Mid years are coming up REAL SOON and I am still in the shopping kind of mood. That kind of ‘I CANNOT BE BOTHERED” mood. Its very bad I know, but I just can’t be motivated for exams. I have no idea why.
Dear Ms Jasmine Koh, please get your engines running or else you will die very badly when the report book comes back.
" Sometimes it's still hard to believe you're gone. "
Though I know things would not change back to how it was like last year, but I know those times that we hanged out together was being treasured. You are 1 year older. Gave her a surprise, Demelza, Serene and Eunice came over and we went opposite to buy cake. We dared/encouraged her to give a cake to her HOT neighbour but in the end she didn't. =( Went school for 2.4km run and I passed and I went home around 9 plus. Then out to meet Kim & Demelza for prata session at Gardens' and i cut my hair. Okkkaaayyy, I look like a ah lian now.
This morning started with a bit of camwhoring as a whole band. Followed by Sectionals and warm ups. Sir came and conducted us for a bit. Got ready and all. The feeling in the concert hall was really very scary, I was so cold, and I wanted to run off and cry. I dont know why. Sir said that we did a fantastic job. Its the process that we enjoyed. Announcing of results was kind of funny. Lol, St Pat's was the first GWH band. And we sang TO GOD BE THE GLORY after we went out of the hall. Yup, reached back school near to 8pm and cabbed down to Chomps with Jolene =) Great time dinnering with her. PLCB, though we didn't know get what we had always wanted but we earned back many other stuffs. So it doesnt really matter! <33> Sir's the best conductor I ever known. Really truly. PLCB's the bomb, Sir's the bomb too! =) Thanks for all those hugs, phone calls, messages, wishes and all. There are many whom I have to thank for going through this period with me tolerating all my nonsense and all. I shall do the shoutouts soon. =) All the best for those band who has yet to go for the SYF! :D
Thank you to everyone who came down to watch.
Yes yes, it was the last concert for every CCA before their Sec 4s step down.
(I hope we get to go for some overseas music exchange according to what sir told us)
A whole 13 hours in school waiting waiting and more waiting.
Cam whoring during waiting with the band members. =)
Lunched at my favorite hang out OMS. (opposite mama shop)
Lol, then performance was alrights.
Flowers are great! (but all died)
Night was one great i think.
I was in total shock seeing someone turned out. HAHA!
Supper at Kovan Macs was flooded with PL girls.
It went badly.
Angeline, Eunice and friend sent me home first. (:
The whole day was just purely cam whoring, waiting, eating junk and playing Emmanuel 6 songs.
Thank you everyone, really <33
Fucker siah.
I REALLY THINK I SHOULD GROW UP TO BE DETECTIVE OR PI OR SOMETHING. REALLY, CONFIRM EARN BIG BUCKS MAN. FASTER FASTER WANT TO FIND OUT ANYTHING ABOUT YOUR BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND OR YOUR FRIEND OR WHATEVER. COME AND FIND ME ! CONFIRM GOT RESULTS OUT ONE. TRUST MEEEE.. =)
I can't wait to faster get it over and done with. Then I can start concentrating on my work.
Last night was in one of the MOODS again. Was on the phone with L and me crying for fuck. I don't know why I cried for. Whatever lah, I get so tired easily these days.
Jasmine: eh, that time i watch mini syf until i fall asleep, somemore sleep so comfortably with my legs on the seat like treat myself at home like that.
Lewis: Since when you don't sleep? You sleep wherever you go, whatever you are doing. I am not surprised at all.
I SLEEP BECAUSE I AM TIRED. AND SLEEPING IS GOOD CAUSE YOU DON'T NEED TO WORRY THIS AND THAT. =)))
I wanna call the stars
Down from the sky
I wanna live a day
That never dies
I wanna change the world
Only for you
All the impossible
I wanna do
I wanna hold you close
Under the rain
I wanna kiss your smile
And feel the pain
I know what's beautiful
Looking at you
In a world of lies
You are the truth
Maths was almost a killer.
Band Prac was spent doing Kaleidoscope Rehearsal.
Kaleidoscope is coming in 2 days time! =)
Oh, I need serious & proper talk with some people after mid years. (Important)
I am very impressed. =))
School was a tiny weeny bit of pmsy.
PE was in the new gym room.
It is one of the best room I can find in school.
I go and act macho and lift the weights and I swear I hurt my right hand.
It is really hurting like crap cause I feel like crying now.
Nownow, I feel so happy cause there are so many upcoming stuffs that are so so COOL!
Okay, Kaleidoscope is coming up this SATURDAY.
Band prac would be from 9AM to 10PM?
Afterwhich BAND SUPPER together. (location is not settled i think)
And band might be having our FAREWELL* overseas.
Either Thailand or Malaysia.
Note: FAREWELL, not for any competition or whatsoever. Its purely to have fun and take a break to have a memorable farewell. HAHAHA! I REALLY CANNOT WAIT TO GET OUT OF SINGAPORE, this depressing place. And not forgetting SHOPPING TIME! =)
See! Band became SO SO SO COOL!
Alrights, I have to do my farewell stuffs soon!
And and and, chalet have been booked/confirmed which a big YAYNESS!
4 days 3 nights but 1 night is for party cause I don't think people will be free to even come down. SO YES! =)
Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I want to call you but I know you won't be there
I'm sorry for blaming you for everything
I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just want to hide 'cause it's you I miss
You know it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this
Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't to do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back
I'm sorry for blaming you for everything
I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
If I had just one more day, I would tell you how much that
I've missed you since you've been away
Oh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line to try and turn back time
I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
By hurting you
Last night dream was GREAT.
Gave school a miss.
Well, I did Maths & Cheena Chinese this morning.
I was forced to do Chinese and I swear I don't even know how to do the N Level Chinese.
I really suck at it. Its so bloody difficult, the words seems to be kind of weird.
I was made to find every single meaning of the word that I don't know but LUCKILY there was no Chinese Dictionary at home so.. =)
I'm over your lies,and I'm over your games.
I'm over you asking me,when you know I'm not okay.
You call me at night,and I pick up the phone.
And though you've been telling me,I know you're not alone.
Wanting you,to be wanting me.
No that ain't no way to be.
How I feel, read my lips,because I'm so over..
Moving on, it's my time,you never were a friend of mine.
Hurt at first, a little bit,but now I'm so over.
I'm so over it..
There'll be no more crying in the rain.
Whole morning/afternoon was spent in Dad's office. Surfed the net and all. I must comment that his office is a good study area, I might consider going to his office SOON cause Mid Years is coming in 17 days time.
PL Kaleidoscope Night Tickets are all SOLD OUT! =)
I think I should change my bloody tag board back to Haloscan cause I can't view my own tag board. =(
Okay, I am not in the mood to study but yet I have to force myself to or else I can really forget about playing and partying during the holidays.
Eh, I am damn irritated by some people.
Seriously, whats your problem?
You self acclaimed that something's wrong with me for being like that.
Its true.
You are the one instead.
You are the one whose hiding everything.
Scared to let the whole wide world know and what the hell are you trying to do man?
Don't think I can't be bothered and don't know anything or cannot be able to find out.
Sorry, much to your dissapointment, it aint that way.
I know much more than you do, if you realised.
And asking people help you to cover up or rather to pretend that they don't know about it?
What the fuck siah, sorry hor.
Its that obvious.
No wonder people been asking me and all.
Thats when I figured out something went wrong.
I don't even know a single thing, ha, people thought I was lieing or helping you to cover up.
Don't come and act big and say what you want to settle things.
Cause in actual fact, THERE IS NOTHING TO SETTLE.
Don't come and pretend.
Its enough, I feel so irritated and disgusted.
When I dont hear about you, I feel so much better. Seriously.
Get them to come and lie for you?
Get a life man.
Not so free to hear all your lies and stories you make up.
Cause you know what, you are the one that will regret.
Not me.
I didn't even know such stuffs will actually happen.
And whats worse its you.
I thought you are a different person so all these time you've been pretending huh?
Or is it that I just don't understand you well enough.
HAHAHA! This is such a joke man.
Nownow, I do pity someone.
You are lieing too. =)
Now I can't sing a love song
Like the way it's meant to be
Well, I guess I'm not that good anymore
But baby, that's just me
And I will love you, baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and The words don't rhyme
And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you - Always
Now your pictures that you left behind
Are just memories of a different life
Some that made us laugh, some that made us cry
One that made you have to say goodbye
What I'd give to run my fingers through your hair
To touch your lips, to hold you near
When you say your prayers try to understand
I've made mistakes, I'm just a man
When he holds you close, when he pulls you near
When he says the words you've been needing to hear
I'll wish I was him 'cause those words are mine
To say to you till the end of time
Yeah, I will love you baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
If you told me to cry for you I could
If you told me to die for you I would
Take a look at my face
There's no price I won't pay
To say these words to you
Well, there ain't no luck
In these loaded dice
But baby if you give me just one more try
We can pack up our old dreams
And our old lives
We'll find a place where the sun still shines
The first attempt.
Hello there, Birthday Girl !
Decorating stuffs.
guess you'll be glad to know
that i've learned how to laugh and smile
getting over was slow
they say old lovers can be good friends
but i never thought i'd really see you
i'd really see you again
i go crazy
when i look in your eyes
i still go crazy
no my heart just can't hold that feeling inside
way deep down inside
oh baby you know when i look in your eyes
i go crazy
you say she satisfies your mind
tells you all of her dreams
i know how much that means to you
i realize that i was blind
just when i thought i was over you
i see your face and it just ain't true
no it just ain't true
i go crazy
when i look in your eyes
i still go crazy
that old flame comes alive
it's starts burning inside
way deep down inside
oh baby
you know when i look in your eyes i go crazy
i go crazy
you know when i look in your eyes
i go crazy no my heart just can't hide
that old feeling inside
way deep down inside
i go crazy you know when i look in your eyes
I think my parents should just shift to stay at Gardens or maybe buy back our old house.
So convenient for SUPPER time and school.
I treat that place like 2nd home alr, since I hang around there almost everyday.
I have to get ready for Lauren & LYT to come over to study!
bye, this is the right time for a good afternoon nap BUT I have
-Geography Assignment (this is so bloody difficult)
-ACCOUNTS test (partnership)
-CHEMISTRY test
-Stuffs to seeeettttttlllllleeeeee
No one ever saw me like you do
All the things that I could add up too
I never knew just what a smile was worth
But your eyes see everything
Without a single word
Cause there's something in the way you look at me
It's as if my heart knows
You're the missing piece
You make me believe that there's nothing this world I can't be
I never know what you see but there's something in the way you look at me
If I could freeze a moment in my mind
It'll be the second that you
Touch your lips to mine
I'd like to stop the clock
Make time stands still
Cause baby this is just the way I always wanna feel
I don't know who you are
I feel different in your eyes
All I know is it happens every time
The way you look at me
Maths with Lau Yu Ting, Eunice & Lauren at Garden's Macs.
It was QUITE productive.
LYT's mum sent me home and I swear her mum is DAMN COOL.
The car's stereo is like BOOM BOOM BOOM, It feels like CLUB.
The songs all those dancing songs that kind.
It makes me think of L cause when you are in his car, you hear that kind of songs.
HAHAHAHA!
CHOMPS for dinner AGAIN.
Don't you regret, yes I do.
You're not alone
together we stand
i'll be by your side, you know
i'll take your hand
when it gets cold
and it feels like the end
there's no place to go
you know i won't give in
no i won't give in
keep holding on'
cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
just stay strong'
cause you know i'm here for you, i'm here for you
there's nothing you could say
nothing you could do
there's no other way when it comes to the truth
so keep holding on'
cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
so far away
i wish you were here
before it's too late, this could all disappear
before the doors close
and it comes to an end
with you by my side i will fight and defend
i'll fight and defend
yeah, yeah
keep holding on'
cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
just stay strong'
cause you know i'm here for you, i'm here for you
there's nothing you could say
nothing you could dothere's no other way when it comes to the truth
so keep holding on'
cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
hear me when i say, when i say i believe
nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny
whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly
keep holding on'
cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
just stay strong'cause you know i'm here for you, i'm here for you
there's nothing you could say
nothing you could do
there's no other way when it comes to the truth
so keep holding on'
cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
keep holding onkeep holding on
there's nothing you could say
nothing you could do
there's no other way when it comes to the truth
so keep holding on'
cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Dont start coming back to blame me for not telling you or helping you from the start.
Cause all along, you did not even heed to my advice.
So I am going to be out of all this shit.
You've learnt your lesson not only once.
But it seems that you are still not aware of anything yet.
Thats it, I cant do anything much about it either.
You are simply INDESCRIBABLE. I am serious.
I feel a need to salute you.
You can lie your way through, I am shocked.
You can be the next big LIAR.
So all I heard are lies, I felt like laughing but I cant.
Cause I know things that you don't.
And I don't intend to tell it out.
So I had to hold my laughter.
I wonder how am I just going to tell you stuffs in future.
Cause it seems that we are all living in our own world.
And it feels different.
Your sad eyes never told me
No paradise here for the lonely
But I hold on, half a heart here in my hands
Been so long, would you know me
Who's holding you, who's gonna hold me
If you want me, then I'll be yours
And I keep holding on
Holding on till you come back to me
And I keep holding on
Holding on till you run to me
Can you take me to heaven
Show me the way cause I'm no angel
I'm lost and can I hold you one more time
I guess me holding you was holding you down
WIll I have your memory
Or will your memory have me
I don't know, only time knows if I'll ever know peace of mind
Only time knows if you're mine, if you're mine
And I keep holding on
Holding on till you come back to me
And I keep holding on
Holding on till you run to me
All I can hold is a shadow of a heart that's gone
And left me shattered I'm lost and can I hold you one more time
I guess me holding you was holding you down
I need to get a new penknife soon cause my pencil case does not have a single weapon, HAHAHA! I am just kidding, my penknife got confiscated by someone the other time so I still yet to get one. Talking about it reminds me of sec 2 when we take DNT. When someone cut herself, she will push the blame to DNT say what the tool's and all. Lol, its damn funny. Now, NO DNT = NO EXCUSES.
Napfa killed me, Bio test also killed me. Everything seems to be killing me eh.
This year sec 1s are such weird kids. -.-
Its been time and time I've been lying to myself.
But thoughts of us kept keeping me awake
Ever since you found yourself in someone else's arms
I've been tryin' my best to get along
But that's OK
There's nothing left to say, but
Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need them
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better But you'll think of me, you'll think of me
I tried to sweep out all the ruins that my emotions left I guess I'm feeling just a little tired of this.
It starts from 10 May (Thursday) till 18th May (Friday).
10 May ( Thursday ) - English Paper 1
- Chinese Paper 1
11 May ( Friday ) - Social Studies
- Chinese Paper 2
- Chinese Oral
14 May ( Monday ) - Maths Paper 1
- Literature
- Chinese Listening
15 May ( Tuesday ) - Pure Geography
- Chemistry
16 May ( Wednesday) - English Paper 2
- Biology
17 May ( Thursday ) - POA Paper 1
- Maths Paper 2
18 May ( Friday ) - POA Paper 2
So there wont be anymore LATE NIGHT SUPPERS.
Somehow I miss 3D2 06'
I dont mind going back to last year so we can start the year together again, it was filled with so much fun and laughter. Not as emo as this year. -.- Lol, mid years already make me feel so stressed like its some big biggie major thing in my life. EXAM EXAM EXAM, i hate it.
Not forgetting I have 7 test next week + Napfa 5 items (my gosh, i think i am going to fail that)
Dinnered at Charlie's Corner in Changi Village last night.
The grilled fish was yum yum =)
Accounts tution this afternoon.
Down to Far East to meet Samantha, Amanda, P, M.
Walked around and all.
Ended up in Marina Square.
Dinner-ed beside DXO.
Stingray, chicken wings...
Up to the roof terrace to talk and all walked around Fullerton.
Photo album up soon.
Is cutting of wrist a trend again.
It was hell fun in the ending. DODSWORTH IS THE BOMB. We rocked the stadium down. Alrights, we got CHAMPION for Secondary Level. That is GREAT. We had a fun time shouting/screaming. Painting our faces, hair spray and all. It was hell hot, and lots of camwhoring too. Lol. Dodsworth is filled with Bimbos siah, cannot run one. We the cheerleaders are supposed to run as a house for the mass run and I tell you the group of us were behind walking and complaining.
Okay, i owe the whole world birthday presents. Please kill me. I no $$ already siah, need to go and rob the bank already. AND AND AND! I regret cutting my hair, everyone is calling me ah lian now.
Hey, you are so silly. You actually believed that I quarreled with that person over such stuffs? Lol, but thanks for believing or else this surprise ain't going to be any surprise anymore.
You are like the most emotional girl I ever known. We can be EMO PARTNERS! =)
imiss all those late night talks with you.
imiss those suppering nights on prata and get ourselves fat.
imiss talking to you and end us in tears.
imiss those times we meet up at the bus stop to go out and you are always late.
imiss having you in my class and hearing you singing regardless if you go out of tune a not.
imiss tonning (?) with you out during MM.
imiss dinnering with you.
imiss those bus rides we took home/out.
imiss hearing your whinnings but definitely not crying.
imiss eating as a whole ex clique during recesses which we don't do it at all anymore.
imiss borrowing notes from you though its late at night.
imiss going over to your house to borrow your computer when mine broke down.
imiss seeing you dancing in front of the class.
imiss going Hougang Point with you together.
imiss walking home from school with you.
imiss gyming with you.
imiss late night study sessions with you.
imiss telling you stuffs last year.
imiss you being there for me 24/7.
imiss you and your screeching voice that the I can hear you from afar. (this was used to be)
imiss encouraging me to go for CCA.
imiss tanning in sentosa with you.
imiss complaining how tired i am to you.
imiss prank calling with you. (this is so last year)
imissyouelizateokailing.
You are 1 year more matured.
You are 1 year closer to becoming a laddddeeehhhhhhh.
Went into her room and her mum helped us too. We were inside planning of stuffs.
Everything was damn last minute, we did a simple skit for her!
i wonder if you know
Today is your birthday
It is 11th of April and we all gotta say HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYYY
E , E , ETEO
SHENG RI KUAI LEEE
ZHANG ZHANG , KAILIN
Eunice (beat box)
serene (freeze)
many many friends are here today
we bring a cake and happy Wednesday !
*sing to the tune of TOKYO DRIFT
Lol. <333
iIiIi sHoxXX sAddDDiiEEeE wOoORxXx...
This is the second time I took part SYF for PLCB <3
All the practices, camp, performances, exchanges, effort and all were all for this competition.
We came this far, as a whole band together.
ONEBANDONESOUND. (every band uses this)
I am proud of my own PLCB for all everything, though we didn't get what we had always aimed and wanted but we did enjoy the whole process.
A silver is good enough knowing the standards of this year had been stricter.
A Gold With Honours Band can drop straight to Silver is a unimaginable thing to happen.
Our band remained its standard, though everyone had improved and all. =)
All those late night promises I guess they don't mean a thing
So baby, what's the story?
Tell me what it takes to let you go
Tell me how the pain's supposed to go
Tell me how it is that you can sleep in the night
Without thinking you lost everything that was good in your life
I feel like giving up. Just look at VS, and what more can I say.
I am in no mood to start a fight or quarrel with anyone. Seriously, I do not.
So don't come and try provoking me.
Thanks for all those who wish-ed (?).
Whatever man, I just have no comments and all.
Sometimes, I should just keep my mouth shut.
Alrights, based on the judges today. Its totally what the heck kind of thing.
VS Silver ? Dont funny la, the judges are either, deaf or i dont know what. Lol.
I feel like killing them.
all that glitters is definitely not gold
I DID NOT touch my books at all.
I DID NOT bother studying.
I DID NOT have the time to do study either.
The whole 3 days were spent outside.
I am not even at home for 2 hours.
All I do when I wake up is wash up and out then back home and rush out again.
Parents aren't happy with all the suppering nights.
I am seriously like not scared to die that kind.
And when its like a day before the CTs, I will start to panic and cry. (HAHAHA!)
Its Jasmine Koh man!
I planning for a self declared holiday to STUDY already. =)
Sleeping is a great escape .
Trained home and rushed to meet the girls for steamboat.
Sort of celebrated Eliza's birthday and down to Esplanade.
We spoilt the whole ambience.
Though all along I wanted to let you know something.
I j u s t dont seem to be able to.
Not even the s i m p l e s t words.
I am just hating all these shit.
Just let us do get this right.
Anyone wants to watch PL Kaleidoscope? Please get tickets from me, I need to sell tickets.
Saturday Night (28/4) 7pm, $10.
You can bring your girlfriend, boyfriend, auntie, uncle, father, mother, sister, friends or whoever you want to bring, just get the tickets from me.
Please sms/call/msn me. THANK YOU BELLY BELLY MUCH, I WILL LOVE YOU LOTS! =)
Ever since the day you ran away and left me lonely and cold,
my life just hasn't been the same, ohh baby no.
When I looked into your eyes the moment that I let you go, I just broke down.
Baby if I ever get the chance to be with you again I would sacrifice,cause the feeling that I feel within, no other man would ever make me feel so right.
It's nice to smile when I get your phone call in mind, but I'd rather have you here with me right next to me, I miss the way you hold me tight.
I gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch.
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much.
I gotta let you know, I think that we are destiny.
For you, I'd cross the world.
For you, I'd do anything.
Thats right baby, Im going crazy, I need to be your lady.
I've been thinking lately, that you and me, yes, we could makeit just ride wit me, and role wit me, I'm in love with you baby.
Break it down now, I'll tell you what I feel from the moment that I meet you it was so damn real, my heart seems to skip another beat every time we speak, can't believe I feel so weak.
Tell me that you really need me and you want me and you miss me and you love me I'm your lady.
I'll be around waiting for you, put it down, be the woman for you.
I'm fallen so deep for you, I'm crazy over you.I'm callin', callin' out to you what am I gonna do it's true, I'm not frontin,It's you and the weather I could no longer go on without you, I'll just break down.
Crazy, Lady, Lately ohhhhhh Baby
I am just speechless. I just don't seem to be able to say everything out, but whats the point in saying it anyway. Its just POINTLESS.
AC concert was great. (ACS(I), ACS(B), ACJC)
Their finale piece was The Phantom of the Opera. =)
Kenny Rogers with SimAi, Gladys and Jolene. Stingray for supper. :D
I GUESS I GAVE EVERYONE MY WRONG HANDPHONE NUMBER. LOL, EVERYONE BEEN CALLING AND SENDING THE WRONG MESSAGES FOR THE PASS 2 MONTHS OR SO? LOL. :D
School was so damn tiring due to the 1-hour sleep I had the night before. Blame on myself for going home so late. And I slept through so many lessons and KimKan was such a bitch during accounts, she woke me up from my sleep when I had the most wonderful dream. I so wanted to bitchslap her.
ANIMAL BISCUIT IS LOVE LOVE <333