Oh my goodness
LYT, Kim & I went for Chemistry lessons only at 10.45am when the class started at 8am & it ends at 11.30am We were in school all along & some more we were sitting downstairs the Chemistry lab. Lol. Ms Ferng was saying: Wah, you think you all changing shift uh?
Headed down to Bugis to catch Shrek 3 ( as usual, i fell asleep. it was so damn tiring) But after all the show is funny!
Rushed down to Ner's place. (HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN BABE!)
Talked around & ate the food.
Everyone wanted to go down to Konvicted after the party & so everyone was coming up with ideas dealing with parents and all.
But Kim came up with the idea of us all going to her house & drink.
So Xue Er, Siew Hwee, Lauren & Jng cabbed back to L's place the mama shop to get drinks.
Kim, Serene, Eunice, LYT & me mrt-ed down to Kim's place.
It was supposed to get everyone high but I WAS THE ONLY WHO STARTED THE EMO-ing.
EMO songs were playing & tears just naturally came along.
It was the first time that I cried like a fucking bitch in front of my friends, I swear no one seen me in that state before.
I scared quite a few of them.
With all the drunk violence of slamming my fist onto the floor.
Drinks & all.
The aim is to probably just finish that whole bottle of absolute or rather get each other drunk.
Therefore the whole night was just drink, drink, drink.
I was the first to get drunk cause I cannot stop drinking.
I think I drank the most cause my cup kept on being refilled.
Siew Hwee & I had serious rashes.
My WHOLE BODY WAS RED.
Hands, legs, face, neck, stomach...
Damn gross siah.
And so the crying came.
I cried like fuck, that kind of never ending?
Lol, Kim & Lauren cannot stop giving me drinks.
And so I drank drank drank.
And I vomited in the toilet.
Thank god Kim's toilet is not dirty cause I sat in the toilet for like almost 35 minutes.
The rest were in room screaming, shouting laughing loudly.
By the time i went back into the room, Kim was already sehh already.
Lol, she keep on laughing and saying that police coming.
Then Xue er kept on disturbing Kim saying her mother (cause there are lots of her mother's photos in the room) is staring at her & kim went to hide all the photos.
Many many many stuffs happened.
They played 'o ya bey ya som' which made most of them dropped dead.
We played 'I never' too and secrets exposed and all.
All those drama ended around 3plus.
Kim, Lauren, LYT, Xue er, Siew Hwee & I are the only ones that drop dead drunk.
I remembered sitting outside Kim's house sleeping on the floor!
Sorry to those whom we called and made hell lots of nonsense.
Cabbed home with Lauren this morning & I swear I am so tired till I slept so well after bathing.
I was feeling so disgusted with the shirt kim lent me cause its so gross with me puking & having alcohol on it. HAHAHA!
to everyone who was there last night:
Thank you so so much for last night. I never regretted that I got drunk cause I have got all of you. Thanks for all your hugs. You guys made my night! =)
Kim & LYT:
Cheer up girls. Things would get better and time will heal everything alrights! I LOVE YOU ALL VERY MUCH! <33
Now my hand hurts like crap. Its like the second time I am hurting the same hand, same finger. Okay, I think the bone will break if I hurt it the next time round.
Upon the thought of it I’m feeling the pain Weekends were SUPPOSED to be spent studying. Friday night was Saturday was then CHOMPS for supper. (Blame on Siewhwee! She tempted me into eating in the afternoon when I was talking to her online!) Sunday -- HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY! <33 I am supposed to be on a diet. Not touching Macs, Chomps, KFC blah blah blah. Times have past but I’m still holding on and on And as I thought, you can't, you're just too far away
Had a great lunch & talk with Eunice & Kimberley at Serangoon Central.
I don't feel like going to school tomorrow but I am lazy to go and get MC.
& I think I am going to meet the girls' for breakfast at Central's macs then down to school.
I want to be LATE for lessons & I don't want to wear school uniform =(
Thinking Ms Lauren Chang will be on the bus later then 7.15 so I didn't board the bus thats just directly in front of me.
But that ass just had to be one the bus some more waving at me ( i didn't see her )
So never mind I was waiting for the next bus.
Wait wait wait..
43 came I stared at it, I forgotten that 43 goes to school so I was just thinking hard and it left =(
So 2nd bus bye bye.
Waited waited still waiting..
HERE COMES MY BUS! =)
I regretted not going up the previous one cause it was squeezy.
Now I know how come EOEO said that my brain/mind works damn slow in the morning!
HAHAHA!
Lessons were boring. So the whole morning was us writing on the full scape paper to each other.
Last night I sent message to all those who are taking Chinese O's today and guess what were some replies: I took it last year due to HMT ( never mind ) , the next is : YOU TOO =) ( WAH LAO, I LOOK SO CLEVER TO YOU MEH? SORRY HOR! I AM NOT TAKING THIS YEAR! )
Waste my messages siah. Lol, I am just kidding. =)
Met Lauren, Eunice, Jng & LYT, headed down to Bugis.
Shopped around & went off to Great Grandma's place.
(The view from the window worth a million dollars siah, not kidding)
When you can see Swissotel, Suntec, Marina South (merry go round (?) ) HAHA! =)
Okay, talked to : EOEO, SOSO, EOEO, KOKO, LOLO, LOLO, LOLO, XOXO online been fun!
Those are all different people.
EOEO wants to applaud to me for something I have not let go. Thank you very much EOEO.
XOXO is funny girl to talk to. =)
LOLO is funny also okay.
Shit, I am talking nonsense.
Please someone come and entertain me or else I will go crazy. =(
I have no motivation / mood to get out of the house.
I feel like sleeping till the next morning but I just couldn't get to sleep.
I am bored.
I am bored.
I have nothing to do thats why I am bored.
I don't want to go out and meet people thats why I am bored.
I am very tired.
I am lazy.
I don't know what to do next.
I don't feel like going to school tomorrow.
But I have no MC ( cause ferng wants mc from us )
I need some entertainment in life. ( which i dont )
I need to do so much things yet I am lazy to get out.
I am lazy to think.
I am even lazy to answer phone calls.
I am lazy to call people cause I need to think what is their number.
I am bored.
I am getting really random.
I don't care if i am random.
I feel like eating.
But I am lazy to cook or go out.
I don't want to call Delivery cause I told you I am lazy to think of the number.
I am always complaining about being bored but do nothing about it.
I am going to get out the house & go shopping tomorrow.
I hope I will be motivated.
I hope I won't be too tired.
I hope the weather won't be too hot.
I hope there's no school tomorrow. ( like real )
I am talking to Livia online now.
We are bored people.
She is getting emo.
So it affectsme.
I should start thinking of what to do.
It was such fucking unglamorous moment.
Its just the 1st day of holiday & I can sense that I am going to blind by the time school reopens.
Took out those who don't update or closed down their blogs.
The weather is killing, its so hot. =(
It feels as if when I step out of the house, I will melt.
Sales, sales, sales...
Too hot for me to go out.
Midnight shopping anyone? =)
So I woke up this morning with very puffy, red, swollen eyes.
What a way to start off my holiday.
Well, today's my self declared holiday.
Last night was hell again.
Breakfast with Daddy at Tiong Bahru (?) porridge. =)
Then trained down to HarbourFront to meet Serene & Eunice.
Went into Sentosa and bump into Karin, Darie, Amanda & sec 1 clarinet junior.
Then bump into some other PL girls on the beach.
Tanning session with them was really not bad!
Heart to heart talks in the sea was hahaha!
Back to Gardens' Kleancut. ( i realized i cut my hair real often!)
I took 1 & 1/2 hours just to finish washing, blowing, cutting and all.
Chomps with the both of them.
Stingray, lala....
Its simply love <3
Now I am so burnt and hot like a LOBSTER!
I can feel the heat siah.
Last night was a mistake.
Thanks to those who was there, I am fine. =)
School has been so boring please.
More talks with Kim, Ner, Jng, Calista, Seetoh & Shazana.
Topics from: Lesbianism, Gossips, ex-boyfriends, boyfriends, courtship, relationship...
If school was like this everyday, I would really hate going to school, so slack and boring.
Anyway, the vp does not approve to give us a off day tomorrow but you know what my character.
HAHAHA! Who do you think will turn up for lessons? Tsk!
Anyway, I am so ultimate pissed that someone in the class actually when to tell Ms Chew that Lauren asked her to lie about the number of people that wants to turn up for Prom. Wtf, whatever lah. You don't want to go this year's and want to attend your guy's prom then say so lah. No need to drag the whole class down, I mean like we want to go for our own prom siah. ( but nvm, we can go PROM next year, its okay ****) ((((((((((=
Time do pass fast cause its like end of the term already.
5 months going on to 6 months is going to pass soon.
I don't see myself enjoying this year. =(
Faster let me grow 16 so I can party without worrying. =)
School was simply slacking and wasting my time away.
Sat around and talked about everything and they were talking about ......
So sitting there listening was not bad, cause it just fill up my whole morning.
Maybe if we lucky, our both classes are able to go for PROM this year, and Ms Chew is fighting for us not to attend school on Friday cause its just for miserably 2 hours. =)
Class outing is going to be next Thursday & we are going for STEAMBOAT!
Left my school bag in the locker & I think my mum's going to scold me.
Cabbed down to Kim's place for lunch.
Pork porridge with century egg, egg & you tiao(?) is NICE! & ice Milo. <3
Walked down to Cine & caught Blades of Glory (I thought it was a very scary movie -.-)
I almost fell asleep during the show when Kim had to comment so loudly when the couple was kissing.
But its really a nice show! Its damn funnnnnnyyyyyy.
I can't wait for the weekends to be here. ( I feel like sleeping already.)
Kim & I conclude that W is still cute. =)
XOXO
I could stay awake just to hear you breathing,
Watch you smile while you are sleeping,
While you're far away and dreaming,
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender,
I could stay lost in this moment forever,
Well, every moment spent with you,
Is a moment I treasure
I don't wanna close my eyes,
I don't wanna fall asleep,
'Cause I'd miss you, baby,
And I don't wanna miss a thing,
'Cause even when I dream of you,
The sweetest dream would never do,
I'd still miss you, baby,
And I don't wanna miss a thing
Lying close to you,
Feeling your heart beating,
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming,
Wondering if it's me you're seeing,
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together,
And I just wanna stay with you,
In this moment forever, forever and ever,
I don't wanna miss one smile,
I don't wanna miss one kiss,
Well, I just wanna be with you,
Right here with you, just like this,
I just wanna hold you close,
Feel your heart so close to mine,
And just stay here in this moment,
For all the rest of time
I'm struggling hard.
Well, everyone is struggling hard not only me.
It hit me very badly.
It hurts so much that I never know that you're actually that important in my life.
That I lose my interest in everything.
But then again, I don't blame you for that.
Its just me being stupid holding on.
And probably I deserve it.
I guess everybody saw it coming, was too blind, far too blind.
I'm just fooling myself.
Pretending and all.
Thinking everything will stay.
It will still be the same.
But now, everything's too late.
But let's just take it as a lesson learnt.
It took me long enough to wake up.
Eventually, it's gonna fade with time, i know i am going to be fine after that.
I promised everyone time and time again.
Each time the promises gets broken by myself.
Its just too hard.
Yet again, I'm back to square one.
The promises does not seem realistic anymore.
It seems so fake.
I do wonder how come some people just live on life like nothing happened.
Do you mean what you said?
Do you really mean all those words?
Eh, I've been in this thing for far too long and its time to get out.
Before its really going to affect my n's.
Cause I just do not have the mood to study at all.
Not even in the mood for anything.
Really, I promised all those close ones, those around me that I will let this go.
Let myself start to concentrate and study.
Everyone did not believe me.
No one did.
I'm sorry for time and time again I broke the promises I make to you all.
You should know who you are.
Thanks for those talks. (it really was great!)
Thanks for those time being there for me no matter how busy you guys are.
This time I will really try and give me best.
Because I know there is no time to waste.
And not forgetting giving in to me endlessly.
Like you even bother / understand
Friday's paper 2 for accounts was ALRIGHT kind, so when Jasmine says that its alrights, it means she is going to fail until damn jialat. And oral was not bad cause the topic was not really difficult. Its about zoo and the conversation was when was the last time you went to zoo! I was so happy ( i don't know why) Cause just last month I went to zoo. Lol.
Pizza Hut at Heartland with Amanda, Eliza, Demelza, Serene, Angeline, Janice Chan, Lauren, LYT & Eunice. =) & KIMBERLEY! (happy not!)
Friday night was spent with Eliza, Eunice & Manda. Caught Spiderman 3 at Cine. I know I am slow lah but then I don't really like watching this kind of show but I had nothing to do. Lol, so the show was quite scary. I was shouting/screaming throughout the show. Really that scary and Manda & Eunice cannot stop laughing at me. I was so damn scared that I was close my eyes & ears for like almost 3/4 of the show. And not forgetting I kept on telling Amanda stuffs that almost made me laughing out loud. The show ended around 11 plus so we were wandering on the streets. Sat outside old john little building and cabbed home later on. I was so dead tired the moment I reached home & I almost fall asleep on the phone.
Saturday was spent with the girls. Janice Ng, Lauren, Nerissa, Kimberley. We went for some stupid workshop that we left halfway through. Walked to outside Kim's place and had lunch. Nice =)
Trained down to Raffles place (according to kim's mum that it would be nearer). We walked for so so so long till we reached home club. We should have bloody hell gone from Central and not walked everywhere like dumb shit. Went into Home Club. Waited for Desmond to come and we went in. We were super early I swear. It was damn funny. Walked down to Central to accompany Desmond for his late lunch and we went back. It was hell boring in the beginning. We almost fell asleep on the sofa. And when the dancing started, it was SUPER FUN. We were dancing/jumping like mad woman. It was really fun to be with the girls and I swear there are lots of funny people around. Not forgetting this guy who keeps on coming in between us. And this ah beng was dancing techno himself. Lol, and drank a few sips of vodka. Left the place around 9pm and down to central to find LYT & Livia. Was supposed to meet Samantha but sorry eh. I put people on aeroplane again. Well, at least she had something on too. =) Another time eh. Trained down to town & walked to see J's guy. I swear we were like damn noisy in a quiet building. Then down to PS BK to sit & talk cock.
(/edit) Now my leg hurts like fuck cause I was jumping like a crazy bitch with my heels on. Imaging dancing for 1 whole night with heels, it hurts like fuck. Who the hell said that last night's was a gig. Tsk!
I had a lot of fun with everyone. <33>
When the results come back, I can really go and bang the wall. Lol.
Thank you to everyone who had been there for me all these while. Not forgetting the few girls. (you know who you are.) Really xie xie ni men! =)
I swear I can't wait for tomorrow's paper to be OVER.
1 more Accounts Paper 2 and I am FREE.
My gosh, I didn't know what is capital account.
Please kill me, I am going to fail accounts like nobody damn business.
Tomorrow's ORAL PRELIM too.
Bye Exams, Hello Shopping!
I am left with only Maths Paper 2 & Accounts Paper! =))
Alrights, Kim & I are going to get karma back X10000000000
I swear we are damn mean people who laugh at things that we are not SUPPOSED to.
Or maybe, we should not.
It feels like our papers have ended.
I cannot wait for shopping !
Last night was one night of lectures.
Everyone been saying that I haven been serious.
I didn’t bother about work and all.
I have been trying to avoid the topic and all.
But escaping is not a solution.
Cause I escape time and time again.
Pretending things are alright.
Pretending I am okay.
I will try to get serious for my N’s.
Not forgetting be serious in life and settle down.
Not that kind of life anymore please miss.
Don't worry too much eh, to those who mentioned about it.
HAHAHA!
I am going to stay up for BIOLOGY . =)
K & I used to be blind and now still it. Please explain to me why.
What's with all the I WILL WAKE UP & STUDY LATER kind of promises?
EMPTY ones.
I am SUPPOSED to wake up at 3.50am to study this morning but ended up SLEEPING after a call. (not surprised eh)
So J called me when I was in the subconscious mood:
4am
J: Eh miss, wake up and study for your papers tomorrow already.
Me: Huh? What? Don't want. I want to sleep. Very tired siah. Later lah later. Where are you?
(At that time, I thought it was L.)
J: What don't want? Just finished drinking? Blah blah blah.. Nag nag nag...
Me: Okay okay. I wake up okay, you don't nag. Eh you tomorrow no school uh? How come can go out and drink?
J: Huh? Who go and study? You haven't wake up is it?
Lol, I was really in a kind of tired & don't disturb mood.
Therefore, I didn't know what was J talking about.
He put down the phone & I continued sleeping. =)
night studying with Eunice, Eliza, Amanda & LYT.
Suntec then down to restaurant to meet the whole family.
Bought every single MOTHER a stalk.
Not even eating breakfast/ recess/ dinner & supper. =(
The memories refuse to move along
But can you hear me now?
Maybe someday, you're going to come my way and then
We could patch things up as friends
But my love, things will never be the same again
I didn't have time to complete my Social Studies Paper.
1 hour and 30 minutes to finish 4 SBQ & 3 Essay based.
That's killer =(
Chinese was okay kind.
But I doubt I can even pass it.
Cause I totally have no single idea about the Comprehension (MCQ)
Chinese oral was talking nonsense.
I just blabber out whatever I think of.
Nose was a killer.
It just so irritating and annoying that I feel like leaving my nose in my drawer.
HAHAHAHA!
Late night studying is definitely back & I am so going to fail everything.
Maybe I will let you know, but then again, maybe I won't.
But then.. NEXT FRIDAY IS FREEDOM &&&&&& meeting up with Lewis.
And not forgetting passing the thing to vian.
MANY MANY CATCH UP to do! =)
Do you feel that you know more about your enemy rather than your best/close friends.
Chinese Oral is on Friday (its very bad, cause I cannot even pronounce/read the Chinese words properly + no voice = FAIL!)
Medicine is so so disgusting. =(
Shopping this morning /afternoon again. My gosh, last night I dreamt of someone's funeral. I had Lewis accompanied me for it when he don't even know that person. Its really weird and messy. Evening was spent with Cheena Chinese. I realized that my mum's standard of Chinese is only at Primary school level cause she herself does not know how to do my N's Chinese. For Cloze passage, We ( cause we did it tgt ) got 7/20 with the help of dictionary. We interpret the meaning wrongly and all. I do until she told me to just forget about Chinese, too difficult. Just try to pass can already. Lol =)
After 1 year that Emmanuel 6 has passed, I've got Darie to sent the recordings to me.
So now I have:
-SYF 2005 : They stood at the edge of the sky
-Sea Breeze (Peiling's solo is the BOMB!)
-Joseph and the Technicolor code
-American Riversong
-Selection from the King and I
-Rum Bah
I can send to you if you want it. =)
JASMINE KOH arh, you better wake up or else you are going to die REAL BAD. Mid years is just next week and I am not even preparing for it. I bet I am the only one that can't be bothered cause every single person in class are like mugging real hard and I am playing/shopping real hard! I have to really stop myself from all these distractions and start having TUTION. That kind of like the person who teaches me will scold me kind. No fun no joke.
Met up with Samantha at 1030 this morning. We were supposed to meet at 0930 and as usual I overslept so yeah. Studied Maths at PS' Macs. Then both of us headed down to Raffles City , Peninsular, Marina Square. Then I went down to Bugis and PS with Serene, Jng, YO! Walked around PS down to Cathay and then Serene and I left for KOPI ROTI <3333 style="font-family:Verdana;font-size:85%;">
Don't look no farther
Cause Ill be your lover
Ill be your best friend
Tell me what I gotta do
Now im back in a flesh
Feeling so blessed, back in your corner sugar, sugar don't stress
Forget about the rest; let's go inside, im back in your zone
Baby im back in your vibe, now I cant be denied I can lie im on ya
I never ever wanna say sayonara
Some body told me that the grass was greener
On the other side andale arriba
Never really used to be a mean to cheat her
What I gotta do to be your keeper
These words coming out the speaker, true love is off the meter.
6 days to mid years.
14 days to FREEDOM (well, i hope so.)
I finally got my new pinafore. It needs alteration badly but I have no time for that.
Tuesday was spent in PS, Marina Square & Suntec.
Kenny rogers is really yum yum. (AMANDA TAN ! You owe me a dinner out at KENNY ROGERS!)
Wednesday afternoon was spent in the ZOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
Its really long since I've been there. =)))
Yesterday was Kim over at my place for a while. After school, cabbed home. ( I swear cabbing makes me real broke. ) Changed and cabbed down to Bishan. I SAW MY DEAREST CRAZIEST NOSIEST GOSSIPY JUNIOR! =) I swear I was damn lucky or something cause I never bump into her outside school before. Hanged around. Its been long since I talked to D, so we had a short conversation which lasted for 30:11minutes. =)
Gave school a miss today and had breakfast at club. I studied GEOGRAPHY okay!
I can't wait for tonight and tomorrow! =)))
Stayover/Shopping! <333>
I am acting like there is no mid years. Oh my gosh, I think the whole world is so worried for their papers and all and I still can enjoy life to the fullest. Its been long since I had supper with the crazy people.
Bye world, I need to drown myself with Geography again.
Popluation, tourism, plate tectonics blah blah blah.