OH MY GOSH, TOMA IS MAKING ME CRAZY AGAIN.
Its really fucking cool alrights.
Saw the NP's TOMA which is like OH MY FUCK, SIBEI HOT & SEXY PLEASE.
Can really die from watching. The dancer's figure is like so so so HOT.
I almost died when watching because they are the bomb man.
If they ever dance in front of my face, I will prolly just faint and die.
TOMA TOMA TOMA.
Serene & Jng are going to choreograph the dance for PARTEHHH.
THE BOMB MAN. You can really sit there and just stare.
Everyone is really going to dance till they drop & drink till they go mad.
Hardcore drinking please. =)
I AM SO SO HAPPY!
PLUS PLUS PLUS! My sister might be following my mum to Bangkok for Holiday during March and so I WILL BE ALONE FOR 9 days. ALONE! =D Though I want tag along but I have CCA. Nevermind, PARTY IS GOING TO BE FUN, i hope. And people better turn up sia otherwise I will really go and bomb their house.
Darie & I went for Sir's individual training during break this morning and I was quite alrights. Playing for Sunrise techniques are there except Symphonic paraphrase. I really need to learn Symphonic Paraphrase like crazy.
Kim the bitch is slow & retarded. Its alright, her brain is too small to put in too much information, I understand and she was being nice for once to actually help me to find accounts tution teacher. HAHA! =)I bet she is suffering under her Chinese's tution teacher's hand!
Today was not a good day afterall but its alrights.
We are going to have a music exchange on this coming Saturday with VS. Someone kill me please.
Party date is like so screwed cause everyone cannot decide on which day and I will have Band Pracs every single day during the 1 week holiday. Hmm.. No life.
Date: 13th March (Tuesday)
Time: 7pm till late & there's SLEEPOVER!
Venue: Regentville's Function Room
Attire: Up to you la. Whats most appropriate.
Invites: Your girl / your guy.
Eh, Singaporean! Got free drinks leh!
Alrights, lets see. Party is not that well planned afterall but NEVERMIND! I've got to ask people to get drinks and all. We are going to invite any monster on Earth that we know. No la, not monster, PERFECT HUMAN BEING. I am just being random on calling people monsters. And I hope it wont turn out to be a night of drama rama. Or else that particular person can really get herself/himself sleep by the poolside or maybe in my living room. And and LAUREN is going to do the invitation! Haha!
Eunice, Demelza, KimKan, Lauren, Angeline, Serene & Janice Ng came over after school. Messed my room till it looks like a pig sty. YUP! They were dancing around and all. Pooled again.
There is this weird person by the name of SARAH TAN who came to add us. And not only me, but US as in Demelza, Serene, Kim and many others. And the connection is kind of weird. Eh girl, I INVITE YOU TO MY PARTY LA. So you can let all of us have a good look at you huh. I want to see how weird are you since you add most of them my friends! *Ooops.* HAHAH!
Was supposed to meet in Serene's house at 1pm but I overslept cause I slept at 4am last night. Reached her house around 2 and sat around. Eat, played around. JaniceNg, Angeline, Eunice & Demelza came over. Watched little man and it was damn funny.
Now now, I feel HAPPY! Because my ATM card has something called $$$. I used to have $$$ till I overspent it and my mum was so pissed to top it up everytime and I spend money like water for like 2 years and she stopped topping it up since Sec 3 so I was broke for 1 year. From a $$ to $$$ makes me $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$. Lol.
I don't even notice the tears anymore
Until someone asks me why I’m crying.
And I’m snapped back to reality,
To find my hands covered in my own tears.
I must have been thinking too much again
And got lost in my sadness.
The tears fall so naturally,
A new tagboard, and history is gone.
Anyway, I am the BEST! Champion please cause I did not do anything during Accounts test. It was an hour test and KimKan and I took only 15 minutes and we ended up SLEEPING for the whole 45 minutes. Aint we great? We were giving each other permission to sleep. I can really go and fly kite when my mum sees my paper.
Before meeting up with the group, I was in such a terrible state at home alone. I was very emotionally unstable out of a sudden. I just sat in the room and cried non stop like some marathon shit and then I couldnt control myself. When I couldnt find my phone I was like crying like some bitch. The wall is nice to slam onto. =)
As usual I was LATE. I told KimKan to meet me at 7 and I ended up meeting them at 7.30. Haha! It was damn funny when Kim when up to ask for money like some loansharks. I had a great night out with Demelza, KimKan, Janice Ng, Lau Yu Ting, Serene, Lauren & Eunice. Though the meet up wasn't for long but it is fun.
That smile isnt for me.
Party planning, fun fun fun!
My life is all so planned thanks to Kim Kan.
Apparently, that girl planned all my days/holidays/after N's and all.
We are like the best planner in the whole wide world.
I just can't wait for PARTY PARTY PARTY.
Common test starts today and it feels like END OF YEAR EXAM.
It was weird. The feeling was weird too.
ARE WE GOING TO PLAY CARDS IN VIVO OR IN MY HOUSE?
ARE WE GOING TO POOL OR SLACK?
Hahaha! I've still got visitings to do.
Bye computer, Hello MATHS & ACCOUNTS.
ACCOUNTS, I HATE YOU LEH! =(
I shouldn't have gone to school today but for the sake of Eunice & Kimberley cause they will treat me if I go to school so I am WAITING for that treat eh!
The whole group of us were busy planning for our March Party when there is common test tomorrow, cool eh?
Lol, lunched with Lauren & Eunice at Serangoon Central Macs.
They Homed with me and we STUDIED.
HAHA! How true man, played around.
Guest list is so so so cool.
I cant wait to party, dance, drunk and be a btich about everything. =)
Sometimes no matter how hard you try it just all comes out wrong.
Sometimes the sun isn’t enough to keep the lonely heart warm.
Sometimes the tears don’t fall from sadness but simply emptiness.
Sometimes it hurts more to be surrounded by people who call themselves friends
Than to be alone and know that its all just lies anyway.
Sometimes I cry for you...
Sometimes I don’t even know why I’m crying.
Sometimes the rain feels like it should wash me clean... but doesn’t.
Sometimes all I want is you to hold me... but all I can do is push you away
And I’m sorry for every sometimes that I hurt you.
Those kind that irritates and bug you kind? Fuck off man.
Showed Laruen this particular person's photo and she was like ee, so ugly. She was expecting someone prettier! TSK! HAHA! =)How would I know she would look like that right? DEFINATELY NOT MY CUP OF CAPPUCINO!
Visiting with Serene, Angeline, Janice Ng & Demelza have been real fun. We visited Janice Ng first then Kimberley Kan. Initially, she gave us 100 bucks of Monopoly money. -__-''' Thanks arh. We played cards till Lyt, Nerissa, Morgan & Harvey Norman came. Harvery Norman is 2 seperate people. We were thinking of exuses when her parents came back so we said Morgan is my cousin & my dad is coming to fetch his friends and me home so he have to wait at Kim's house. Damn funny please. Its been real fun. Shopping in town with Best friend was great though we didnt have the mood to talk much.
She asked me this question which still quite left me wondering.
I seriously have no answer to that question girl, prolly Its Just Because It Will Never Happen! :D
Lets have a gathering SOON! Before New Year ends so we can play cards again!
I couldn’t count the times you’ve been there for me,
and I couldn’t count the times you’ve cared,
but I couldn’t count the times my tears have been for you either.
I couldn’t count the times you’ve made me smile, or the times you’ve made me laugh, but I couldn’t count the times you’ve made me wish I were so much more for you.
So many tears have fallen in your name,
so many poems with you in mind,
so many wishes said for your well being and so many hearts with your name within. You’ve been my life, my world, my savior even.
I owed so much to you. But I’ve paid my debt in tears.
Was reading someone's archives and I can really laugh my ass off please. Its damn bloody funny.
Anyway, visiting & meet up with Demelza, Serene & Angeline tomorrow. =)
You’re the sun that doesn’t shine
When the sky cries tears of pain
You’re the bird that doesn’t sing
Because it’s locked in a cage
You’re everything that’s beautiful
Yet unappreciated till it’s gone
New Year was alrights. Gathering/Catching up and all.
Seeing everyone all so grown up and pretty.
Fireworks is PRETTY! Its just great, heard that there would be fireworks every night at Marina? I want to see more of it. =D
Thanks for the wishes and all. Same to everyone, collect more ang pows!
So many thoughts
Things I’ll never say
I want to tell you
You’re my world
My everything
But I never say that
Not loud enough
For you to hear me
Whisper it to the stars
They know everything
All my secrets
Everything I’ve practiced
Saying over and over
Pretending
Its you I was holding
Not my pillow
The stars, your eyes
The wind, your whispers
My blanket, your arms
Just silly dreams of mine
Of things I’d never dare to do
Things I’d never dare to say
To anyone but the stars
Reunion dinner was at uncle's house. =)
The next few days are going to T I R I N G with studies & entertainment aye.
I am going off to Esplanade to watch the pretty fireworks already. :D
Tired of pretending
That this makes sense
Tired of smiling the tears away
Nothing fits quite right
And my puzzle isn’t complete
When it’s missing a piece
And my eyes are getting blurry
From the lack of sleep
And my stomach’s making noises
Protesting its lack of attention
When all I really want to do is cry
Cry my puzzle whole
Drowning the pieces under layers of tears
Washing away all the mismatched pieces
Till there’s nothing left to feel
But emptiness and coldness
A lack of need to live
But all I really want to do is cry
Medi & Pedi is like 40 over bucks so didnt do it in the end & I have to get my mum to file my nails and paint it for me! Goodnight world.
The music doesn’t drown out the voices in my head
And I can still make out your silhouette in the driveway
You haven’t left me yet but I’m not holding you back this time
And I just let my tears fall in rivers of azure blue
Like the summer storms I used to dance in as a child
The blankets remind me too much of your arms on my skin
So much so that I kick them off the bed in anger
How dare they taunt me with lingering feelings
How can you be so over me?
When I’m still holding on.
Tonight was real fun. :D
Conferenced with Serene, Kim, Eliza, Janice Ng.
Half of the time I wasnt even on the line. I was outside the room suppering. =)
We were supposed to talk till morning but ended up everyone sleeping.
Supposed to supper with Lewis but was too tired & there's school next day. Sorry dude!
Love scars deeper than hate
What's done is done
You can't cheat fate
Said you'd hold me together
Well, you're a little late
And you're the one
That left the deepest scar
Thanks for all the wishes/gifts/messages.
Really thank you people for making this day so fun & enjoyable.
During school hours, I so wanted to scream at the school or something cause apparently everyone had so much things to carry & we have to carry it wherever we go so I had so much problem balancing and all. Things were so heavy till I had to cab home.
Bugis-ed with Eunice, Lauren & Janice Ng. =)
Total fun-ness. V8-ed for dinner. People all are in like couples there for candlelight we are like there to spoil the ambience. Tsk! And we took Neoprints. I know its funny cos I haven been taking Neoprints for like 1 year? Lol, spastic please. Got a bottom and let me tell you what there is this SUPER MEGA DUPER HOT GUY! HOT UNTIL I CAN DIE PLEASE. ALL OF US WERE LIKE THINKING ABOUT HIM AND ALL & I TOLD THEM IF I BUMP INTO HIM AGAIN I AM GOING TO MAKE FRIENDS WITH HIM & ASK HIM FOR HIS NUMBER! LOL, (sorry i m just kidding)
But it was enjoyable overall <3
I wish I could be your perfect little everything
But I’m so far from perfect that I’ve lost track
And there’s no going back from where I’ve been
I pasted a smile on my face long ago
But it’s fading with time as it whispers lies
And my eyes have been dry since I started walking
And my feet aren’t even tired yet
I think I must be walking in circles
Because I’m not getting anywhere
I can feel the breeze through my hair
As I walk the deserted streets alone
But nothing’s perfect and I get cold
And I left my jacket somewhere
Near almost perfect
Somewhere I haven’t been in years
I wish I could be your perfect little everything
But I’m so far from perfect
I gave up searching
And I let the cold freeze my heart
But my feet aren’t tired yet
So I’ll just keep walking in circles
Till the tears start falling again
$100 gone already.
Cards -- Done
Gifts -- Done
These are only for school people.
I haven even get for people out of school & I am very scared to meet with those people cause I dont have $$ already la. Please kill me.
I woke up missing you
And as the day goes by the feeling only gets worse
This is one more day to mark on the calendar
Counting away from the last time that I saw your face smile
Or even the last time I saw your face frown
I’m painfully addicted to your memory
And each day is another spent missing you
And without the hope of seeing you again
I really have nothing to look forward to.
The week had barely started and I am feeling tired already. TSK!
Anyway, school been quite fun today. Accounts was like Kim's story telling time.
I've been eating too much and maggie mee and I can find a bald patch on my head alredy.
This week is going to be so fun/exciting/tiring.
VALENTINE'S.. 16th Feb.. New Year! =)
I can't figure out where we fell apart
And I’m searching for someone to blame
For all this pain and all the tears
And I don't know how I manage
To go on loving you
After all that you've put me through
I tell myself ifs not your fault
I tell myself I didn't make you do it
But I blame myself for everything
And if only I had been there
Maybe things would be different
I have dreams of how you used to be
And I wake up crying and screaming
God how I miss that feeling
Whatever went wrong?
How could we have been so perfect?
When I look in the mirror I remember
What it was like to smile
But it's only a fading memory
And my eyes are tired of crying over this
But I'm not strong enough to give you up
And you weren't strong enough to hold on
I should have held your hand tighter
I could have helped you live through this
And I can't help but think
This is all my fault
For all the nights I've spent alone.
For all the words I've said.
For all the times my heart has bled.
These are times,
That just go by.
So many of them.
I'm not sure why.
I probably wont remember,
All the nights gone by.
I probably wont remember.
All the reasons I've cried.
But I tell you this.
True as gold.
The pain I've been through,
My heart will hold.
I've been thinking these days what L had said.
Am I going to wait for things to be back the same & hoping things would turn out fine or am I just going to let go of everything and carry on life. Seriously, I don't know. I tried letting things go on by itself but it doesn't seems to be doing so. So prolly I am just sitting here waiting. 0308. I shall wait and see. And I promised people that I am not going to let all these to affect my mid years/prelims/N's. =)
Life isn't easy & it will never be.
Most of them around me did well for O's? Except for 1 who I have no idea die to where. That would be vian. She never pick up phone and all till now. Everyone is looking for her. Good job.
6 points for O levels? That is pure insane. I cant even get 6 points for N's la. Tsk! =)
When it would be my turn, I would be like 17 years old waiting to get my result. Tell me so old already still only waiting to get results. =(
I am just feeling so numb and sick of everything.
No one stays the same.
Everyone/Everything also changing.
I cant take all the changes coming at one time.
Its really killing me.
I dont know whats wrong with every single damn on person on this fucking world.
-: are you free to meet up on valentine's day?
me: hmm.. what time? for what?
-: lunch?
me: nopes, my school ends at 2pm.
-: oh ok. what about after that?
me: dinner huh?
-: sorry cannot, my school ends around 1 plus & then I would be free till 5pm cause I am going back to school to meet my friends.
me: then forget it. by the time we meet up would be already 3 plus 4. Anyway, Bye.
I am mean. This is what I said. Someone told me that I ought to be shot. Whatever la, look at it please. Lesser than 1 hour, must well not come down right? I mean waste your time, energy, money to travel all the way down just to meet me. Why not stay in your school or go out with that person? Seriously, its no point. And I no need you to come down. Even if I meet you, I will be rushing like crazy so must well not, save my energy too. =)
Valentine is coming in 6 days time. :D
Eunice, Lauren, Janice Ng & Chan & Amanda came over to pool.
It was funnnn.
Valentine's day is just 1 week away.
We predicted that its going to be a sad and depressing valentine.
Would be out with the 3 depressing people.
But NEVERMIND, LETS GET DEPRESSED TOGETHER! =)
I can't believe she's gone, I can't believe
that we are not together anymore
something in her eyes
I've never seen before
it took me by surprise
when she said
I'm not in love anymore
oh, baby
I keep holding on
can't let go
Please let me know
Why does it rain
why does it hurt
Please God explain
'cause don't understand
Love made me fly
now I just cry
Please tell me why does it rain
We used to be as one
we never were apart
the sun were always shining in my heart
now those days are gone
I miss the love we had
no one ever told me
life could be so sad, oh baby
I keep holding on
can't let go
please let me know
Oh, baby
I keep holding on
can't let go
I wanna know
Anyway, school has been fun these days.
Its getting EXCITING & INTERESTING.
Eunice, Lauren & Janice Ng are crazy people to hang around with.
Crazy people = No peace
I've got so many things that needs to be done for New Year.
And if you realised, Valentine's next Wed & New Year is next week too.
I cant think of what things to buy for the ladies for Valentine. =(
I cant wait for new year to come to wear pretty pretty dresses.
Oh, was flower shopping with Serene just now & flowers are damn pretty and cheap.
Pretty sunflowers only cost 15 bucks!
Anyway, there is this sudden change of slang to tamil slang.
I've been on it for days, its just too fun.
This is our pledge we got from a banner in our school:
My eyes look up onto the hills, where does my help come from, it comes from our LORD, the maker of heaven and earth.
Stingray, soya milk, lala, satay..*Yums =)
I've been acting weirdly these days.
Heck la, I think I will score A for Tamil please much better than Chinese.
And : JASMINE PASSED HER CHINESE! :D
Valentine's coming.. New Year's coming.. <333
Girl,there's something bout me that you outta know.
I never felt the need to lose control.
Always held on back and played it slow.
But not this time.baby took a chance, so i can handle anything.
Baby, take me on a journey.
I've been thinking lately, i could use a little time alone with you.
Crazy, let's do something, maybe.
Please don't take your time, you got me, right where you want me.
Girl, i'm gonna let you have your way with me.
When you move like that, its hard to breathe.
I never thought that it could be like this, but i was wrong.
Baby took a chance, so i can handle anything.
Baby, take me on a journey.
I've been thinking lately, i could use a little time alone with you.
Crazy, let's do something, maybe.
Please don't take your time, you got me, right where you want me.
Can't explain it, how you swept me off my feet, unexpectedly.
In slow motion, my imagination running trying to keep my body still,
I can hardly stand the thrill.
Baby took a chance, so i can handle anything.
Baby, take me on a journey.
I've been thinking lately, i could use a little time alone with you.
Crazy, let's do something, maybe.
Please don't take your time, you got me, right where you want me.
Was supposed to go tanning with Serene & Eunice but Serene couldn't make it in the end.Met Eunice and Eliza for Valentine's Day shopping. Dinner was yum yum =)
Sunday
Lunched with Eastina, Dorothy & Chelsie at Taka's Sushi Tei.
Its been years since we sat down together. =)
All the girlie girls have grown up!
We are going to meet as a whole class after New Year!
I cant to wait to see all of them. :D
Stars shining bright above you
Night breezes seem to whisper "i love you"
Birds singin’ in the sycamore trees
Dream a little dream of me
Say nighty-night and kiss me
Just hold me tight and tell me you’ll miss me
While I’m alone and blue as can be
Dream a little dream of me
Stars fading but I linger on dear
Still craving your kiss
I’m longin’ to linger till dawn dear
Just saying this
Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you
Sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you
But in your dreams whatever they be
Dream a little dream of me
(instrumental break)
Stars shining up above you
Night breezes seem to whisper "i love you"
Birds singin’ in the sycamore trees
Dream a little dream of me
Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you
Sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you
But in your dreams whatever they be
Dream a little dream of me
Yes, dream a little dream of me
Its hard, its very miserable for you. Its better to let go now, then to drag on. There's no way of letting someone go, as in there is no method. Try not to think too much and all.
This got me into thinking.
What do I really want?
What am I doing all these while.
I really dont know.
I am forever complaining tired ever since school reopens.
Which is real bad.
Anyway, lunch and cut my hair with Janice Ng, Lauren, Janice Chan and LYT yesterday.
Band today and I am so shag.
Everyone is starting to fall sick or get sore eyes.
Lauren, Janice Ng, Gurleen, Serene: Please Do Take Care alrights! <3
Mi amor I’m not sure of the right words to say
Maybe these simple words will do best to best describe
Tu Amor, I will always be