Wednesday, October 25
Sinking into deep uncertainty
Gave school a miss on Monday. Many things happened in school and I missed a lot but I think it is better for me not to be in school or I will go crazy. I was quite upset on Monday night and I was complaining to everyone and I wanted to screw the school up. It was to the extend of fucking the educational system. Seriously, its quite fucked up. I thought everything had been settled, no changes till sec 5. And the system happily separate those who wants to take n’s or skip. I am going to take my damn n’s and going to be so freaking alone cause Serene, Eliza and Demelza are going to skip it. The reason of me going to school would not be friends anymore. No more such nonsense, I would really miss every single of them. Including Amanda, Eunice, Fangs and Seetoh. All those gatherings, lunch-ing, pooling… No more such stuffs in future. Truthfully, everything would change, everyone would drift.
Tsk! Eunice, you wouldn’t end up in ITE bishan la. More like I end up there please. Look at my results. 9 points for N’s. Haha! What a joke man. I think I would get 18 points instead.
I wasn’t feeling very good that night and ready to quarrel with anyone. And I think I offended many that night. Sorry. Thanks HANNAH! You’ve been great la. (: I just read the cheers note. Replayed melody over and over again? More like history repeating itself nonstop. Lol. Esplanade at night was great. Those long walks and the band who played was nice. Ate so much at those stalls beside DXO. LEDS: We must go there someday to ton(?). But I can gurantee we cannot make it. We sure complain so hot, so tired!
Overslept. Was supposed to go jogging in the morning and maybe meet up with those going for badminton. Rushed down to downtown east. Cabbed there. Played and all. Was quite fun. I hate people swimming below me in the lazy river. I kicked a few ass’ head. I felt damn irritated when people try swimming below you. I think LEDS should go together some day and we can call one other big group of people. It would be damn fun. But I tell you I would be so embarrassed to go with LEDS and others cause you can see how fat I am. Like my stomach, thighs and all. Sibei fat can. So embarrassing.
I’ve been cabbing far too much and I am facing serious financial difficulties now.
V: thanks for everything for being there and all. Especially attempting to skip studying and buy dinner for me. But too bad, I wont let you in and accept it even if you come cause your o’s is so freaking near and you still playing a fool. Haha.
Anybody for doing my holiday homework together? Study group again?
You know that I am not the one.
I’ve been thinking a lot.