'
cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

2007-04-17T16:16:00.000+08:00

Sorry, I've helped all I can.
Dont start coming back to blame me for not telling you or helping you from the start.
Cause all along, you did not even heed to my advice.
So I am going to be out of all this shit.
You've learnt your lesson not only once.
But it seems that you are still not aware of anything yet.
Thats it, I cant do anything much about it either.
You are simply INDESCRIBABLE. I am serious.
I feel a need to salute you.
You can lie your way through, I am shocked.
You can be the next big LIAR.
So all I heard are lies, I felt like laughing but I cant.
Cause I know things that you don't.
And I don't intend to tell it out.
So I had to hold my laughter.
I wonder how am I just going to tell you stuffs in future.
Cause it seems that we are all living in our own world.
And it feels different.

Your sad eyes never told me
No paradise here for the lonely
But I hold on, half a heart here in my hands
Been so long, would you know me
Who's holding you, who's gonna hold me
If you want me, then I'll be yours
And I keep holding on
Holding on till you come back to me
And I keep holding on
Holding on till you run to me
Can you take me to heaven
Show me the way cause I'm no angel
I'm lost and can I hold you one more time
I guess me holding you was holding you down
WIll I have your memory
Or will your memory have me
I don't know, only time knows if I'll ever know peace of mind
Only time knows if you're mine, if you're mine
And I keep holding on
Holding on till you come back to me
And I keep holding on
Holding on till you run to me
All I can hold is a shadow of a heart that's gone
And left me shattered I'm lost and can I hold you one more time
I guess me holding you was holding you down

2007-04-16T20:29:00.000+08:00

Put all the blades away

I need to get a new penknife soon cause my pencil case does not have a single weapon, HAHAHA! I am just kidding, my penknife got confiscated by someone the other time so I still yet to get one. Talking about it reminds me of sec 2 when we take DNT. When someone cut herself, she will push the blame to DNT say what the tool's and all. Lol, its damn funny. Now, NO DNT = NO EXCUSES.

Napfa killed me, Bio test also killed me. Everything seems to be killing me eh.

This year sec 1s are such weird kids. -.-

Its been time and time I've been lying to myself.

But thoughts of us kept keeping me awake
Ever since you found yourself in someone else's arms
I've been tryin' my best to get along
But that's OK
There's nothing left to say, but
Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need them
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better But you'll think of me, you'll think of me
I tried to sweep out all the ruins that my emotions left I guess I'm feeling just a little tired of this.

2007-04-15T22:44:00.000+08:00

Seeing the dates for Mid Years coming scares me. Days, hours, minutes, secs pass so quickly.
It starts from 10 May (Thursday) till 18th May (Friday).

10 May ( Thursday ) - English Paper 1
- Chinese Paper 1
11 May ( Friday ) - Social Studies
- Chinese Paper 2
- Chinese Oral
14 May ( Monday ) - Maths Paper 1
- Literature
- Chinese Listening
15 May ( Tuesday ) - Pure Geography
- Chemistry
16 May ( Wednesday) - English Paper 2
- Biology
17 May ( Thursday ) - POA Paper 1
- Maths Paper 2
18 May ( Friday ) - POA Paper 2

So there wont be anymore LATE NIGHT SUPPERS.
Somehow I miss 3D2 06'
I dont mind going back to last year so we can start the year together again, it was filled with so much fun and laughter. Not as emo as this year. -.- Lol, mid years already make me feel so stressed like its some big biggie major thing in my life. EXAM EXAM EXAM, i hate it.

Not forgetting I have 7 test next week + Napfa 5 items (my gosh, i think i am going to fail that)

2007-04-14T22:43:00.000+08:00

You are such an addiction

Dinnered at Charlie's Corner in Changi Village last night.
The grilled fish was yum yum =)

Accounts tution this afternoon.
Down to Far East to meet Samantha, Amanda, P, M.
Walked around and all.
Ended up in Marina Square.
Dinner-ed beside DXO.
Stingray, chicken wings...
Up to the roof terrace to talk and all walked around Fullerton.
Photo album up soon.

Is cutting of wrist a trend again.

2007-04-12T13:01:00.000+08:00

SPORTS DAY

It was hell fun in the ending. DODSWORTH IS THE BOMB. We rocked the stadium down. Alrights, we got CHAMPION for Secondary Level. That is GREAT. We had a fun time shouting/screaming. Painting our faces, hair spray and all. It was hell hot, and lots of camwhoring too. Lol. Dodsworth is filled with Bimbos siah, cannot run one. We the cheerleaders are supposed to run as a house for the mass run and I tell you the group of us were behind walking and complaining.

Okay, i owe the whole world birthday presents. Please kill me. I no $$ already siah, need to go and rob the bank already. AND AND AND! I regret cutting my hair, everyone is calling me ah lian now.

2007-04-11T23:53:00.000+08:00

Happy Sweet Sixteen Ah Teo!

Hey, you are so silly. You actually believed that I quarreled with that person over such stuffs? Lol, but thanks for believing or else this surprise ain't going to be any surprise anymore.
You are like the most emotional girl I ever known. We can be EMO PARTNERS! =)
imiss all those late night talks with you.
imiss those suppering nights on prata and get ourselves fat.
imiss talking to you and end us in tears.
imiss those times we meet up at the bus stop to go out and you are always late.
imiss having you in my class and hearing you singing regardless if you go out of tune a not.
imiss tonning (?) with you out during MM.
imiss dinnering with you.
imiss those bus rides we took home/out.
imiss hearing your whinnings but definitely not crying.
imiss eating as a whole ex clique during recesses which we don't do it at all anymore.
imiss borrowing notes from you though its late at night.
imiss going over to your house to borrow your computer when mine broke down.
imiss seeing you dancing in front of the class.
imiss going Hougang Point with you together.
imiss walking home from school with you.
imiss gyming with you.
imiss late night study sessions with you.
imiss telling you stuffs last year.
imiss you being there for me 24/7.
imiss you and your screeching voice that the I can hear you from afar. (this was used to be)
imiss encouraging me to go for CCA.
imiss tanning in sentosa with you.
imiss complaining how tired i am to you.
imiss prank calling with you. (this is so last year)
imissyouelizateokailing.

Though I know things would not change back to how it was like last year, but I know those times that we hanged out together was being treasured.

You are 1 year older.
You are 1 year more matured.
You are 1 year closer to becoming a laddddeeehhhhhhh.

Gave her a surprise, Demelza, Serene and Eunice came over and we went opposite to buy cake.
Went into her room and her mum helped us too. We were inside planning of stuffs.
Everything was damn last minute, we did a simple skit for her!

i wonder if you know
Today is your birthday
It is 11th of April and we all gotta say HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYYY

E , E , ETEO
SHENG RI KUAI LEEE
ZHANG ZHANG , KAILIN

Eunice (beat box)
serene (freeze)

many many friends are here today
we bring a cake and happy Wednesday !

*sing to the tune of TOKYO DRIFT

We dared/encouraged her to give a cake to her HOT neighbour but in the end she didn't. =(
Lol. <333

Went school for 2.4km run and I passed and I went home around 9 plus. Then out to meet Kim & Demelza for prata session at Gardens' and i cut my hair. Okkkaaayyy, I look like a ah lian now.
iIiIi sHoxXX sAddDDiiEEeE wOoORxXx...

2007-04-10T22:40:00.000+08:00

SYF

This is the second time I took part SYF for PLCB <3
All the practices, camp, performances, exchanges, effort and all were all for this competition.
We came this far, as a whole band together.
ONEBANDONESOUND. (every band uses this)
I am proud of my own PLCB for all everything, though we didn't get what we had always aimed and wanted but we did enjoy the whole process.
A silver is good enough knowing the standards of this year had been stricter.
A Gold With Honours Band can drop straight to Silver is a unimaginable thing to happen.
Our band remained its standard, though everyone had improved and all. =)

This morning started with a bit of camwhoring as a whole band. Followed by Sectionals and warm ups. Sir came and conducted us for a bit. Got ready and all. The feeling in the concert hall was really very scary, I was so cold, and I wanted to run off and cry. I dont know why. Sir said that we did a fantastic job. Its the process that we enjoyed. Announcing of results was kind of funny. Lol, St Pat's was the first GWH band. And we sang TO GOD BE THE GLORY after we went out of the hall. Yup, reached back school near to 8pm and cabbed down to Chomps with Jolene =) Great time dinnering with her.

PLCB, though we didn't know get what we had always wanted but we earned back many other stuffs. So it doesnt really matter! <33>

Sir's the best conductor I ever known. Really truly.

PLCB's the bomb, Sir's the bomb too! =)

Thanks for all those hugs, phone calls, messages, wishes and all. There are many whom I have to thank for going through this period with me tolerating all my nonsense and all. I shall do the shoutouts soon. =) All the best for those band who has yet to go for the SYF! :D

All those late night promises I guess they don't mean a thing
So baby, what's the story?

Tell me what it takes to let you go
Tell me how the pain's supposed to go
Tell me how it is that you can sleep in the night
Without thinking you lost everything that was good in your life

2007-04-09T20:49:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow's going to be the DAY.

I feel like giving up. Just look at VS, and what more can I say.
I am in no mood to start a fight or quarrel with anyone. Seriously, I do not.
So don't come and try provoking me.
Thanks for all those who wish-ed (?).
Whatever man, I just have no comments and all.
Sometimes, I should just keep my mouth shut.

Alrights, based on the judges today. Its totally what the heck kind of thing.
VS Silver ? Dont funny la, the judges are either, deaf or i dont know what. Lol.
I feel like killing them.

all that glitters is definitely not gold

2007-04-08T00:11:00.000+08:00

I DID NOT study during my weekends.
I DID NOT touch my books at all.
I DID NOT bother studying.
I DID NOT have the time to do study either.

The whole 3 days were spent outside.
I am not even at home for 2 hours.
All I do when I wake up is wash up and out then back home and rush out again.
Parents aren't happy with all the suppering nights.
I am seriously like not scared to die that kind.
And when its like a day before the CTs, I will start to panic and cry. (HAHAHA!)
Its Jasmine Koh man!
I planning for a self declared holiday to STUDY already. =)

Sleeping is a great escape .

2007-04-07T23:46:00.000+08:00

Band-ed, drove around NUS for god knows what reason and down to Vivo.
Trained home and rushed to meet the girls for steamboat.
Sort of celebrated Eliza's birthday and down to Esplanade.
We spoilt the whole ambience.

Though all along I wanted to let you know something.
I j u s t dont seem to be able to.
Not even the s i m p l e s t words.
I am just hating all these shit.

2007-04-06T14:03:00.000+08:00

SYF is just 4 days away.
Just let us do get this right.

Anyone wants to watch PL Kaleidoscope? Please get tickets from me, I need to sell tickets.
Saturday Night (28/4) 7pm, $10.
You can bring your girlfriend, boyfriend, auntie, uncle, father, mother, sister, friends or whoever you want to bring, just get the tickets from me.
Please sms/call/msn me. THANK YOU BELLY BELLY MUCH, I WILL LOVE YOU LOTS! =)

Ever since the day you ran away and left me lonely and cold,
my life just hasn't been the same, ohh baby no.
When I looked into your eyes the moment that I let you go, I just broke down.
Baby if I ever get the chance to be with you again I would sacrifice,cause the feeling that I feel within, no other man would ever make me feel so right.
It's nice to smile when I get your phone call in mind, but I'd rather have you here with me right next to me, I miss the way you hold me tight.

I gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch.
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much.
I gotta let you know, I think that we are destiny.
For you, I'd cross the world.
For you, I'd do anything.

Thats right baby, Im going crazy, I need to be your lady.
I've been thinking lately, that you and me, yes, we could makeit just ride wit me, and role wit me, I'm in love with you baby.

Break it down now, I'll tell you what I feel from the moment that I meet you it was so damn real, my heart seems to skip another beat every time we speak, can't believe I feel so weak.
Tell me that you really need me and you want me and you miss me and you love me I'm your lady.
I'll be around waiting for you, put it down, be the woman for you.
I'm fallen so deep for you, I'm crazy over you.I'm callin', callin' out to you what am I gonna do it's true, I'm not frontin,It's you and the weather I could no longer go on without you, I'll just break down.

Crazy, Lady, Lately ohhhhhh Baby

2007-04-04T23:07:00.001+08:00

I am drained physically, mentally, spiritually and emotionally. Ran 16 rounds around the hall and 30 pumping yesterday. ( it doesn’t even help for goodness sake, cause apparently, I am eating like a bloody fat pig) Band prac was tiring. Was trying hard to concentrate and my mouth is fucking pain from all those tonguing and all. It bled like some gross shit. KimKan is so efficient to spread stuffs. (Better than the news on TV) Lol, I was so tired that I took so long just to understand her 1 simple sentence message. Quarreled with L on my way home. Was in a very belly bad mood. In the end, diner with W and those catch ups were great. Both of us are in real shit, his life too! Hahaha!

I am just speechless. I just don't seem to be able to say everything out, but whats the point in saying it anyway. Its just POINTLESS.

2007-04-02T20:59:00.000+08:00

She love you like I do
AC concert was great. (ACS(I), ACS(B), ACJC)
Their finale piece was The Phantom of the Opera. =)
Kenny Rogers with SimAi, Gladys and Jolene. Stingray for supper. :D

I GUESS I GAVE EVERYONE MY WRONG HANDPHONE NUMBER. LOL, EVERYONE BEEN CALLING AND SENDING THE WRONG MESSAGES FOR THE PASS 2 MONTHS OR SO? LOL. :D

School was so damn tiring due to the 1-hour sleep I had the night before. Blame on myself for going home so late. And I slept through so many lessons and KimKan was such a bitch during accounts, she woke me up from my sleep when I had the most wonderful dream. I so wanted to bitchslap her.

ANIMAL BISCUIT IS LOVE LOVE <333

2007-03-31T23:59:00.000+08:00

Band Exchange
Was held in Boon Lay Secondary. The journey was like an hour kind of thing and whenever I am on the school bus, I tend to get very quiet and emo. (I HAVE NO FREAKING IDEA WHY.) 10 other bands were there like, VS, Cheung Cheng, Deyi, Nan Hua and others. We did not do well at all and even deproved by 40% of our standard. That’s very bad because it has always been PL’s tradition to be scared to perform in front of others. VS played the best, seriously. Nan’s Hua leader was telling his members to go down to the canteen for lunch then some people were like how come they have lunch and we don’t so eve was saying PL more high class we go restaurant for lunch. Lol, it was so tiring hearing 11 bands playing the same choice piece, sunrise. Boon Lay school is seriously so scary and their toilets are so dirty and smelly without toilet paper till 1 whole group of us were standing outside the guys toilet shouting to the VS guys for toilet paper but they don’t have it either. That school is the champ man, can survive without toilet papers. Lol.

Waited for KimKan and had lunch in Garden’s macs with John.

Homed and down to Sentosa chalet. Played luge twice and I must say that sitting it at night is great. Scenery, weather, feeling.. BEST! Perhaps you might feel a tinny winny bit of emoness. Total shagged when I reached home.

2007-03-30T20:17:00.000+08:00

Now now, I feel like writing stories again. History history..

2007-03-30T18:45:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GLADYS! <3

Extra Accounts Lesson with Mrs Tan after school. She taught KimKan and I. I finally understood last year's work. Alrights, I am on my way of liking accounts. After accounts KimKan accompanied down to Serangoon area to collect my stuff from Joanne. Was supposed to eat at Lorong Lew Lian but that place was so dirty and the food don't look nice so went straight. Passed by my old house, how i miss that place. It was fun fun fun. Everyday after school hangout when I was in Primary School. Lol, KimKan doesn't know how sgss looks like till today. That's so WOLS. Then down to Serangoon Central for Macs.

Was telling her when I was in primary school I used to say this: "Excuse me gorgor." But now I would say: "Eh fucker/bastard, get lost eh." Lol.

After coming to this class, I became so much vulgar *100000x Seriously, I became so vulgar, OH MY GOSH. =)

Our school is so bloody dumb. They don’t allow us to go for this year’s prom night. I mean like hello eh, we don’t mind paying for the table. But then the school just simply refuses to let us go. BLOODY SHIT MAN. So much for wanting to go this year and join our batch. All we can do is to go there for their cocktail reception and then stand outside and see. What the fuck. And every single year, prom will be held in Swissotel. No new places to hold prom meh? Whatever la, this end of year holidays can be spent prom hunting, clubbing, partying and maybe working. I am so well planned!

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

2007-03-28T22:35:00.000+08:00

BAND BAND BAND!
Today is the only day I never go for band cause I did my sectionals on Monday so YES!
Finally a day for a goooody gooood nap. But then again, I didn't sleep.
Lessons was boring. I fell asleep during Literature. A good 80 minutes sleep. =)
PE was torturous cause we did 500 skippings, 3 rounds around assembly area, 30 pumpings, 30 sit ups and almost 100 crazy skippings. I can't do sports for goodness sake. Yesterday PE was playing netball and all I did was to walk up and down the court. I can hardly even catch a damn ball and throw it. Thats how pathetic I am. And YingXiu and I created PE Slacker's Club, she is the president and I am going to be the vice president!

Eliza & Demelza's Birthday is coming up REAL SOON. Money drop from the sky please. I need lots and lots of money to buy pretty pretty presents for my pretty pretty bestfriends. <33

Watched Mr Bean with Jessica and it was alrights only. Actually it was not even a single bit good. The guy sitting beside laughed so loudly like HAHAHAHAHAH! I almost died, he treats himself at his own living room like that. Dinner at Early Swensen's cost me a bomb. Spent close to a 100 bucks just within 3 hours. I am so going to declare bankrupt sooner or later. Thank god, I DON'T have a credit card.

SIEWHWEE OWES ME ANIMAL BISCUIT. ANIMAL BISCUIT IS <3333

Light of my life
You're the fire in my heart
When I am lost
When you're lost I know
I'll feel you burning, burning in the dark
You're the light of my life
Every star in the sky
Shines more brightly when you're at my side
You're the light of my life.

2007-03-27T22:15:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EASTINA! <3

Who on Earth goes to concert and give friend's white roses? That would be KimKan and Lauren. They are intending to give me white roses please. Wah lao, so mean can ! Nevermind, I expect to see Hannah Tan there and she is going to get me pretty pretty flowers <33.>

Oooohhhh.. KimKan just said that she is going to work hard for this term but what has she started to plan? After N's party at Cocolatte! That girl is full of ideas please! Our study sessions are quite productive eh, I studied! =)

My bloody handphone line is damn screwed up. Firstly, I dont off my phone but then people just can't call in or message in and even after a few days, I dont receive the message. Tsk! Its bloody annoying cause people can't call in to my phone at night. @&#%(*@&()*#)@

AND AND AND! School is having our concert in our new Auditorium on 28th April (Kaleidoscope) .
All SYF groups will be performing (Band, Guitar, Guzheng, Handbell, Harp, Drama... etc.)
Tickets will be sold at $10 for Matinee Slot (3.30pm)
$10, $15, $25 for Night slot (7.30pm)

Boy meets girl
You were my dream, my world
But I was blind
You cheated on me from behind

So on my own
I feel so all alone
Though I know it’s true
I’m still in love with you

I need a miracle
I wanna be your girl
Give me a chance to see
That you are made for me
I need a miracle
Please let me be your girl
One day you’ll see it can happen to me
I need a miracle
I wanna be your girl
Give me a chance to see
That you are made for me
I need a miracle
Please let me be your girl
One day you’ll see it can happen to me
It can happen to me

Day and night
I’m always by your side
Cause I know for sure
My love is real my feelings pure
So take a try
No need to ask me why
Cause I know its true
I’m still in love with you

2007-03-23T23:54:00.000+08:00

Lessons been boring, fun and stressful.

Geography
I really need help in Geography. MAJOR HELP or wait maybe just give me the brains that can remember so much stuffs. I need the Marianne Cheong Human Geography Textbook or else I will die during Mid Years. Having the current textbook is the same as not having a textbook. Its useless.

ACCOUNTS!
After being so stupid and clueless for 1 year and 3 months. I FINALLY UNDERSTOOD PARTNERSHIP. The new teacher is really really good! I am so going to try to do well in my accounts! =)

Funny things happened today. First was during Chinese. Lao Shi was telling us about her ex students and all. So there was this student who wrote a English Composition about his day or something like that and guess what he wrote: seven morning eight morning, my father cry father cry mother. In Chinese/Hokkien its: qi za bue za wa eh lao bei kao bei kao bu! HAHAHAHA! (And he wrote so much more funny stuff that it can become a joke book please.)

Then it was in the LIBRARY, Lauren, KimKan and I were studying inside and the Short Bitch (Librarian) just had to amuse/entertain us with her crazy nonsense. She is kind of weird. Our school hire weird people. NEVERMIND, I go to the library once in a lifetime so it doesn't bother me. =D

Not free is just one of your many excuses.
Please, enough already.
I've seen through everything and I am tired.
Seriously, I can't be bothered.
I have no time for such stuffs.
Now now, studies studies! =)

Friday nights are always the best! =)

2007-03-21T21:32:00.000+08:00

School been boring and all.
I feel like getting a long long long break from everything.

Sing me a sweet lullaby

2007-03-20T22:26:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIEW HWEE, ITE partner! =)

Band SYF time slot would be on 10th April (Tuesday) at 3pm. (Its just 21 days away.)

Show off that body you got
You got that dance floor so hot

2007-03-19T23:57:00.000+08:00

It’s the first day of school again. Time is passing by very fast. The next major thing I need to prepare for is N’s. I have to study real hard and not get distracted by stuffs. I am going to waste 1 more year of my life being stuck in school while others graduate. There is really no more time for me to waste and get emo. Looking at April’s calendar, I am like so busy everyday packed with work and stuffs to do. I might die horribly for mid years. If I cannot pass my N’s, I will be ultimate F.A.I.L.U.R.E ( I know that is very PATHETIC) Was telling some of them that if I ever fail N’s and need to go into ITE, I might go to Shatec, and guess what was their response. ‘HUH? JASMINE KOH COOK? DON’T FUNNY LA, SHE CANNOT EVEN CRACK EGG.’ You see, everyone knows me so well. Anyway, I am hoping that I will be able to stick to the resolutions I made for this term.

-Stop talking on the phone like there is no N's
-Stop friendstering, blog surfing & gossiping! tsk!

*Hopefully, get my mum to confiscate my phone completel then I wont be albe to message in class and talk on the phone.

Dear books, I am going to stick with you 24/7, I promise I will TRY to understand you!

This week is packed with :
1. Accounts tution
2. Band pracs
3. Study session with Edwin
4. CIP

I really Really REALLY need to rush like crazy.

Oh yeah, not forgetting what Ms Ferng wants me to do. Learn IT. WT and I are the IT monitress ( ms chew randomly pick ) and we missed the IT training so obviously we know nuts about IT stuffs and we were so suay that Ferngalicious wants us to set up the visualiser and all. She scolded me like mad when I told her I didn’t know how to do. So I need IT tution. Lol, if she ask me to set up again, I am going to just press any button I see and spoil the whole thing. Not as if I am going to be IT technician when I grow up! =)

No more emo stuffs any sooner till after N’s, I'll try

Honestly what will become of me
Don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is daily
We are what we don't see
Missed everything daydreaming

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
Come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Traveling i only stop at exits
Wondering if i'll stay
Young and restless
Living this way i stress less
I want to pull away when the dream dies
The pain sets in and i don't cry
I only feel gravity and i wonder why

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end

Come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
Come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Well the dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Die die die die die

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
Come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Well the dogs were barking at a new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon
And the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day til the feeling went away
And the sky was falling on the clouds were dropping and
The rain forgot how to bring salvation
The dogs were barking at the new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die.

2007-03-18T22:53:00.000+08:00

Was reading past chat logs and it really made me teared damn badly.
I can't even see what the hell am I typing.
Sometimes, I just wish there is nothing called the past.
So many times, I want to delete it but I just can't bring myself to do it.

No matter what, you will end the story with a goodbye.

I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me
I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me

I saw you with your new girl just yesterday
And I feel that I must confess
Even though it kills me to have to say
I'll admit that I was impressed
Physically just short of perfection
Gotta commend you on your selection
Though I know I shouldn't be concerned

I can't explain this feeling
I think about it everyday
And even though we've moved on
It gets so hard to walk away

I can't forget how we used to be
Our life from day to day
Hoping maybe you'll come back
And though I tell myself not to be afraid
To move on but it seems I can't
But no other man has given me attention
It ain't the same as your affection
Though I know I should be content

2007-03-17T01:20:00.000+08:00

Was hearing Put That Records On and it just hit me so badly.
I didn't expect myself to be that way.
I used to think Eliza used to be a bit mad over some stuffs.
I guess I am going to be worse then her.
Its true, no one can do anything even myself.
Mummy, please confiscate my IPOD.
I really need you to do that cause all the bloody songs are making me fucking sad.
I think Jay Chou is the Emo-iest singer I ever known.
It just make me think alot of last year.
I didn't treasure and appreciate last year.
I didn't appreciate those who were around me.
I didn't realise that last year was one of the best years I had.
Always thinking it was a bloody mistake for god knows what.
I don't even care about how others felt then.
I really missed last year damn badly.
I dont mind giving up anything just to turn back time.
I wont mind all those quarrels and all.
Its just that let me go through that year again.
I will learn and know how to appreciate.
Its too late for everything.
Its too late to talk so much.
Nothing is going to change.

Last year, I miss. <3

Sorry.

2007-03-16T22:53:00.000+08:00

Band camp was short.
It used to be 3 days 2 nights.
But nevermind, its so much better because I can be back HOME again.
I tihnk the previous band camp was so much funner cause maybe we slept with our section and then we played so much. I missed every single one of them I swear. Its really those fun times that made me happy. HAHA! =)

First day of PT really drained me out. Seriously shagged like some crazy bitch and then I got burnt but when I checked it today, there wasn't any difference. Tsk! Band practice at night is so cool, it is so different. Colder and darker. Cam whoring with juniors was madness. We do crazy stuffs. We set our sleeping bags on the tables and slept on it. It was so much better then sleeping on the tables. I listened to music till I feel asleep. I've got calls in the midnight, I forgotton to silent my phone. Firstly it was L then it was some person who called and dont talk. It really pissed me off big time. Cause its 4am in the morning, I need that sleep so badly and you come and spoil my sweet dreams. Whoever that person is, please kindly go to hell.

Next day PT was cancelled cause the gate to the track was not opened! Yayness, but then we woke up for nothing. Whatsmore I washed my face and brushed my teeth and I went back to sleep again. Some of us slept and missed breakfast. Lol, Jolene is a sleep indulgent girl. She couldn't wake up. Be it 6am or 10am. Lol! Mini syf was alrights. It was held in the NEW CONCERT HALL. We were the first to perform and when we were on the stage waiting, I almost fell asleep. I remembered yawning before palying cause the speech the teachers gave was very long. My fingers got so numbed till I screwed the running notes. The rest of the concert and workshop was being me the usual self sleeping so comfortably. Lol.

Met Demelza for dinner at Chomps. =)

I can’t turn around and look at the past
There’s no way to change it, no looking back
No more trying to fix what just didn’t last
Hearing his hateful words, but I won’t react

I can’t give him the glory
Of showing him how much he hurt me
It’s my turn to tell the story
He’s just too ignorant to simply see

That he’s not my everything anymore
He’s a bad memory I want to erase
No more crying all alone on the floor
I’ve found someone to take his place

So here’s to the long lonely nights
When my broken heart wouldn’t go away
Now I’m going to make it right
Here’s to all the times I prayed

For an answer to this endless sorrow
When it was hard to make it through
Now I can see a brighter tomorrow
Now I can say I’m over you

2007-03-14T23:58:00.000+08:00

Band-ed.
Cabbed home with section peeps.
Amanda, SimAi, Yuxuan, Eve, Lena and Shimun came over for stayover + BBQ.
It was quite fun. Just that we don't have much food though.
And the highlight of the night was to borrow stuffs from our neighbours.
There was this group of bengs and lians beside us so we wanted to borrow lighter/matchsticks from them. So some of us went forward to ask for it and then the lian was like so protective of her boyfriend thinking and being so afraid that we would actually steal her boyfriend. Thats pretty lame. -.-
And they actually on-ed radio, 93.3. We almost died.
I dont understand that channel and the song is like OH MY GOSH, Please kill me.
And due to my dear simai's voice which is extremely loud, they heard us and tuned it to 98.7FM. Thanks, you rescued me from dying. Lol.

Sleepover was me, simai, eve and yuxuan friendstering. Its very funny please. Gossips and all. It was quite a great time! Thanks people.

I'm sorry I fell in love with you
For causing pain is the best thing I do
I should have left when love came around
But I found it's rarity too profound

I thought I could love and leave things be
But I can't so here's my plea
I'm sorry I let some feelings get in the way
But I fell in love so what else can I say

I wish I could turn back the hands of time
So I could stop this ongoing crime
Now I'm left wishing for a fresh start
Because it hurts to have a broken heart

Love screws up how and what you think
And causes mood swings as often as you blink
I won't allow myself to sit here and wait
For true love to turn to hate

2007-03-13T15:07:00.000+08:00

PARTY NIGHT

Tanned with Lauren, Jng & KimKan by the poolside.
Slacked around and waited for time to pass.
BEFORE THE PARTY ACUTALLY STARTED, I've got half drunk.
I was not that drunk for the whole night.
I knew what was happening but didn't know what I was talking about, it didn't make sense at all.

Firstly: I told Serene that I go to her house on the first day of new year to visit her and she wasn't at home and her mum gave me ang pow.
Secondly: I said that some monsters are coming when they are not.

All those are so untrue. I just kept on saying and talking when I have no idea what the hell did I do that for. I cried for no reason then ran around the place. I was the serious major case when people starts dragging me on the floor, locking me in the room, scolding, screaming, shouting, beating, and all. I am sure everyone wanted to whack my fucked up face cause I was being the ultimate bitch. Yeah, to the extend that friends are not talking at all. I dont know why the fuck did I do that for. But for one thing I am sure, I didn't drink to tell everyone my secrets. I am practically bruising everywhere now. I drank quite the most and got sort of the most drama. I knew that everyone wanted to throw me out of the place man. Because they got so ultra mega pissed with me. Yeah, SORRY! I promise I won't get drunk anymore. But you see, the past times I drank I dont get drunk. At most high but not dragging me around like dogs and all. It was seriously very screwed. People are now getting so angry with me till they dont want to talk to me. Thats right. Dancing was alrights. KimKan make me kill myself. See the way she pump, I feel like dieing. Fucking cool please. KIMKAN and JNG are the bomb man. One can pump, one can jerk, Whats wrong man!

My good friend Livia drink until sat in the room to laugh for a good 1/2 hour. It was so funny seeing her sitting there and laugh. And she was singing so loudly by the pool side. Can die please. People turn emo and all. KimKan was the best, cried like never before, EXPECTED. But this time round she didn't get drunk, which is quite surprising. And! Some bloody asshole kept the alcohol. 1 bottle went missing. Tiger beer tasted like shit man, was drinking by the poolside in the night and I almost puked out. Sibei disgusting sia! People left and all. The drama was actually happening in Hougang Point Macs. I walked to and fro for almost 4 times. KimKan's extreme drama sia. I kept calling out names but I dont know who. Luckily some people didnt turn up or else I tell you I will be world wide famous please.

Sorry for last night dudes. It just came out so wrong.

KimKan, Jng, Eunice, Fangs, Manda, SiJia, Angeline, Rachel Yee, Morgan, JiaJian, John, Avery, Thomas, Harish (?) stayed over in my room. Everyone was cramming inside the small room. Lieing around and self entertaining. It was quite boring but funny with all the nonsense and NOT FORGETTING THE GHOST STORIES TOLD BY ALL THOSE GUYS, damn freaky please. We sort of played 'I never'. The next morning we went out to eat Macs at Hougang Green. Was supposed to go as a whole group but ended up only KimKan, Jng, Eunice, Fangs, Manda, Angeline and I went for breakfast cause the guys were lazy to walk. It is so bloody far away plase. I walked till my legs were hurting like fuck. Ate and cabbed back with KimKan, Jng. Those people were still downstairs. Lol, came home and slept.

Surprisingly, I dont have hangovers. =)

Anyone wants to buy bottle drinks from ME? I have like so much left please.

Love is ever confusing
They say if you love something, let it go, if it comes back, it was meant to be
They also say if you really love someone, be happy for them when they are happy, even if they are not with you
But they say hold your loved ones close

But what if you’re scared to wait? Maybe that one wasn’t THE one.

But what if you’re scared to let go? Maybe the one you love is unsure of their love for you.

What if you don’t want to miss out, waiting for the one you let go, but you’re scared to find someone else?

2007-03-11T23:56:00.000+08:00

red rose petal romance

I've got punished for 1 hour thanks to all those cabs.
Its so freaking hard to take a cab from Suntec.

Down to Lauren's house at night and went to the provision shop to buy drinks.
Absolute vodka is only for freaking $45.90
Bloody cheap can and we bought 24 bottles of drinks.
Slacked around Lauren's room and cabbed back to my house to slack again.
Lauren stayed over. LYT woke us up at 2.30am to send her out.

2007-03-10T23:52:00.000+08:00

Complete stranger -> Passer by -> Friend -> Close friend (then its back to square 1 of a complete stranger)

Reached school 45 minutes earlier then expected.
It was very cold in the bus and I almost died.
Band-ed. Ended an hour earlier cause Sir & Ms Ten wasn't there.

Met up with Demelza & KimKan at Bugis.
I was late. (note to kim: its only 15 minutes, not an HOUR!)
Shopped around Bugis street and got a top.
All of us are just going to wear a shirt and shorts for the party.
Cabbed down to Marina Bay MRT station and met with Serene & Jng.
Bused down to Marina Bay for STEAMBOAT! =)
It was damn yum yum.
KimKan was dumb enough to ask the person for MENU.
And when the person gave me the receipt I didn't know what to do with it.
So I went to ask the person and I bet he is so mega pissed with us.
HAHAHA! Sorry la, I suah ku cannot arh!
This is the first time eating Steamboat outside besides Coca.
It was ultra mega fun.
We ate nonstop please.
Food was yummy (mummy, who says not nice?!)
Cam whored and all.
We ate for 4 hours non stop and then off to the opposite field to cam whored again.
I swear I look like a freaking fillapino maid when eating.
It was so unglam/dirty.
I was so high and nosiy that I do crazy stuffs.
Bused back to Marina Station to cam whore again and then back home.
Tonight is better then anything.
I would rather spend hours sitting down to eat and talk shit then shopping.
Lets go again people and ask more people along so we can make more noise!

Steamboat photo links is uploaded under grand exits. =)

It would be nice if we could put away and throw out
everything except what really mattered, but
reality is just cruel.

2007-03-09T23:41:00.000+08:00

Parents are not in for 10 days.
Met Demelza at Tampines Mall, wanted to catch a show but the slot was not okay for us so was just wandering around and all.
Initially, I had the mood to shop but then I just dont feel like.
Another one of my moodswings I guess.

The heart belongs to another.

2007-03-08T22:51:00.000+08:00

Parents are going off in less then 24 hours.
And I am going to be the head of the house! =))

Party is coming so soon. Stayover after that is going to be fun right!

I just dont seem to be able to control my mood these days.
Its swinging in full speed and I dont know why.

Broken memories & Empty Promises.

2007-03-07T23:32:00.000+08:00

I have to learn on just how to get on with life.

2007-03-06T21:12:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY EDWIN! =)

Rumours been spreading around and all. Lol leh, its serious funny when you hear it cause I laughed very loudly when I heard about it. Please la, no such stuffs.

Emotion in words.
Song without melody
A symphony without instruments
Life on paper.
Death in ink.
Love on parchement.
Timeless and always changing.
Poetry is life on a humble page.

2007-03-05T23:41:00.000+08:00

Sectionals is fun. Gossips & all.
Eyecandy is cute alrights! Simai, shut up, yours is like so not cute. =DD

Love is a game
just meant to be played.
Love is a phrase
just overly clichéd.

It's dominated by cheaters,
players, and rule-breakers.
Where three words often said
are lies spoken by fakers.

Love is an emotion
and hormones are the cause.
Love is perfection
that brings out your flaws.

Young ones are swayed
into believing that it's real.
Soon concious of mistakes,
next fear is what you feel.

Love is a wish
desired by so many loners.
Love is a sight
shown off by its owners.

It's a sad pathetic world
when love is only wanted,
for the sake of having it,
and for it to be flaunted.

Love is a drug,
addictive and strong.
Love is a toy.
and you're strung along.

The endings are painful,
yet again you will start,
to end with more lies and tears,
and another cruelly broken heart.

Love is a reason
to be treated like dirt.
Love is an excuse,
an excuse to get hurt.

2007-03-04T21:21:00.000+08:00

Its the last day of New Year.
Time just pass so fast that you don't realise it.
And before you know, you will be in the exam hall sitting for a useless paper.

Someone is scared of me. (Please just laugh)
Then we were saying later she ask her boyfriend come and whack me.
Then I told them, please just take a look at her boyfriend, he should be whacked by us first. Lol, maid arh maid.

Night was interesting, entertained the two small kids with Hokkine, Teochew & Cantonese. (Demelza & KimKan) =)

I guess I will never ever learn to understand.
Even so, things are not really great left unsaid.

2007-03-03T21:00:00.000+08:00

Happy Sweet Sixteen Jazreel <3

Dragged myself out of bed early this morning.
Cabbed down to school and went off to VS.
Music Exchange was not bad.
Their playing makes me feel like saluting them.
Ice Breakers is not bad but kind of weird!
Mingled around and all. Sectionals with them was like, not bad la.
Lunch was the best, I bet I am the only one in the whole wide world who ate like someone who had not eaten for days man. I ate till very unglam. You cannot find such food in our own school. And OUR ONE AND ONLY SAXOHPONE SECTION got FREE bottle of green tea from VS Saxophone section leader. Thanks dude.

Shopping with mum & sis in Raffles. Sorry to those that I promised to meet up today but my mum is nagging at me that I dont go out with her that often nowsadays and hanging out everyday with others. =)

Take me to your heart take me to your soul
Give me your hand before I'm old
Show me what love is - haven't got a clue
Show me that wonders can be true

My gosh, you are weird man. I swear. =)

2007-03-02T23:07:00.000+08:00

Party was cancelled and now resumed back to original plan. Its bloddy confusing. I can't really be bothered about it, when its near we all will start to panic. Hahaha!

I have never waited someone for 1 hour before hor, and that bloody bitch KimKan actually made me wait for her at Chompchomp for that long. Shes such a sucker. She complained hungry and cant even finish a bowl of rice. She ate like a tortoise. Damn KimKan, theres so many things to describe about you! Lol, Thomas came to join us for awhile cause apparently that bitch owe someone something and had to return it. And my cabfare is only $1. Lol.

Hey, you know what paradise is?
It's a lie, a fantasy we create about people and places as we'd like them to be
But you know what truth is?
It's that little baby you're holding, it's that man you fought with this morning
The same one you're going to make love with tonight
That's truth, that's love......

2007-03-01T23:16:00.000+08:00

I am feeling very fucked up now.
Its been long since I felt that way.
Normally, it would just be probably stress and thats it.
But now, its different.
I am confused/stressed/fucked up. (whatever, you name it, you HAVE it.)
Everything just aint seems to be doing right.
Its been very long since I last heart to heart talk to anyone.
And everyone's having problems and all.
Its depressing enough.
I dont EVEN have the mood to party, I just feel like sleep my life away.
And slitting of wrist, crying out loud and slamming the wall is on my mind now.

It just kept on replaying in my mind.