Band Exchange
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GLADYS! <3 Was telling her when I was in primary school I used to say this: "Excuse me gorgor." But now I would say: "Eh fucker/bastard, get lost eh." Lol. Our school is so bloody dumb. They don’t allow us to go for this year’s prom night. I mean like hello eh, we don’t mind paying for the table. But then the school just simply refuses to let us go. BLOODY SHIT MAN. So much for wanting to go this year and join our batch. All we can do is to go there for their cocktail reception and then stand outside and see. What the fuck. And every single year, prom will be held in Swissotel. No new places to hold prom meh? Whatever la, this end of year holidays can be spent prom hunting, clubbing, partying and maybe working. I am so well planned! Even the best fall down sometimes
=)
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide
Today is the only day I never go for band cause I did my sectionals on Monday so YES!
Finally a day for a goooody gooood nap. But then again, I didn't sleep.
Lessons was boring. I fell asleep during Literature. A good 80 minutes sleep. =)
PE was torturous cause we did 500 skippings, 3 rounds around assembly area, 30 pumpings, 30 sit ups and almost 100 crazy skippings. I can't do sports for goodness sake. Yesterday PE was playing netball and all I did was to walk up and down the court. I can hardly even catch a damn ball and throw it. Thats how pathetic I am. And YingXiu and I created PE Slacker's Club, she is the president and I am going to be the vice president!
Eliza & Demelza's Birthday is coming up REAL SOON. Money drop from the sky please. I need lots and lots of money to buy pretty pretty presents for my pretty pretty bestfriends. <33
Watched Mr Bean with Jessica and it was alrights only. Actually it was not even a single bit good. The guy sitting beside laughed so loudly like HAHAHAHAHAH! I almost died, he treats himself at his own living room like that. Dinner at Early Swensen's cost me a bomb. Spent close to a 100 bucks just within 3 hours. I am so going to declare bankrupt sooner or later. Thank god, I DON'T have a credit card.
SIEWHWEE OWES ME ANIMAL BISCUIT. ANIMAL BISCUIT IS <3333
Light of my life
You're the fire in my heart
When I am lost
When you're lost I know
I'll feel you burning, burning in the dark
You're the light of my life
Every star in the sky
Shines more brightly when you're at my side
You're the light of my life.
Who on Earth goes to concert and give friend's white roses? That would be KimKan and Lauren. They are intending to give me white roses please. Wah lao, so mean can ! Nevermind, I expect to see Hannah Tan there and she is going to get me pretty pretty flowers <33.>
Oooohhhh.. KimKan just said that she is going to work hard for this term but what has she started to plan? After N's party at Cocolatte! That girl is full of ideas please! Our study sessions are quite productive eh, I studied! =)
My bloody handphone line is damn screwed up. Firstly, I dont off my phone but then people just can't call in or message in and even after a few days, I dont receive the message. Tsk! Its bloody annoying cause people can't call in to my phone at night. @&#%(*@&()*#)@
AND AND AND! School is having our concert in our new Auditorium on 28th April (Kaleidoscope) .
All SYF groups will be performing (Band, Guitar, Guzheng, Handbell, Harp, Drama... etc.)
Tickets will be sold at $10 for Matinee Slot (3.30pm)
$10, $15, $25 for Night slot (7.30pm)
You were my dream, my world
But I was blind
You cheated on me from behind
So on my own
I feel so all alone
Though I know it’s true
I’m still in love with you
I need a miracle
I wanna be your girl
Give me a chance to see
That you are made for me
I need a miracle
Please let me be your girl
One day you’ll see it can happen to me
I need a miracle
I wanna be your girl
Give me a chance to see
That you are made for me
I need a miracle
Please let me be your girl
One day you’ll see it can happen to me
It can happen to me
Day and night
I’m always by your side
Cause I know for sure
My love is real my feelings pure
So take a try
No need to ask me why
Cause I know its true
I’m still in love with you
Geography
I really need help in Geography. MAJOR HELP or wait maybe just give me the brains that can remember so much stuffs. I need the Marianne Cheong Human Geography Textbook or else I will die during Mid Years. Having the current textbook is the same as not having a textbook. Its useless.
ACCOUNTS!
After being so stupid and clueless for 1 year and 3 months. I FINALLY UNDERSTOOD PARTNERSHIP. The new teacher is really really good! I am so going to try to do well in my accounts! =)
Funny things happened today. First was during Chinese. Lao Shi was telling us about her ex students and all. So there was this student who wrote a English Composition about his day or something like that and guess what he wrote: seven morning eight morning, my father cry father cry mother. In Chinese/Hokkien its: qi za bue za wa eh lao bei kao bei kao bu! HAHAHAHA! (And he wrote so much more funny stuff that it can become a joke book please.)
Then it was in the LIBRARY, Lauren, KimKan and I were studying inside and the Short Bitch (Librarian) just had to amuse/entertain us with her crazy nonsense. She is kind of weird. Our school hire weird people. NEVERMIND, I go to the library once in a lifetime so it doesn't bother me. =D
Not free is just one of your many excuses.
Please, enough already.
I've seen through everything and I am tired.
Seriously, I can't be bothered.
I have no time for such stuffs.
Now now, studies studies! =)
Friday nights are always the best! =)
I feel like getting a long long long break from everything.
Band SYF time slot would be on 10th April (Tuesday) at 3pm. (Its just 21 days away.)
Show off that body you got
You got that dance floor so hot
-Stop talking on the phone like there is no N's
-Stop friendstering, blog surfing & gossiping! tsk!
*Hopefully, get my mum to confiscate my phone completel then I wont be albe to message in class and talk on the phone.
Dear books, I am going to stick with you 24/7, I promise I will TRY to understand you!
This week is packed with :
1. Accounts tution
2. Band pracs
3. Study session with Edwin
4. CIP
I really Really REALLY need to rush like crazy.
Oh yeah, not forgetting what Ms Ferng wants me to do. Learn IT. WT and I are the IT monitress ( ms chew randomly pick ) and we missed the IT training so obviously we know nuts about IT stuffs and we were so suay that Ferngalicious wants us to set up the visualiser and all. She scolded me like mad when I told her I didn’t know how to do. So I need IT tution. Lol, if she ask me to set up again, I am going to just press any button I see and spoil the whole thing. Not as if I am going to be IT technician when I grow up! =)
Honestly what will become of me
Don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is daily
We are what we don't see
Missed everything daydreaming
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
Come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?
Traveling i only stop at exits
Wondering if i'll stay
Young and restless
Living this way i stress less
I want to pull away when the dream dies
The pain sets in and i don't cry
I only feel gravity and i wonder why
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
Come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?
Well the dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Die die die die die
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
Come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?
Well the dogs were barking at a new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon
And the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day til the feeling went away
And the sky was falling on the clouds were dropping and
The rain forgot how to bring salvation
The dogs were barking at the new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die.
I can't even see what the hell am I typing.
Sometimes, I just wish there is nothing called the past.
So many times, I want to delete it but I just can't bring myself to do it.
No matter what, you will end the story with a goodbye.
I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me
I'm gonna remember you
You're gonna remember me
I saw you with your new girl just yesterday
And I feel that I must confess
Even though it kills me to have to say
I'll admit that I was impressed
Physically just short of perfection
Gotta commend you on your selection
Though I know I shouldn't be concerned
I can't explain this feeling
I think about it everyday
And even though we've moved on
It gets so hard to walk away
I can't forget how we used to be
Our life from day to day
Hoping maybe you'll come back
And though I tell myself not to be afraid
To move on but it seems I can't
But no other man has given me attention
It ain't the same as your affection
Though I know I should be content
I didn't expect myself to be that way.
I used to think Eliza used to be a bit mad over some stuffs.
I guess I am going to be worse then her.
Its true, no one can do anything even myself.
Mummy, please confiscate my IPOD.
I really need you to do that cause all the bloody songs are making me fucking sad.
I think Jay Chou is the Emo-iest singer I ever known.
It just make me think alot of last year.
I didn't treasure and appreciate last year.
I didn't appreciate those who were around me.
I didn't realise that last year was one of the best years I had.
Always thinking it was a bloody mistake for god knows what.
I don't even care about how others felt then.
I really missed last year damn badly.
I dont mind giving up anything just to turn back time.
I wont mind all those quarrels and all.
Its just that let me go through that year again.
I will learn and know how to appreciate.
Its too late for everything.
Its too late to talk so much.
Nothing is going to change.
Last year, I miss. <3
Sorry.
It used to be 3 days 2 nights.
But nevermind, its so much better because I can be back HOME again.
I tihnk the previous band camp was so much funner cause maybe we slept with our section and then we played so much. I missed every single one of them I swear. Its really those fun times that made me happy. HAHA! =)
First day of PT really drained me out. Seriously shagged like some crazy bitch and then I got burnt but when I checked it today, there wasn't any difference. Tsk! Band practice at night is so cool, it is so different. Colder and darker. Cam whoring with juniors was madness. We do crazy stuffs. We set our sleeping bags on the tables and slept on it. It was so much better then sleeping on the tables. I listened to music till I feel asleep. I've got calls in the midnight, I forgotton to silent my phone. Firstly it was L then it was some person who called and dont talk. It really pissed me off big time. Cause its 4am in the morning, I need that sleep so badly and you come and spoil my sweet dreams. Whoever that person is, please kindly go to hell.
Next day PT was cancelled cause the gate to the track was not opened! Yayness, but then we woke up for nothing. Whatsmore I washed my face and brushed my teeth and I went back to sleep again. Some of us slept and missed breakfast. Lol, Jolene is a sleep indulgent girl. She couldn't wake up. Be it 6am or 10am. Lol! Mini syf was alrights. It was held in the NEW CONCERT HALL. We were the first to perform and when we were on the stage waiting, I almost fell asleep. I remembered yawning before palying cause the speech the teachers gave was very long. My fingers got so numbed till I screwed the running notes. The rest of the concert and workshop was being me the usual self sleeping so comfortably. Lol.
Met Demelza for dinner at Chomps. =)
I can’t turn around and look at the past
There’s no way to change it, no looking back
No more trying to fix what just didn’t last
Hearing his hateful words, but I won’t react
I can’t give him the glory
Of showing him how much he hurt me
It’s my turn to tell the story
He’s just too ignorant to simply see
That he’s not my everything anymore
He’s a bad memory I want to erase
No more crying all alone on the floor
I’ve found someone to take his place
So here’s to the long lonely nights
When my broken heart wouldn’t go away
Now I’m going to make it right
Here’s to all the times I prayed
For an answer to this endless sorrow
When it was hard to make it through
Now I can see a brighter tomorrow
Now I can say I’m over you
Cabbed home with section peeps.
Amanda, SimAi, Yuxuan, Eve, Lena and Shimun came over for stayover + BBQ.
It was quite fun. Just that we don't have much food though.
And the highlight of the night was to borrow stuffs from our neighbours.
There was this group of bengs and lians beside us so we wanted to borrow lighter/matchsticks from them. So some of us went forward to ask for it and then the lian was like so protective of her boyfriend thinking and being so afraid that we would actually steal her boyfriend. Thats pretty lame. -.-
And they actually on-ed radio, 93.3. We almost died.
I dont understand that channel and the song is like OH MY GOSH, Please kill me.
And due to my dear simai's voice which is extremely loud, they heard us and tuned it to 98.7FM. Thanks, you rescued me from dying. Lol.
Sleepover was me, simai, eve and yuxuan friendstering. Its very funny please. Gossips and all. It was quite a great time! Thanks people.
I'm sorry I fell in love with you
For causing pain is the best thing I do
I should have left when love came around
But I found it's rarity too profound
I thought I could love and leave things be
But I can't so here's my plea
I'm sorry I let some feelings get in the way
But I fell in love so what else can I say
I wish I could turn back the hands of time
So I could stop this ongoing crime
Now I'm left wishing for a fresh start
Because it hurts to have a broken heart
Love screws up how and what you think
And causes mood swings as often as you blink
I won't allow myself to sit here and wait
For true love to turn to hate
Tanned with Lauren, Jng & KimKan by the poolside.
Slacked around and waited for time to pass.
BEFORE THE PARTY ACUTALLY STARTED, I've got half drunk.
I was not that drunk for the whole night.
I knew what was happening but didn't know what I was talking about, it didn't make sense at all.
Firstly: I told Serene that I go to her house on the first day of new year to visit her and she wasn't at home and her mum gave me ang pow.
Secondly: I said that some monsters are coming when they are not.
All those are so untrue. I just kept on saying and talking when I have no idea what the hell did I do that for. I cried for no reason then ran around the place. I was the serious major case when people starts dragging me on the floor, locking me in the room, scolding, screaming, shouting, beating, and all. I am sure everyone wanted to whack my fucked up face cause I was being the ultimate bitch. Yeah, to the extend that friends are not talking at all. I dont know why the fuck did I do that for. But for one thing I am sure, I didn't drink to tell everyone my secrets. I am practically bruising everywhere now. I drank quite the most and got sort of the most drama. I knew that everyone wanted to throw me out of the place man. Because they got so ultra mega pissed with me. Yeah, SORRY! I promise I won't get drunk anymore. But you see, the past times I drank I dont get drunk. At most high but not dragging me around like dogs and all. It was seriously very screwed. People are now getting so angry with me till they dont want to talk to me. Thats right. Dancing was alrights. KimKan make me kill myself. See the way she pump, I feel like dieing. Fucking cool please. KIMKAN and JNG are the bomb man. One can pump, one can jerk, Whats wrong man!
My good friend Livia drink until sat in the room to laugh for a good 1/2 hour. It was so funny seeing her sitting there and laugh. And she was singing so loudly by the pool side. Can die please. People turn emo and all. KimKan was the best, cried like never before, EXPECTED. But this time round she didn't get drunk, which is quite surprising. And! Some bloody asshole kept the alcohol. 1 bottle went missing. Tiger beer tasted like shit man, was drinking by the poolside in the night and I almost puked out. Sibei disgusting sia! People left and all. The drama was actually happening in Hougang Point Macs. I walked to and fro for almost 4 times. KimKan's extreme drama sia. I kept calling out names but I dont know who. Luckily some people didnt turn up or else I tell you I will be world wide famous please.
Sorry for last night dudes. It just came out so wrong.
KimKan, Jng, Eunice, Fangs, Manda, SiJia, Angeline, Rachel Yee, Morgan, JiaJian, John, Avery, Thomas, Harish (?) stayed over in my room. Everyone was cramming inside the small room. Lieing around and self entertaining. It was quite boring but funny with all the nonsense and NOT FORGETTING THE GHOST STORIES TOLD BY ALL THOSE GUYS, damn freaky please. We sort of played 'I never'. The next morning we went out to eat Macs at Hougang Green. Was supposed to go as a whole group but ended up only KimKan, Jng, Eunice, Fangs, Manda, Angeline and I went for breakfast cause the guys were lazy to walk. It is so bloody far away plase. I walked till my legs were hurting like fuck. Ate and cabbed back with KimKan, Jng. Those people were still downstairs. Lol, came home and slept.
Surprisingly, I dont have hangovers. =)
Anyone wants to buy bottle drinks from ME? I have like so much left please.
Love is ever confusing
They say if you love something, let it go, if it comes back, it was meant to be
They also say if you really love someone, be happy for them when they are happy, even if they are not with you
But they say hold your loved ones close
But what if you’re scared to wait? Maybe that one wasn’t THE one.
But what if you’re scared to let go? Maybe the one you love is unsure of their love for you.
What if you don’t want to miss out, waiting for the one you let go, but you’re scared to find someone else?
I've got punished for 1 hour thanks to all those cabs.
Its so freaking hard to take a cab from Suntec.
Down to Lauren's house at night and went to the provision shop to buy drinks.
Absolute vodka is only for freaking $45.90
Bloody cheap can and we bought 24 bottles of drinks.
Slacked around Lauren's room and cabbed back to my house to slack again.
Lauren stayed over. LYT woke us up at 2.30am to send her out.
Reached school 45 minutes earlier then expected.
It was very cold in the bus and I almost died.
Band-ed. Ended an hour earlier cause Sir & Ms Ten wasn't there.
Met up with Demelza & KimKan at Bugis.
I was late. (note to kim: its only 15 minutes, not an HOUR!)
Shopped around Bugis street and got a top.
All of us are just going to wear a shirt and shorts for the party.
Cabbed down to Marina Bay MRT station and met with Serene & Jng.
Bused down to Marina Bay for STEAMBOAT! =)
It was damn yum yum.
KimKan was dumb enough to ask the person for MENU.
And when the person gave me the receipt I didn't know what to do with it.
So I went to ask the person and I bet he is so mega pissed with us.
HAHAHA! Sorry la, I suah ku cannot arh!
This is the first time eating Steamboat outside besides Coca.
It was ultra mega fun.
We ate nonstop please.
Food was yummy (mummy, who says not nice?!)
Cam whored and all.
We ate for 4 hours non stop and then off to the opposite field to cam whored again.
I swear I look like a freaking fillapino maid when eating.
It was so unglam/dirty.
I was so high and nosiy that I do crazy stuffs.
Bused back to Marina Station to cam whore again and then back home.
Tonight is better then anything.
I would rather spend hours sitting down to eat and talk shit then shopping.
Lets go again people and ask more people along so we can make more noise!
Steamboat photo links is uploaded under grand exits. =)
It would be nice if we could put away and throw out
everything except what really mattered, but
reality is just cruel.
Met Demelza at Tampines Mall, wanted to catch a show but the slot was not okay for us so was just wandering around and all.
Initially, I had the mood to shop but then I just dont feel like.
Another one of my moodswings I guess.
The heart belongs to another.
And I am going to be the head of the house! =))
Party is coming so soon. Stayover after that is going to be fun right!
I just dont seem to be able to control my mood these days.
Its swinging in full speed and I dont know why.
Rumours been spreading around and all. Lol leh, its serious funny when you hear it cause I laughed very loudly when I heard about it. Please la, no such stuffs.
Emotion in words.
Song without melody
A symphony without instruments
Life on paper.
Death in ink.
Love on parchement.
Timeless and always changing.
Poetry is life on a humble page.
Eyecandy is cute alrights! Simai, shut up, yours is like so not cute. =DD
Love is a game
just meant to be played.
Love is a phrase
just overly clichéd.
It's dominated by cheaters,
players, and rule-breakers.
Where three words often said
are lies spoken by fakers.
Love is an emotion
and hormones are the cause.
Love is perfection
that brings out your flaws.
Young ones are swayed
into believing that it's real.
Soon concious of mistakes,
next fear is what you feel.
Love is a wish
desired by so many loners.
Love is a sight
shown off by its owners.
It's a sad pathetic world
when love is only wanted,
for the sake of having it,
and for it to be flaunted.
Love is a drug,
addictive and strong.
Love is a toy.
and you're strung along.
The endings are painful,
yet again you will start,
to end with more lies and tears,
and another cruelly broken heart.
Love is a reason
to be treated like dirt.
Love is an excuse,
an excuse to get hurt.
Time just pass so fast that you don't realise it.
And before you know, you will be in the exam hall sitting for a useless paper.
Someone is scared of me. (Please just laugh)
Then we were saying later she ask her boyfriend come and whack me.
Then I told them, please just take a look at her boyfriend, he should be whacked by us first. Lol, maid arh maid.
Night was interesting, entertained the two small kids with Hokkine, Teochew & Cantonese. (Demelza & KimKan) =)
I guess I will never ever learn to understand.
Even so, things are not really great left unsaid.
Dragged myself out of bed early this morning.
Cabbed down to school and went off to VS.
Music Exchange was not bad.
Their playing makes me feel like saluting them.
Ice Breakers is not bad but kind of weird!
Mingled around and all. Sectionals with them was like, not bad la.
Lunch was the best, I bet I am the only one in the whole wide world who ate like someone who had not eaten for days man. I ate till very unglam. You cannot find such food in our own school. And OUR ONE AND ONLY SAXOHPONE SECTION got FREE bottle of green tea from VS Saxophone section leader. Thanks dude.
Shopping with mum & sis in Raffles. Sorry to those that I promised to meet up today but my mum is nagging at me that I dont go out with her that often nowsadays and hanging out everyday with others. =)
Take me to your heart take me to your soul
Give me your hand before I'm old
Show me what love is - haven't got a clue
Show me that wonders can be true
I have never waited someone for 1 hour before hor, and that bloody bitch KimKan actually made me wait for her at Chompchomp for that long. Shes such a sucker. She complained hungry and cant even finish a bowl of rice. She ate like a tortoise. Damn KimKan, theres so many things to describe about you! Lol, Thomas came to join us for awhile cause apparently that bitch owe someone something and had to return it. And my cabfare is only $1. Lol.
Hey, you know what paradise is?
It's a lie, a fantasy we create about people and places as we'd like them to be
But you know what truth is?
It's that little baby you're holding, it's that man you fought with this morning
The same one you're going to make love with tonight
That's truth, that's love......
Its been long since I felt that way.
Normally, it would just be probably stress and thats it.
But now, its different.
I am confused/stressed/fucked up. (whatever, you name it, you HAVE it.)
Everything just aint seems to be doing right.
Its been very long since I last heart to heart talk to anyone.
And everyone's having problems and all.
Its depressing enough.
I dont EVEN have the mood to party, I just feel like sleep my life away.
And slitting of wrist, crying out loud and slamming the wall is on my mind now.