Monday, February 27

3rd Post for the day
Demelza not going to school tomorrow so i will be on solo. Hannah is damn sweet la. She ask me to vent my anger on her? Lol. =)

I am out of the clique and sorry for all the trouble caused.

10:02 PM

I know you love my name
Just say so man. You can even change your name to Jasmine. What the hell you want? Were you telling the truth? Am i supposed to believe it? These questions were stucked in my head for the whole evening. For goodness sake, please come and answer it for me. Thank you.

9:26 PM

School/Class just sucks la. It is just a waste of time going to school if you are just there for some shit stuff that will make u stress and so. Feel like giving school a miss tomorrow but there is band so going to school la.

Do you think i will trust you anymore? You go around and tell people that i cannot keep secrets? What about you? Have you thought about how we felt? HELL, NO. Whatever la, since you think you have that clique that will support you, go ahead. I dont give a damn anymore. No point feeling sad for what you have done because i am sick of it and used to it. Ask you nicely, show attitude back.If you think we are in the wrong then blame on us. Maybe we are just fucking bitch to you. Feeling stress over this doesnt benefit me a bit and it just makes one upset. Maybe i am jsut some bitch and you feel that i am not fit to be your friend. I cannot stand it anymore. It is just making me sick. I am not your friend? Fine. If you are sick and enough of it, so am I.

Demelza and I were laughing our ass off now.
Jasmine: Do you have any Gucci handbag?
Demelza: No, but i have Gucci plastic bag.

Everybody will be using Gucci, Prada, Fendi handbag and prolly we will be taking all those branded plastic bag. Hahaha.LOL.

4:24 PM

Sunday, February 26

I want to just hold you in my arms right now so tight, that would make my everything perfect and i wouldnt need anything else.

4:26 PM

Thursday, February 23

Clique had a talk ytd. Ms Eliza called in at around 9.30? She slept from 4 plus till 9.30? Anw, we have come to a decision. :D Had band today and Mrs Jacob gave a treat to band. ICE CREAM! the best thing is that when i ask hannah helped me to hold my ice cream, i take it out, she pulled the thing so hard until th ice cream just came off and i had to eat without a stick. I felt so guilty eating because it was like so fattening when i put it in my mouth! Eeyer! Anw, during music lesson we have to form in a group and create a mini concert. Eliza, Demelza, Amanada, Kimberley, Eunice, Fangs, Seetoh and Angeline are in my group. Initially we wanted to do 'Do that thing you do', then we had many suggestions and still haven come to a conclusion. =( Hhaha. =)

7:07 PM

I fear you’ve changed. Because I love you, I’m afraid to lose you.
Everyday I’ll face my loneliness. I hope I’m not already too late, To say I love you

<3

6:55 PM

Tuesday, February 21

Why can't there be peace?
Once a problem started and it is ending, the next will be arising. If you realise everytime after i have band and i on my phone, there will sure be a message about problems. It always happens and i don't know a shit about it until at night i have to ask 1 by 1 about it. WTH you want me to do? Clique isnt a clique anymore. It is falling apart and i can tell it straight away. People arent trusting one another, they arent telling us anything and instad of it they tell others and we felt so dumb to hear the secrets or anything happening to you from other people. Do you still call this a shitty clique? Whatever. It is irritating and stressing everybody out.

Someone, help me.

9:53 PM

Monday, February 20

Depressing Mood
Everything is so shit. I am just in a state that i cannot be bother or care a less about other things and just want to be quiet and calm down. I feel like breaking down anytime and it is killing me. I have the temptation to cut even though that I've always objected to cutting. Shit it. I dont know what the hell am i up to. Can someone just tell me what to do? I am dying from this. Someone, please rescue me. Please pull me out from this shit.

Sorry to those i scolded for no reason, those that i screamed for no reason to. Sorry to my sis for throwing my book at her. Sorry to those that phone go slammed by me.

Thanks to those who care. Those who talked to me jsut now. Thanks Demelza, Livia and Eliza! :D

To those that are stress now, you are not alone, you still have me! Lets be stress together!

To clique: we need to talk soon!

Dead.

9:51 PM

Yesterday
Went PS with Eliza. Went to Charles and Keith and got a pair of heels. Got another pair for mummy. :) Ate KFC and there was this old man scolding his wife, so sad =( Went Hougang Mall to borrow books and home. Went to Chomp Chomp and eat again. Ate alot of things. =D Nice day.

8:22 PM

Sunday, February 19

Yesterday
After fetching Jessica from tution, went to United Square with FAMILY. :D Went to Noodles Hut for dinnerand the curry chicken noodles and i was super spicy. Can die! Then i saw Lauren and her cousin. Continued shopping and bought baby Chloe her birthday present. Bought her a toddlers car, was like $60 . Haha. Went down to mac, sat there till 1030pm.Came home and sleep. And when i brought Jess' for her tution, i saw like so many pl lites there. Mostly from band and i just wanted to drill a hole and die. Hahaha.

You made my day just by thinking.:)

12:28 PM

Saturday, February 18

Yesterday, Eliza,Fangs,Eunice,Angeline,Amanda and SiJia came over. Eliza and i went over to buy cup noodles for them and then Fangs came. We went down to billard room and they played. Went swimming later. It was super hilarious. Eliza doesnt know how to swim and all were trying to coach her and the best thing is that she anyhow kick then kick until lots of our ahem.Haha. Nad out of a sudden, ELiza started laughing till damn funny. Then passed to me then eunice then fangs and angeline. Damn Funny! It was like laugh non stop. Haha. We took some pictures when they were at the baby pool. Sijia went home and we sat at the poolside and chat. We were like talking about lots of things. We take everybody in the world to talk. Haha. Then they went up to my house to talk. They went ff around 11.10. Walked eliza to side gate and i came home. When i lay on the bed i just knocked off immediately. I enjoyed all the crapping today. :)

Went out with family for Dim sum in town at Lay's Gardens. Simply delicious. Going to bring Jes to tution at HEartland mall later. :D

3:10 PM

Thursday, February 16

If thats the way you want, fine. I'll let you be but you just dont understand and always feels that it is not your wrong at all. You do not care about others feelings and you claim that they are in the wrong, not you. You just care about yourself. The best for yourself is the whole main thing. Well, let me tell you. You are wrong. Seeing you taking the wrong path, us standing here to see you walking in, i can do nothing about it. When we tried telling you, you didnt give a shit about it and just saying we were over sensitive and have you ever heard of people saying that outsiders sees it more clearly than you do. I dont want this friendship to end just over some shit thing. If you dont want to continue this friendship, please come and tell me. I would greatly appreciate it. Thanks.

Now i am all alone in this place;
all having their own personal life.
ALONE!

8:33 PM

Wednesday, February 15

Test test test!! Well, Social studies paper was quite ok. Can you imagine the paper is only upon 12 freaking marks?! Well, got back summary test. I passed! 14.5/20. Not bad. Was happy. =D Anw,: kim, angeline, eunice, fangs, eliza, demelza, amanda.. coming over this friday. My house is like some illegal gathering place. Haha. Probably swimming and chatting. Yeah. Till then.

Finally, somebody is able to shut the hell out of you. Thank god!

8:39 PM

Sunday, February 5

Went out with Demelza today. Eliza was supposed to go along with us but at 11.24am she smsed me to say she not going anymore and i missed the dumb bus 72! The dumb me went to take the shitty 325 and it is like merry-go-round the whole hougang area! Went to the bus stop to meet Demelza. She was late for like 10 mins?! Took a bus down to Bugis and ate Macs not knowing what to eat. After that, she went Topshop to get her clothes and went to bugis st. I bought a brown polo tee. Nice :) Headed down to Heeren, pierced me 2nd ear hole. I was quite scared because i dun whats the feeling like because the last time i piereced was like 7 years ago?! The person who pierced my ear was like no experience as what demelza said. She doesnt knows how to use the gun! LOL. Went to Far East and Demelza ate LJS. I was crapping lots of rubbish. Asking her funny questions like what will you do if u left a sec, minute,day,hour... Rubbish la. Was crapping all the way out of Far East. Very fun. Reached home and my mummy asked me why i pierce two hole why never pierce three on each?! I was like staring at her and shouted OUCH! so painful leh. I am going to pierce it another time. =D
Everybody's going to come my house and eat?!

5:23 PM

Saturday, February 4

Homework is piling like shit! Well, Nerissa and Gurleen just pop over without me knowing. They left not long. Was supposed to discuss homework with Fangs but we ended up spending an hour plus talking nonsense. LOL. Going out with Ang Li Ting tomorrow and Eliza wish me good luck (no idea why?!) Hahaha.

oh, mummy changed 18 pieces of $10 notes with me to 180 1dollar coin and i look like i just robbed the bank! =)

9:16 PM

Thursday, February 2

My best friend came to bai nian

Tuesday
Had cramps and it hurt like shit! Daddy invited his friends over for lunch. Eliza and Amanda came over too. Was damn bored and we started prank calling. The funniest is when eliza tried to prank call somebody, my mummy walked in and call my name!! LOL. Well, but it was fun. Chloe came over for sleepover. She slept with Mummy. :)

Wednesday
School started. Didnt go for band because i had terrible cramps. I almost cried during recess. Damn painful. It is like my stomach exploding. I cant even stand properly. Do u know that i am very scared of having it? It is so freaking pain. Cant imagine me having it everytime and crying over it. Anw, Jenny gugu and Chloe stayed over because uncle patrick's went for some company chalet.

Thursday
POA test, well i screwed it up. I opened lots of weird accounts. Just open any account i felt like. Whatever man. Having maths test tomorrow, hope i can score well otherwise i am useless.

9:42 PM