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Jasmine Koh
2nd August
PLMGSS
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jkjm_91@hotmail.com

History

October 2005
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Friday, September 29

Had only like 3 hours of sleep last night. Morning call for Eliza at 3am and I went to sleep. Eliza was still in her dreamland. HAHA! And you have the last minute jasmine trying to cramp her ss into her damn brains. If I am not wrong, I never have done my English paper without feeling sleepy. I was damn alert today! I took my own sweet time to do my work. It was easy, not like what I had expected. Social studies killed me. So I have confidence that I will fail my ss and geography. I am so going to 3D2’07. Let’s see those subjects that I can pass are: Literature, English, Chinese and hopefully Maths and bio! POA is like gone case, I think I need a year to learn my poa again. I am so drained out from sleepless nights and I think I need sleeping pills! (fyi: i cant swallow for goodness sake!)

When I was doing my ss paper, my eyes are like going to close anytime and guess what I wrote:
-Singapore merge with Eliza?!
-The source is taken from Jasmine Koh? I was like going to fall asleep anytime luckily I got awaken somehow and rush through it.

4:02 PM

Social studies is freaking me out by the amount of stuffs that I need to memorise. Thank god, I understand my book or else I can really go and die. For the past few days I had only lets see (last night 3hrs + this afternoon 3hrs = 6hrs of sleep!) Like finally. And I have to thank Serene for making an extra effort to scan all those notes for those skills for me! I love you truckloads, babe! <3>

I have one whole load of list of stuffs to do after exams!
-Ex-clique outing for Serene’s Birthday (Friday night!)
-Celebrate Livia’s birthday
-Celebrate Amanda’s / Eunice’s birthday
-Get hannah’s and Fangs’ birthday present (THIS IS IMPORTANT COS IT HAS PASSED FOR 46652years)
-Dress date with Demelza.
-Rebond my hair
-Go for medi and pedi with Demelza on that day.
-threading with Demelza.
-Go out with Sim Ai
-Go out with Melinda

I cannot think of anything right now so if I promised that I will go out with you during the holidays, tell me hor. :D
You knew that i hated waiting, yet you left me here waiting.

1:27 AM

Thursday, September 28

Have been doing some friendster shit when I am real bored. Today is the start of exam! Had Geography and Literature paper. Was cramming last minute notes for Geography and I almost died. I didn’t read the instructions and did all 5 questions instead of 4. How dumb right? But its alright! HAHA! Kim and Gurleen did the same. LOL! Waste my brain cells only. Literature was alrights. I didn’t have time to finish all. I had so much to write and especially for the poem about faking a smile and all. I like writing personal feelings like that. But it was enjoying to write on such stuffs better than the TARA! Social studies and English paper tomorrow. Hope I don’t screw my English and social studies is a confirm fail thing. But I better start studying my ss or I would really get a big fat O!

2:10 PM

WHAT DO YOU RESPOND WHEN PEOPLE TELL//ASK YOU ...

WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS LIKE THAT?
-I like it.

I JUST REALIZED NOW THAT I LOVE YOU
-You are slow! I have always love you! (depends on who I say it to hor.).

LEAVE HIM//HER ALREADY. YOULL BE MUCH MORE HAPPY WITH ME
-how sure are you?

COME ON. SMILE. YOURE CUTE WHEN YOU DO THAT
-How can I lie to myself and bring myself to give you a fake smile?

PLEASE DO MY MATH HOMEWORK TOO
-I cant even help myself already and are you ok with a failed assignment.

WHO DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON? ME, RIGHT?
-Maybe?

I AM SO BLESSED TO HAVE SOMEONE LIKE YOU
-Really, then I shall be blessed to have someone like you too!

WHY DOES MONDAY COME BEFORE TUESDAY?
-Ask god, I am not god so I don’t know.

I HAVE TWO TICKETS TO THE LINKIN PARK CONCERT. WANNA COME WITH?
-Sorry, my sleep more important. I am having insomia already!

YOU ARE ONE OF THE MOST SPECIAL PEOPLE IN MY LIFE. DID YOU KNOW THAT?
-Really? Alrights. That's sweet, you too.

I THINK IM FALLING FOR YOU
-Alrights.

CANT SMILE WITHOUT YOU
-Okies.


THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING, BUT YOU JUST ARENT HIM//HER
-Don’t worry, you aren’t my him//her too.

NOTHING SAYS : WHATS YOUR MOBILE NUMBER?
-Ask so much for what?

CAN I HAVE THIS DANCE
-if you don’t mind dancing with someone who don’t know how to dance at all.

MAY I COURT YOU
-What court? So weird to use that word.

DO YOU STILL LOVE HIM//HER TIL NOW
-Which one?

YOU WERE EVERYTHING, EVERYTHING I WANTED
-You sure? I bet you are drunk.

WHEN WILL I GET YOUR SWEET YES
-When I get drunk too.

1:55 PM

Wednesday, September 27

IF!

  1. the water would stop running in the shower?
    -Prolly I would scream the whole neighbourhood down and jump into the pool!


2. one day you'll know that you only have 24
hours to live?
- I will gather all the close ones and spend my time with them!


3. you'll lose your friends?
- I lost some alr.

4. Brad Pitt is standing in front of you?
- Say Hello! And walk away.

5. you're a millionaire for a day?
- S H O P P I N G & maybe enjoy my day!

6. there is no friendster?
- then I wouldn’t be able to check people out!

7. someone talks bad things about you behind
your back?
- i would sure be affected.

8. you can go back in time?
- Sure, to the happiest moment in my life!

9. you're 30 and you haven't gotten married
yet?
- I will be in
Cambodia opening coffeeshop with Eliza, Eunice and Demelza!

10. you become a superhero?
- If I am able to one then ask alrights?


11. Jesus talks to you in your sleep?
- AMEN.

12. you can change something in the past,
would you change a thing?
- Nope.

13. you could fly?
- i would fly then!!

14. you would become a king/queen for day?
- Allow cross marriages and name all the streets, buildings with clique’s name.

15 you could morph into an animal, what
would you be?
- Eeyer! I hate animals leh.

16. you could have super powers, what would it
be?
- Know what the other party is thinking and feeling.
17. you could go to the other planets, where
would you be?
- I want to visit the stars first!

18. you could go to heaven, would you come
back to earth or remain in heaven?
-Remain in heaven and forget my past.

19. you could see the future, would you look at
it?
-Nope, I want it to come with surprises!

20. you could let it snow in the
philippines,
how long would it be?
- Forever and ever babe!

21. you could eat anything in the world, what
would you eat?
- Anything.

22. you'd wake up one day and find out that
you're BALD, what would you do?!
- Kill myself.

23. someone breaks your heart?
- i would most probably cry for the rest of my life.

24. your bf/gf cheats on you?
- turn and walk away.

25. you could spend a year with someONE from
outside your family, who would you spend
that year with?
-Friends!

5:16 PM

BEST
1. Male friend: -
2. Female friend: EX CLIQUE

LAST
1. Friend(s) you saw: Eliza
2. Talked to on the phone: Eliza

3. Hugged: Cant remember, its been 5758205 years.
4. Messaged over friendster: Tricia

TODAY
1. Wearing & brand: Some top which I cant see the brand.
2. Better than yesterday?: NO!

TOMORROW
1. Is: THURSDAY (which is when my exam starts!)
2. Got any plans: Get my geog and lit paper over and done and study for SS.


FAVOURITE
1. Number: All :D
2. Color: Red, grey, brown3.
Season: Winter

CURRENTLY
1. Missing someone: Yeah.
2. Mood: Irritated.
3. Wanting: to scream and shout and cry.

Q: First thing you did this morning?:
A:I didn’t even sleep for the whole night!

Q: Last thing you ate:
A: Nuggets!

Q: Do you have anything bothering you?:
A: Yes. Plenty!

Q: What's annoying you right now?:
A: Many things!

Q: What's the last movie you saw?:
A: Love wrecked (like 8935720 years ago)

Q: Do you believe in long distance relationships?:
A: No.

Q: Is there a person who is on your mind right now?:
A: Yes.

Q: Where is the last place you went?
A: Tanglin?

Q: Who is the last person you called?:
A: Eliza

Q: Been cheated on?:
A: Nope.

Q: Do you look like your mom or dad?:
A: Daddy!

Q: Do you have any siblings?:
A: Yes

Q: Do you smile often?:
A: Yes.(maybe)

Q: Do you think that a person is thinking of you too?
A: Nope.

Q: Choose one to have (love, beauty, creativity):
A:Love!

Q: Do you wish upon stars?
A: Sometimes when I am getting silly!

Q: Are you a friendly person?:
A: No.

Q: What color shirt are you wearing?:
A: Brown

Q: What were you doing at 4 last night?:
A: Absorbing my notes.

Q: When is the last time you saw your mom?:
A: when I go to the kitchen?

Q: Do you have more guy friends or girl friends?
A: Girl.

Q: When was the last time you cried?
A: Yesterday

Q: Do you get angry easily?
A: Yes.

Q: What was your last thought before you went tolast night?
A: Study= Cry, headache, insomia..

Q: Would you rather be single or in a relationship?
A: no idea.

Q: Do you ever check your phone waiting forsomeone to call?
A: Nope cause everyone’s busy at this time! :D

4:56 PM

[x] you have gotten F9 grades for math many times
[x] you always do last min hmks in class
[x] you use ur handphone to text ur friends inclass
[x] your phone got confiscated before
[ ] you listen to ur mp3, cd player in class
[x] you sleep in class
[x] you curse teachers(not in poly)
[x] you are always late for extra classes
[x] you doodle on tables
[ ]you make out in class (well done~)
[x] you are rebellious with some teachers
[x] you always hand up work late
[ ] you make fun of the nerds and geeks.
[x] you have broken school rules
[ ] you always dun have the correct books
[ ] you dun take notes
[x] reccess is your favourite part of school
[x] you hang out after school
[x] you lie to ur teachers about hmks
[x]u tell ur parents that u dont have hmks, whenu actually do
[ ] u have made someone cry in school
[x] you copied hmks before
[ ] you threw away hmks before and lie that udidnt recieve it first of all
[x] you laugh at the way some teachers walk
[x] you have been late couple of times
[ ] always pinch your classmates
> I AM 72% bad in school

4:29 PM

Tuesday, September 26

Day haven’t been great or you can say my day was screwed up by myself. I was not in a good mood. I had my damn cramps which can make me roll around the dirty floor of my classroom. I am very stressed up by exams and some other shit stuff. I need to relieve stress or else I will go mad before I even take my first paper. Anyone wants to help me relieve stress or teach me how to? Fangs is going to be ah beng and I am going to be ah lian today. So we are going to talk Chinese or do some crazy stuff. ARGH! Ms Ferng is also PMSING today. Everyone around me is like PMSING la huh. I just want to scream shout or whatever. I feel like banging my fist onto the table and wall whenever I think about it. :((( Thanks to those who have put up with my attitude and all. Just bare with my attitude for awhile alrights? Oh, to those lucky classmates of mine, I wont be in school tomorrow so no one have to see my fcuk-ed up attitude.


Sometimes I get emotional
Sometimes I do some stupid things
Sometimes I say what I should just keep inside
Sometimes I'm sad about everything
Sometimes I'm mad and break some things
Sorry times 10 but you just got in the way

Don't give up now running away
I won't hurt you sometimes
I'm just a pain
And that's the way it is
That's just the way I am

Sometimes I feel like crying
Laying down and dying
That's when I need you
Laughing's always easy, but sometimes I'm just scared you'll leave me
That's when I feel emotional[fade]

You say I'm just impossible
Totally unpredictable
I'm just a girl get use to it
No big deal
You can't change me why would you try?
I'm no angel but I can make you smile
And that's the way it is
That's just the way I am

Sometimes I feel like crying
Laying down and dying
That's when I need you
Laughing's always easy but, sometimes I'm just scared you'll leave me
That's when I feel emotional

Don't give up
I won't hurt you
Oh, sometimes I'm just a pain
And that's the way it is
That's just the way I am

That's when I need you
Laughing's always easy but, sometimes I'm just scared you'll leave me
That's when I feel oh yeah
That's when I need you
Sometimes I get emotional[fade]

That's just the way I am
Sometimes I feel like crying
Laying down and dying
That's when I need you
Laughing's always easy but sometimes I'm just scared you'll leave me
That's when I feel emotional

4:33 PM

Monday, September 25

Singapore Idol Finals
Cab-ed down to Singapore Indoor Stadium to meet Aunt Betty. Sat with them and Serene called. I can’t even hear her talking, it was damn noisy like worse than market. Concert was alrights. I like the top 10 finalist. :D I had so many damn freaking missed calls. Anyway, Aunt betty fetched us back to her house. Tricia is real prettaye! Damn pretty la please. Really, truly.


I am in one of my rather bad moods. I am pmsing and moodswinging to some people so just bear with it. :)

My room is like drowned with CKb. Damn strong. Can smell it from outside and once i open the cupboard i think i might just faint from it. I bet Amanda loves my room now. And I know what to give manda when i die, that will be my CKb!

If you lead, I would follow.

11:14 PM

Rush my life away
Tried to rush to school. Walked to Bowen Sec thinking I would be able to get to school earlier if I walked there so that there would be different buses to take. And I ended up on the wrong bus. Took 73 and alighted at the backgate. Assembly was very different. There was a skit from Act 3 and it was damn funny, quite entertaining. Followed by us going on stage to present our item for Mrs Han (co tutor, she is going to retire this wed). It was hell embarrassing. Throw my own face. Was standing beside Fangs and I couldn’t stop laughing cause someone went out of tune and it is damn funny. I almost teared while laughing. During lesson, we changed all our seats and connect most of the tables together. I sat beside Amanda and fangs. The whole day was talking about our future boyfriends, our husbands and our past and current life. Quite entertaining when they said their stuffs cause it is quite surprising to hear it out from them and Amanda said other people’s story too. HAHA! Anyway, thinking I have nothing today, Headed to Macs in Gardens with Eliza, Eunice and Serena. Ate and talked. I had 3 missed calls during lessons, the walk to macs have 2 missed calls and when I am at Macs staring at the phone it rang but I didn’t answer. And when I was in the toilet I finally answered and guess what? I MADE A PROMISE LAST YEAR TO CELEBRATE 2 PERSON’S BIRTHDAY THIS YEAR YET I FORGOTTON. WE ARE SUPPOSED TO HAVE DINNER! LIKE WTH?! I SERIOUSLY FORGOTTON ABOUT IT! Rushed home and all. My mum told me that aunt betty have tickets to Sg Idol Finals. So I was deciding and decided to go cause 1 of them last minute cannot make it. Damn funny. WTH? JASMINE SERIOUSLY HAVE STM! If you ever ask me out, please remind me. This is so important yet I simply forgot about it. Kill me! Sorry! :(

I want silky girl’s perfume. It is only 9.90 but guess what? I have no money to buy. Shit it :( Anybody want to donate to the save Jasmine fund and donate some money? I will love you plenty! :D


OH! I slap Sim Ai today HAHA! Like Finally and it is quite loud, like piak! HAha! And she is dumb to differentiate silly and stupid! :D

5:10 PM

Sunday, September 24

Yesterday
Its been so long since I went out for lunch with mummy and daddy without Jessica. Ate at Novena and headed to Centrepoint. Mummy bought me 1 pair of diamond earrings, 2 diamond pendant and necklace :))) and i bought my CKb! Mummy bought lots of stuffs too. Amanda sent me this message after I reached home:
Amanda: Jasmine! Just telling you, my bro got ck be! LOL!
Jasmine: HAHA! I just bought it an hour ago. LOL.
Amanda: HAHA! You spraying to school?
Jasmine: Erm.. Yes? Otherwise buy and put at home for decoration arh?
Amanda: I am going to try to sneak into my brother’s room on Monday. I’ll be prepared to smell you on Monday. HAHA!
Jasmine: That’s sounded so sick and wrong! HAHA! Just borrow from him straight la.
Amanda: He will say, go school spray what perfume?LOl. Yeah, I know it sound sick. HAHA! I specially cut a piece of paper from the drawing block and spray so I can smell it. HAHA!


See how weird Amanda is? And she is sitting beside me in class. LOL! We are CKb’s fan!

Anyway, needed to pack my room and the study room last minute cause Charles (from Thailand, 20+ I think, daddy’s best friend son) is coming over to Singapore the next day to stay in my house for maybe 6 months cause he is going to British Council to study. Yeah, so the computer and cupboards are currently in my room. And my room left 1 bed for me. :) And I found that I had tons of things needed to be thrown away. I volunteered to help! Mummy offered to help me clean my cupboards and all but I didn’t let her knowing that I had lots of stuffs and if she is going to see it, she is going to strangle me to death. Now, my drawer is pretty empty.

Today
Cannot sleep the whole night being afraid to overslept the next day. Woke up at 3,5,8. My dream was not that great afterall. Eliza suggested to meet at 9am but I postponed it to 10am. After I bathe and I received to message to meet at 10.15am. Went opposite to buy magazine so told her I would be late for awhile so reached the bus stop at 10.20am. Waited for her till 10.45am then she turned up. EH! I HATE WAITING FOR PEOPLE LEH! BE GLAD I WAITED FOR YOU HOR! Bus-ed down to Serangoon Mrt station and Mrt-ed down. Ate at Bugis Foodcourt. We ate curry chicken early in the morning. How crazy can I be? Walked over to National Library and walked around to for spaces and we both ended in the children’s corner’s table. Damn small! HAHA! I was like trying to stretch my legs. We were quite concentrated for the starting then started to lose concentration and do crazy stuffs and we’ve gone to the toilet for 5 times cause MS TEO has bladder problems! We got distracted and start to take unglam shots of each other and i wrote crazy stuffs on paper! HAHA! To Eliza: DON’T EXPOSE ME AND I WILL NOT EXPOSE YOU!:D

Was on the phone with Demelza and she told me someone’s story that is very sweet. HAHA!

‘Baby can I hold you tonight.

11:03 PM

Saturday, September 23

Dream was damn sweet. I dreamt about Emmanuel 7 and it was in the new school hall. Everyone I knew was there. I went back for band already and the concert was like 3hrs? And Saxophone section had our solo pieces and it was written by Jolene. HAHA! And the amazing thing is that I manage to play (that’s so fake). It was a very very sweet dream. Imagine you perform and EVERYONE was there. That is just a dream, haha. Dreams don’t come true. :)

I miss all those late night talks,
I miss those band concerts we used to go.
I miss those times that we sat outside concert halls and talked.
I miss those times we have to meet at 6.30pm for night concerts and without fail, I would be late.
I miss those band songs.

MOST IMPORTANTLY, those people whom i go with :)

2:21 PM

Friday, September 22

Happy Birthday Fangs! :D
Hope you enjoyed your day.

Paper 1 today totally kill my brains. English was alrights, I overshot (?) the words limits to 1000 for compo and 350 for letter writing. Actually, there are more stuffs needed to be added to my BEAUTIFUL compo but I didn’t have enough time. I stopped at the last minute and my story is very INTERESTING. Maybe only the details (i took damn long to remember somebody's name to write in it la.). Chinese paper is damn shit. I can’t do Chinese for nuts. I took my own sweet time to do my si han and it is damn difficult. I cant understand the thing they wanted and just crap my way through. Zuo wen was like shit cause I took 1 ¼ hour to write a compo there is only 1 ¾ pages. See how miserable. The words used are very simple. And for goodness sake, I forgotten how to write my Chinese name and I don’t even know how to write the word ‘zi’. So dumb right? I was like doing tamil paper instead. It seems so unfamiliar. Chinese listening was alrights. At least I understand the whole thing that was being said and asked. 5 different stuffs that requires me to think totally make me really shag in addition to my 2hr Maths tution. And it was like at 8.30-10.30pm. Was like stoning and I kept on dropping my calculator, worksheet, textbook, pens and everything you find on the table. The time when u see me being very frustrated, quiet, shagged off is when I am doing Maths. And when Ks asked me to do 4 questions before he ends I almost dropped the cup on the floor. Luckily it landed on the table.

Talk so much about studying with Eliza after school when i forgotten that i had tution so Eliza and i went to J8 for late lunch. We ate at Swensens and the girl was telling me about her past years and all. Damn funny. Different school, different stuffs.

I am very shagged from all that happen. You won't want to know. So be it.
Just tell me what you want, dont ask me to guess.

11:01 PM

Thursday, September 21

If only you knew
I screwed my English Oral, bless me. I was talking nonsense. And Eunice best, the place is somewhere outside Carlton Hotel or something like that and there is a reindeer beside it for Christmas decoration, she told Mdm Zalena that it is a zoo?! LOL! She make Eliza and I laugh until can die. After coming out of the hall, I was like fuck! I really did really badly. Trust me. I can’t do talking for nuts. Whenever I talk, all that comes out are rubbish. So everyone around me have been putting up with my rubbish for 15 years! Many things just go through my mind during oral and I was on the verge of breaking down. All those stress are killing the shit out of me. I realized that I have no idea anything about accounts so on exam day, I am going to fill up my name and go to sleep. Please la, I don’t even know anything like balance sheet and all. The basics already cannot, don’t ask me to do it. What a day for everything. I think I need to go for counseling sessions cause I really cannot cope with my work.

Don’t lead me into temptation…

5:34 PM

Wednesday, September 20

Shan’t talk about school to bored myself. But Chinese Oral was frightening. Teacher said that I can read well but cannot converse well. So there it goes, I can’t score. Sat in the canteen till 4pm and fangs mum dropped us off at the traffic light. Eliza and I WALKED HOME! Listen to that, we walked home. It is not very far because all our conversations kept me going. We decided to go Hougang Point and the place is like empty? We sat at food court, that girl is sick yet she drank soft drinks. Take Care girl! Told her stuff and she don’t believe that she is hearing from me and hard to adapt to it? LOL.

Was rather fustrated over someone whom everyone knows who is the someone. HAHA! Eh, you arh, grow up la huh. Stop trying to make people’s life miserable hor. Get lost! :))))


9:41 PM

Tuesday, September 19

If only you knew, how hard i try to make things work for us,
to let you know how bad i need you

If only you knew, how hard it gets when i gaze at the moon at night,
it reminds me of you

If only you knew, how bad my heart hurts when you're not in it,
how it calls your name

If only you knew how much i care for you, and what I’d do for you..
anything for you

If only you knew, i wonder if you would feel the same..
a little something maybe..

and I wonder, if I’ll be ignored again..

Sitting in the dark feeling sorry for myself again..
Mending pieces of my heart with my hands again..
Drying the river of tears flowing from my eyes again..
again and again..

All i need, is for you to hold me tight..
for you to whisper, words that will calm me down, comfort me
and make me feel that deeply inside,,

I’m mending the pieces right.. But in reality, my story never ends..
The hurt just carries on.. and dwells..

All i have is myself,, and with that.. i live on..

(Gotten this from a website i passed by.)

5:03 PM

There you go again
Life haven been great. School is like hell. Your immature thoughts and speech hurt many. Just reflect upon all those stuffs you said, you are no better. All those you have offended in one way or another is already on their verge of killing you. Sometimes, i wonder if that person had made the right choice about you. Maybe you would change for the better but the chance is like 0.0000001% and when that day ever comes, it is most probably you've got no friends anymore. Judging from your character, there's not much difference with what a slut would do.

Thanks to those who ask me to becareful and all. But on the other hand, it doesn't matters right? What difference would it make?

I think I am the dumbest human on earth not knowing about going into password blogs without typing password. :)

You told me that you cared, but there again you did not bother. How sweet. :)

3:47 PM

Monday, September 18

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HANNAH!
i love you*bitch :D

4:39 PM

All the stars are fading away.
Would you catch one for me when i want it?
Would you be there?

Shut up bitch!

4:20 PM

Sunday, September 17

Cause here's my promise i made tonight
Ytd was spent at ECP. Ate like a hungry ghost and you can imagine how much fats i am going to accumulate even before the exam starts. Uncle brought tigger along and tigger is a ugly and irritating dog. And tigger almost came near to me and guess what i open the biggest umbrella right in its face. I know that is very mean but still who ask him come and make me. KNS. Damn embarrassing and as you know the weather is very cooling and you can see a mad woman holding a umbrella afraid that the dog would come near me. WTH! HAHA! I even almost jumped onto the stone table. Luckily, no one i knew saw me or else it would be the most embarrassing moment in my life. Last night was damn shit. Moving along, my parents dont allow me to buy the fragrance from Hougang Mall cause they say that it is fake and so on and so forth so Daddy is going to duty free to help me buy?! KNS!
My work is killing me. I cannot understand accounts at all.
I almost threw the whole computer out of the window a few minutes ago cause i just read somebody's post. Eeyer!

That is all you had left to say.

4:00 PM

Saturday, September 16

Ks taught me maths today and our brains are like stuffed with lots of numbers cause it is very brain damaging to do maths early in the morning. He taught me till i ended up speaking chinese? Which is a very frightening to hear cause i dont speak chinese while doing my work. I really need lots of help from everywhere on earth for my exam but to the fact that everyone would be having exams at the same period of time, i am left with myself. :)

4:02 PM

Everything is coming to an end
18/09 -->Hannah's Birthday
20/09-->Chinese Oral
21/09-->English Oral
22/09-->Fangs' Birthday
English Paper 1
Chinese Paper 1
28/09-->Geography Paper 2
Elective Lit
29/09-->English Paper 2
Social Studies
2/10-->POA
3/10-->Chinese Paper 2
4/10-->Chemistry
5/10-->Serene's Birthday
Maths Paper
6/10-->Biology
Geography paper 1
10/10-->Amanda's Birthday
14/10-->Livia's Birthday
27/10-->Eunice's Birthday

I am so dead. Studies kill and i am on the verge of being killed by absorbing my geography notes.

2:47 PM

Thursday, September 14

Schl, math remedial, raffles (place or city?), joshua smthg smthg, hougang mall. Home. Anws, today during the ride from raffles to hougang, me and manda was both trying to drill some sense into jasmine. She kept thinking that her mum was going to chase her out, which it wasn't going to, and never happen in the first place. Wa lao eh, she was acting like a stubborn bull refusing to take in the wrds we say okay! Hahaha, damnit I have to admit i was a little annoyed at her. But jasmine, no matter how annoyed I am with you today or what, I still love you okay. And yeah, you can do even better for eoys. Jia you, kam pa teh. THEN AFTER THAT SHE BROUGHT ME TO PERFUME SHOPS AND I ALMOST DIED SMELLING THEM.
-adapted from eliza's blog-
Hey Eliza! Though you always gets your words spelled wrongly like disipline mistress instead of discipline mistress, I LOVE YOU TOO BABE! <3>

10:55 PM

Tell me a reason why
I really can't do maths for nuts. Especially graphs like co-ordinates and all. Anyone wants to teach me? But seriously, i am hopeless. Had lessons till 3.45 and we rushed to Raffles Place. Initially, was supposed to go with Fangs only but Manda and Eliza came along. We look like tourist in Shenton Way cause its like so lost?! Went up to the office and the surveyor is damn funny. A very friendly lady. :) The survey is for $30! Fangs left early for her elec lessons so Manda, Eliza and I went to Hougang Mall for Long Johns. I bet i was a very whiny and irritating girl cause i irritated the both of them. HAHA!
Looked around for fragrances and i cannot decide if i should take Gucci Eny Me or CKb. Envy me is for ladies and Ckb is for guys but you know i like both. So i decide i should take envy me and next time my husband would have Ckb. HAHA! That is so random.

You are another disappointment. How sweet of you. =)

8:59 PM

Wednesday, September 13

I’ve been rather in a pissy mood during lesson time casue the weather is not that great and Ms Ferng is always picking and being against me with the addition of some people’s talking make me suffer like shit argh! She is forever Jasmine, can you please pay attention anot? And she just keeps on saying me till she is satisfied. I so wanted to kill her cause I can’t understand and do the damn maths question. I look at the question and stone and not picking up my pencil to do cause I can’t even remember the formula. I am just a freaking idiot who doesn’t know her work at all. Attending school for the sake of being there but not enjoying the lessons. Ms Heng’s class is like slack. People gossip, sleep, sms, drink and do all those weird stuff. She is like singing lullaby. I can fall asleep by her teaching and I don’t know how am I going to pass at this rate I am going. I am dead serious by what I said. HAHA!

I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad

Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do is grow old with you

I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

I'll miss you
Kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold

Need you
Feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed if you've had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you

Going Raffles city with Fangs tomorrow for the survey thing. I am so going to take the $25 already!

9:48 PM

Monday, September 11

Miss calls
I am very irritated to the fact that my phone always have miss calls but I don’t know who is the person cause I have no caller id. It just make you feel very uneasy. So if anyone calls and I didn’t answer your phone, can please kindly sms to tell me that u called so I can call back? Thanks! Your sms would help a lot! :)

10:23 PM

News spread fast man. One moment ______ bump into you and you can foresee the next minute you turn your head around, ______would have already taken out her handphone and call _____. It is like lesser than 10 minutes you would receive hot gossips from ______. It is damn scary at times.

First day of school is a waste of time! It just bored the shit out of everyone. You can see everybody pulling a long face. HAHA! I can foresee my future soon yeah?! :) SCHOOL SUCKS LA!
Morning assembly by Big Bird is like wooooh. She wasted our time by making us stand and sit for like 5 times and make us sing the school song for 2 times and you know our school ain't like pathlight. It is slow and draggy so everyone was very irritated and Judy Wong caught us for not singing so she stood beside us. I was just mouthing the words la. She nudged Fangs to sing. HAHA! My school such a joker hor?

Double promise, forever and ever.

3:41 PM

Saturday, September 9

Like it was before
Nightmare is starting very soon. It is like so shit cause this nightmare with the addition of exams. I haven been taking exam for a year and I don't even know the format for the papers. Seriously, if you see my daily work already going to die, how to do for the papers. I can prepare to save money to open my Koh's coffeeshop man. And I have to think of what to buy for Hannah. It is killing my brain cells. Anyone wants to suggest? As usual, i would say school sucks. :D

Demelza is coming back very soon!!! :)))
Eliza is still kokoge-ing and she wants to borrow my maths worksheet.
Livia is grieving about her Paul.
Serene just finished her guitar performance yesterday (if i am not wrong.)
Amanda, Fangs, Eunice, Seetoh and everyone else missing in action.

'And then she would break your heart and leave you with nothing. :)

1:10 PM

Thursday, September 7


This thing have been my bestfriend since Tuesday afternoon. I am so dumb, I shoud have bought this in Cheers on Monday midnight instead of the damn Panadol which cost me $5 and I didnt even eat it. This is so shiok man. All my aches are gone just because i applied this but i smelled like some old lady with all those chinese medicine on them. Anyway, got to prepare for my tution later. :)

2:52 PM

Wednesday, September 6

Party
Bus-ed down to chalet with Serene and Eliza for Kim's party. Starting was people from our two classes then other people start coming in. Some got drunk. Quite crazy. A bit wild. Kim lost her phone. There is this drunkard who kept on speaking in thai and nobody have any idea what he is talking about. Seriously, I was damn shag when i reached home and i acted like a mad woman. Was real tired.

You're my hunny bun, sugar plum, pumpy-umpy-umpkin.
You're my sweetie pie.
You're my cuppy cake, gumdrop, snoogums-boogums,
You're the apple of my eye!
And I love you so, and I want you to know that i'll always be right here.
And I love to sing this song to you,
Because you are so dear!

2:53 PM

Tuesday, September 5

Class Chalet
Cabbed down with Eliza. The games were not bad and ice breakers is damn funny. We played dog and bone and guess what. The bone is a water gun and Angeline stepped on it?! It broke! HAHA! Amazing race was simply T.I.R.I.N.G! Have to run around and all. But it was quite fun but too bad the people in each group is too little. Bbq-ed was normal. People who stayed over were: Eliza, Kim, Shazana, Amanda, Jasmine Teo, SiJia, Gurleen, Fangs, KenSiew, Vanessa Seet and Angeline. Lots of stuff happened in the night. Did not sleep cause my whole body was simply ACHING like mad. Thanks to those who are concerned. Thanks Gurleen for helping me to massage, seet to buy medicine with me. Hmm.. Ate breakfast with some of them cause some wanted to sleep. Cabbed home with Eliza, manda and Fangs.

3:41 PM

Saturday, September 2

I need for than 24 hours a day!
  • Maths Worksheet undone. (Similar figures)
  • Chemistry worksheet undone.
  • Yet to start revising my science.
  • Have to finish my chapter 1 maths faster cos I waste far too much time online and out.
  • Clear my cupboard.
  • Clear my drawer.
  • Throw away some stuffs which is going to be thrown away SOONER or LATER!
  • Return all those boring library books.
  • Do my medi/pedi as soon as possible cos in a blink, holiday's ending.
  • Bloody exams starts on 22nd Sept
  • Clear my worksheets.
  • Organise my work.
  • I need lots of time to myself to think about lots of stuffs instead of dreaming.
  • There will not be anymore KOHTEOLIUANG coffeeshop cause all have future except ME!
  • Remember to switch on my damn phone every monring and even to bring it out.
  • Settle my tutions and all.
  • No more going out after school next term.
  • Please exclude me from all those shoppings and outings.
  • Get present for Hannah and Fangs.
  • Go gym cause i am getting heavier every second.
  • Maybe i should get my computer/ipod/handphone and even HOUSEPHONE confiscated so i wont waste my time thinking and talking too much.
  • Get a bigger brain.
  • 24 hours studying.
  • At least cover 1/2 of the topics tested for exams by this holiday.

This aint going to be the ones. There is goin to be more but i dont want to kill my brain cells anymore! :)

12:51 PM