Go and listen to 'Forever in love' by Kenny G from radioblog. Its going to be my wedding song. Lol, my ass arh. My wedding is going to be held in Kohteoliuang coffeeshop! Haha. But then have people want to marry me then say. Lol. Was telling Demelza and she was saying like she wants to do surgery to make herself look like Jessica Alba. And i said like look at my fucked up attitude and lousy character. Lol.

I feel kind of suffocated right now. That kind of gasping for air sort? I don’t know, I just cant seem to breath properly. I feel so sinful eating the whole roll of Droste Chocolate. :(

Rented Rob-B-Hood (?) and Dirty Dancing 2 with Eliza. She going to pass it to me later ((: Anyway, I am going to start writing my last words to everyone because I think I wont survive for the Perth Trip. I have SOOOOOOOO MAAAAANNNNNNNNYYYYYYYY people to write to. Its going to be like an essay. HAHA! So if I die there, please contact Eliza for your last words from me. (:

The world is coming to an end, don’t you agree.

I need to talk with you again,
why did you go away,
All our time together, just feels like yesterday,
I never thought I'd see,
A single day without you,
You see the things we take for grantedwe can sometimes lose.
And if I promise not to feel the pain,
Will I see you again,
Will I see you again.
Time will pass me by, may be I'll never learn to smile,
But i know I will make it through,
If you wait for me.
And all the tears I cry,
No matter how I try.
They will never bring you home to me,
So won't you wait for me in heaven.
Do you remember how it was,
when we never seemed to care.
Days went by so quickly,
Cos I thought you'd always be there.
It's hard to let you go,
though I know that I must try.
I feel like I've been cheated,
Cos we never said goodbye.
And if I promise not to feel this pain,
Will I see you again.
And I miss you so,
And I need to know,
Will you wait for me.

1:10 AM

The Bottom Line
It's wise to not expect much of people today. There is too much plotting going on.
In Detail
Your sense of love for humankind is endearing, but you must acknowledge the fact that not everyone is motivated by the common good -- and it's wise to not expect too much of people today. There is too much laziness, jealousy and scheming going on for you to feel comfortable trusting anyone, especially anyone new. Try to stick with the people you know and love the most, and stay close to home if you can. It's not an ideal time for adventuring.

I agree with those stated above. I really need a good day tomorrow or I will get blown off man. Seriously. With the addition of band pracs/sectionals/drills/physical training. Bloody hell. And I can foresee my day turning out real bad.

I screw my life up then so be it. Not happy then get the fuck off la. I am the one who screw all this up. So I shouldnt expect much. I am shag from all the guessing and all. Just let it be. =)

tell me not to expect when i was screwing my own thing up seems like a difficult task but i will get over it soon. i promise. too soon for anyone to notice.

12:01 AM

Sunday, November 19

Anybody wants RABBITS? Contact me can? Thanks! =)

10:18 PM

HOHOHOHO!!!

Hey Santa!
I am not going to Thailand anymore. Demelza, you can stop thinking of plans to kill me. Instead my mum is going which means... NO ONE IS GOING TO BE AT HOME except the irritating ass by the name of Jessica. Nevermind, i have the whole house to MYSELF! I am going to kick her to my aunt’s house. BYE BYE! (: Sayonara!

Serene is coming over to party party party. HAHA! :DDD

This is a very funny conversation between us(ok, maybe not funny but i am bored):

Serene: Can we stay over not arh? And go crazy?
Me: Sure, Hmm.. do you realize your friends all cannot stay over kind?
Serene: Example?
Me: Eliza, Demelza and Livia
Serene: Do you want me to send you off when you going to Perth?
Me: Haha, no? For what? Midnight flight.
Serene: 1am , then maybe can slack there till morning then come bk
(See, she wants to send me off for her own advantage! HAHA!)
Me: Then you slack alone arh. Do you realize your friends all cannot stay outside one?
Serene: aiyah , YOU KEEP YOUR FRIENDS YOUR FRIENDS . NOT YOUR FRIENDS AH ?!
Me: Alrights, MY FRIENDS!
Serene: NO NO NO WRONG! OUR FRIENDS (:
(You see! Even this we argue. Lol.)

So I went to ask her to help me buy vodka and guess what she say?
Serene: Drink for what?
Me: Drink lor.
Serene: Drinking is bad for your health.
Me: Haha. Talking about yourself?
Serene: No, I am your mother so different status.
Me: Ass you la.

See now, I have to find other people to help me buy. TSK!

No one is going to care if I am still alive not.
No one is going to bother if I comes home.
No one is going to know if I stay out late.
Tell me I'm LUCKY! ((:

5:45 PM

Dreams/Nightmares
Tell me if I have got a good sleep for the past few nights. That day I dreamt that I drove Fangs, Eunice and Kimberley to this club in Suntec and we went drinking. Fangs and I smoked. WTF. Yeah, and surprising I knew how to use the lighter but fangs doesnt know and she ended up burning the whole bar. And then I drank Tequila. Yeah and its not only for once but I think I ended drinking 10 over and then I saw these two somebodys and I was so upset till I got involved in a car accident. This dream is damn bullshit.

I dreamt that my dad's cousin whom I have never seen before passed away and we were on our way to her wake and then I saw her as in walking on the road then I got so freaked out till I go crazy. HAHA!

Why can't I have better dreams?!

Oh and then Eliza told me last night that if your left eyes twitched, means that it aint a positive things. And seeing that Demelza, Eliza and my left eye's twitched. Walao. Cool conclusion:
Eliza going to malaysia by coach so she will meet with a Car Accident.
Demelza going Batam by boat so boat capsize.
I am going by plane so plane crash.

Look at all those, I will be the only to die cause Car Accident doesnt means that she will get injured. Demelza's boat capsize at least she gets to swim towards the shore.

&#^$(*$*@&@(*

Christmas is coming and I have so many presents to buy. Tell me which shop should I rob? I really have no money to buy presents.

Lets write a letter to Santa! :D


the broken promises =)

12:50 PM

Saturday, November 18

Living sucks, how come we must live? How come we cant die. I want to bring every single of my loved ones who doesn’t feel like living along with me. We can all die together and leave this world. Bloody world.

Steamboat this afternoon. I was the first to eat and the last to end. How cool hor. Eat so much. Like pig like that. Anyway, Vivo-ed and the weather was bloody hot. I swear I was whinning like a mad woman. Never go out at times like 4pm. Go out around 5.30 or so. I HAVE A BLOODY MOSQUITOE BITE ON MY DAMN FACE. DAMN BIG SIA! No need to go out already.

Supper with Eliza once again. PRATA! We were the last one to leave again. Fattening leh. Every night supper. We sat downstairs her block to talk and it was damn shit.
HOHO! Teo teared while prata-ing. She like too much water intake everyday. Cry every single time. :(

Alrights, I am feeling damn fucking guilty and bad now. I’m sorry. I should feel guilty for being so mean and heartless. That’s explain why I should leave this world and make life easier for others.
My life is so screwed. Or maybe i screw it up myself.


It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care
I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you
I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
Once upon a song
Now I know your not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you
I can't believe thatI could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind
Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you.

i know its random but anyway, Sorry!

11:27 PM

Jasmine is just a fucked up bitch who should just go and kill herself and just die.

12:06 AM

Friday, November 17

Everyone are busy with their work, CCAs and blah blah. And I think I am the free-iest woman on earth. I still can go online and disturb people. All I do is eat, sleep, eat, on the phone, eat, online, shop, eat. See how much I eat. Can somebody organize something for me or you can actually plan my timetable. I am seriously bored till can die. Whats worse, Eliza Teo will be away from next Wednesday to Friday. No one to talk to on the phone, no one to supper at night. I know 3 days are short but I can die leh. I will miss you Eliza Teo! (:

Band yesterday. Pieces are starting to get to me in the sense that I know how it should sound like. Sorting and packing of scores is like so eeyer! The scores are damn dirty and all. I think the last time someone touched it, was like 2 years ago? Anyway, Ikea yesterday for what? MAKAN la. Had salmon and less than an hour I ate hotdog bread. So fattening right?! I know. Hmm.. Conferenced with DELS and it ended up being confession night. I have no idea how but anyway, I wasn’t really confessing. More to watching tv. TSK! They just asked me questions and I answered Yes or No. I’ve heard all the confessions like so long before but anyway, 1 of it was very very surprising. But anyway, it was not bad la.

Supper with Eliza opposite. PRATA. Wah lao, middle of the night I ate prata. And whats worse I ordered 2 egg prata. ( fyi: I have never eaten 2 before) But I didn’t finish it in the end. Haha! Then we went to kfc to sit for some reasons! HAHA! Eliza’s hot neighbour was eating there with his friends so we went in to sit. Last time, I didn’t think he was hot then when I saw him I was like WAH LAO, damn hot can. HAHA! That was random. Bloody funny. Then Eliza didn’t dare to go home cause it was quite late so I think she was waiting for her hot neighbour to send her home. Lol. Just joking. Eliza, remember to ask for his name hor. Lol.

10:45 PM

Wednesday, November 15

I just found out that chalet would be on 23rd instead of 24th so I can go to St Hilda's Concert! Anyone wants to go? 5 bucks only. I am going aloneeee. SimAi is going with her friends. But must tell me soon cause I need to get the tickets. !^!#(*^%#&^)#^

Anyway, I've been a GOOD girl today. I finally clear my messy cupboard which looks like the rubbish dump. And my drawer and everything la. I threw away lots of stuffs. All those stuffs from like last time like letters, things and all. I threw it away. Keep it waste my space only. Now my room is very clean. :DD

I am thinking if I should go to Thailand after coming back from Perth. If so, it would be a week and I am going alone. Demelza cannot go along with me. And we were just thinking if the two of us go together we will shop till we drop and she was saying if someone goes with us and i tell you if that someone go with us, I will never get to live to tomorrow. I will never get to see the sun rise. HAHA!

There is BAND tomorrow. :(

11:37 PM

Tuesday, November 14

Band today was kind of fun. Talked to Rachel and Amanda. I didn’t know my junior was boy crazy till her friend exposed her. HAHA! She doesn’t look that sort anyway, it was fun talking to Rachel. Now don’t have Hannah have her sister enough already. Lol. She was telling about silent conversations and stuffs then I laughed very loudly like nobody’s business. Its not supposed to be funny but heck la. I was very very sleepy. I kept on yawing. I know its rude to yawn so many times but I cannot control what. I NEED SLEEP! Ms Ten conducted us again. I prefer Sir! I was feeling very very sick this morning. Whenever I need to play, I feel like vomiting. :(

Homed and was on the phone with Demelza. We were talking about everything. And I feel quite grossed out playing my instrument now due to certain reasons. HAHAHA! Met her in Vivo and I was late for 20 minutes! Sorry babe! But I treated her drink. See I am nice. Walked around and settled down in the foodcourt and we were saying how unglam we look when we eat among ourselves. If we eat with other people, how we have to eat properly, how we sit, eat, talk and all. It was damn funny. And about the ketchup incident. Like how rough and unsightly we look when we open the bottle of ketchup and pour it out. Simply hilarious and when you go out with your other friends, you don’t eat. I only eat when I am with Demelza, Eliza, Serene and Livia. Eating with others must keep our image. HAHA! We are very conscious people. My ass la. Lol. Then we are very very poor people who wants to shop but have no money so we window shopped. We went to Sasa shop ( I know its ah lian la.) and we went to take all the perfume to sample and anyhow spray here and there. Oh, we went to the rooftop/open space. Simply great! It was damn sweet and all. Demelza and I were like there spoiling the ambience. We are like lightbulbs making hell of noise. But that place is great. Demelza, remember to bring your lover there hor! Haha. We settled down and EAT again. We talked a lot. ((: Trained back was very fun and entertaining. We were talking about Demelza’s future boyfriend. Wah lao, she very superficial leh, but still I LOVE HER cause she is my wife. :D And I think we both were very mean cause we laugh at some people. I deserve slaps. HAHA! I cannot stop laughing even when she got down the train. It was simply funny. She make me laugh till I teared. <3>

Band concerts! ((: St Hilda's concert is coming on the 24th but I dont think I can make it leh. I have chalet on that day. Tsk. Sorry to whoever you are. The ticket is freaking cheap $5 only. Anyway, i think i will for ACJC's. Its only $10. Anyone wants to go? Please tell me.


I’ve been thinking lately, I find myself sinking deeper.
chop nu mai ka :DD

My next fragrance:
Lancome's fragrance. Miracle, its the best in the whole shop. Its going to be my next target. Haha! $108 :(

11:34 PM

Monday, November 13

WHAT A TIRRRIINNNNNNNGGGGG DAY. Oh my gosh, today is seriously, tiring, sick, cold, hungry blah blah blah. Just when I was walking to the interchange from 72 bus stop, it started to rain so I act cool and walk in the rain and it got heavier when I was waiting at the traffic light and luckily this kind soul sheltered me opposite. THANKS! (: 74 is a very very very long bus ride to SIMS university. I almost slept and luckily I had my ipod as my accompaniment. Sometimes I wonder how come I am so lazy to bring umbrella out. TSK, even guys bring it out. JASMINE IS SO LAZY. Anyway, the place was soooo coolllddd till I cant even message properly. I sent 4 wrong messages, called 2 wrong person. I feel like I was in KOREA. Work was so slack that can sleep. And I was people watching. Damn funny. The guy who was Ks' friend by the name of JONATHAN (i thought Sg Idol one. Tsk.) He is super slack, he goes for smoking breaks, toilet breaks and when he comes back he sleeps. He is super mega unfriendly and he speaks in CHINESE! And very dao and vulgar.
Him: Na, ni de shui.
me: huh? oh ok, thanks.
Him: ni bu hui jiang hua yu arh?
me: orh, xie xie.

He is weird and he curse like nothing. Every sentence ends with fuck you, cb. He says this more than 10 times in an hour. He smokes and it is so smelly when he comes in and I was trying not to breathe, very suffocating leh. Anyway, I left the place and I was so blur to board a non air con 74. But it wasnt that bad except that it blew my hair till I look like a mad woman and i almost vomitted on the bus. It was bumpy and the guy sitting beside me slept all the way back to Hougang and he is very very very weird. He dropped his IPOD yet he continues to sleep. TSK! Heavy sleeper. Sleeping in bus is also quite a unglam thing to do. HAHA! Met mum and sis and headed down to Bugis to shop. Jessica is such a choosy, fussy pok. She doesnt wear sleeveless top and her taste is so horrible. My mum was so pissed that she didnt want to buy any stuff for her. Ask her wear dress complain complain complain until she cry. Who the hell cry when she is asked to wear a dress? Wah lao, this kind can like take to go and hang. Settled down in V8 Cafe. I swear I didnt eat anything. I drank ice cream float only. I was damn full.

I am proud to announce that I survive on 1 plate of chicken rice for the whole day. I am not on diet but wasnt even feeling hungry.

The past days, weeks been such a emo shit and stressed that I lost weight. I am officially below the damn 40. Whats worse, 38.6kg. My sis is 39! My mum was so angry that she scolded me for not having proper meals. HELLO EH, i have proper meals hor, how can i control my weight? Just when I thought I would be saved since I hit 40 during June, there is no weight I would ever lose weight, BOOM! Its severly underweight but I dont see my thighs getting smaller (ok, that is nonsense).

Webcaming with daddy was funnnnyyyy!

Was reading some people's post and all. All were quite sad. What happen to everyone? Ok, maybe I was once like that. Anyway, I think the emo bug is coming to me soon.

There's band tomorrow. ARGH!

I want to catch Step up and Material girls soon.

I need long bus rides. Its cool and fun! ( i know i sound like some dumb person who never take bus before.) Anyone? Hahahaha!

NIGHTS BABY <3

11:22 PM

Eliza
Its been a rough night for you babe. Things that you had hoped weren't what you had in return. You are helpless, you don't know what is right for you, you don't know what to do, you don't have any idea what should you do next, you don't know how you should feel now, you don't know if you had done the right thing right from the start. Everything is really cramming your brains like crap. Everything is stuffing you up till you can't breathe. Anything, but for sure, I would be here for you. Anytime. I felt damn hopeless and useless on the phone. You were there for me when I wasn't in a great mood, you were there to encourage me all these while. You were the one who gave me advices and knocked some sense into me. You know what babe? I felt very lucky and fortunate to have you as such a great bestie. :D Honestly, I'd want to help you and give you all that you had given me but things ain't that easy. I do not know what's right or best for you. I do not want you to be pulled down by all these shit there is causing so much unhappiness in your life making you so miserable everytime. Sorry, I can't be the one to end it for you. Anyway, I hope things will get better next year. (: Cheer up! Sometimes in life, you got to make decisions.
ILU! <333

1:35 AM

Sunday, November 12

Bestfriend visited me today which explains my mood. :(

I am so bored and hungry that I scroll down my phonebook to see who can I have dinner with and sadly none. Everyone prefer to stay at home and stare at their computer then eat with me. I decided not to eat and stay at home to do the same. How come there must be O's? Otherwise I would have accompaniment. ARGH! #(*&%#)*%

I am hungry.
I am very hungry.
I am very very hungry.
I am very very very hungry.

Oh, I want to go Ice Skating soon. Its been long since I ice skate.
'Let me teach you how to skate'. HAHAHAHA!
I am hungry.

Someone just told me that swallowing panadol with coke is another way of killing yourself. So wrong la, it just makes you sick and most probably only land yourself in the damn hospital. It doesnt kill silly. Even if it kills, why that method, slow and suffering leh. Want to kill huh. Cut. Lol. I am hungry.

I am sick of maggie mee. -__-''' How come chomp chomp doesnt have home delivery? I should write in and suggest hor. Then imagine you are so hungry then the next moment you have your stingray, satay, soyamilk, oyster egg on your dining table. MY GOSH! I am hungry. I am hungry till i call vian and say:

J: want to have dinner with me? I am hungry.
V: huh?
J; Nah, i am just kidding. BYE BYE!

I am hungry. Demelza and I were talking about the first impression some people give us. And guess what she say about me: sibei dao. Wah lao, you are not the first one. I am not dao alrights. I smile at people. (((: Demelza got more of the dao look please.


In case you think that I am a pig who eats and only think about food for the whole day, I DIDNT EAT ANYTHING TODAY.

stingray, satay, oyster egg, chicken wings// i'mhungry.

8:02 PM

Saturday, November 11

That's When I Love You <3

When you have to look away
When you dont have much to say
Thats when I love youI love you, just that way
To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
Thats when I love you
I love you, endlessly
And when your mad cause you lost a game
Forget Im waiting in the rain
Baby i love you,I love you anyway
Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn,
The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made you cry
Thats when I love you
I love you a little more each time
And when you cant quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
Thats when I love you
I love you, more than youll know
And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you get when you show up late
Baby I love you, I love you anyway
Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn,
The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
Thats when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn,
The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,
When I love you no matter what
No matter what

11:17 PM

I have no idea how I walk when I woke up this morning but I tripped over this very big chair and hurt my last toe. It was damn painful, I think the word fuck came out of my mouth. Lol. Even till now, it is still hurting.

Went to Vivo at 5 alone! Cause Eliza was sleeping. Walked around with Jes and headed down to town to meet Dawn. Talked and all and homed. Life's boring without money. HAHA!

11:02 PM

I've got so much to do:

• Meet up with Dawn
• Holiday homework
• After O's shopping with Hannah & Eunice
• Chalet (I still haven call to check!)
• Confirm chalet with the two
• Steamboat with Kohteoliuang (:
• Tanning with SimAi
• Kkp's gathering (? sure dont have one.)
• Meet up with Melinda
• Buy next year's book
• Find tution for maths and science
• Clear my cupboard
• Volleyball in Sentosa (haha!)
• Watch Sunrise with Ang and Teo!
• Long bus rides with Eliza
• Band concerts :DD

Everthing needs $$$$$.

I need a job very very badly. I am really cashless. Like what can I do? Nothing at all.

2:06 PM

I really fail as a nanny man. Mum is very sick so I tried to help to look after Chloe. I helped to make milk for chloe and then the milk powder dropped on the kitchen top which mess up the place. Then mum asked me to help Chloe change diapers. Wah lao, I don’t dare to throw away the diapers can. So dirty. Then Chloe started to cry and I tried many many ways to make her happy then I got so worked up that I shouted shut up at her. I know I am lousy. I seriously cannot handle kids. I should have asked eliza over to look after. TSK!

And being the act so clever me and eliza went to Hougang Mall for dinner. We wanted to eat Gelare and ended ourselves in SOUP restaurant. And I tell you we gladly know that we only have $35 in total yet we get our clever ass in the restaurant. Dinner was GREAT. Eliza got a great view of the ‘good character/hot guy’ from Gelare. Dinner cost $30+ and we just have the enough money. And I left no money for myself. So Eliza and I walked home. :) It was not bad. We talked and all. And we passed by Hougang Police Station and Eliza wanted to go in. HAHA! If we have no money to pay up, we will get free transport there and we only need to walk not much to go home. TSK!

12:23 AM

Friday, November 10

Bad hair day. :( My hair can’t be tied up neatly and it is very very messy at the back and I guessed this is my first time having such a untidy hair to school. Anyway, walking along the path to school was so quite today. There were no band girls at all, I didn’t even see any in the mainroad which is pretty weird. So I was thinking maybe band was being cancelled. When I walked into the canteen only lie 7 people were there. So my hopes were dashed. There is BAND.

SimAi and I were comparing whose saxophone is better. And of course mine is better cause its selmer brand and made from FRANCE. SimAi’s made from Japan, Lousy la! We even exchanged saxophone to try. Hers really very lousy. HAHA! Sir didn’t come today so Ms Ten took over. Seriously, I don’t enjoy Ms Ten conducting. Sectionals was BORING. I hate sectionals like shit. It was super hot and there was no chair to sit so we practice as we stand. So torturous. My mind was not even focusing. I just wanted to have a chair or something to sit. I know I am lazy la. I so much prefer when we were in Sec 1s when Jolene, Weilin, Vian, Hannah and all were still in band. We would sit inside either comfortable classrooms with fans! Or inside the store room which is like our comfort zone and spend hours practicing or talking. Had to stay back till 3 to do labeling for instruments and it only starts at 2 so the crazy me went to walk SimAi and Gladys all the way out to the main road which is heading towards Ang Mo Kio. I know that’s stupid but I have nothing to do at that time.

Oh, SimAi doesn’t hear loud music and when she hears my ipod she needs the volume to be lowered down. I cant even hear anything la. I think I am deaf.

Chalets. I have quite a number of chalets to go but I don’t feel like going leh. I shall wait for that day itself to make last minute decisions. Ok, I think 24th’s chalet important. I cant decided if I should turn up. Maybe I shouldn’t after all.

Oh, I learnt from someone last night that when you fall for people you have to apologize. Hahaha. Imagine this: Sorry, I’ve fallen for you. Like WTF?!

And to Eliza:
Thanks for last night. Thanks for giving me advices and defining the term ‘dreams’. Lol.


Can we turn back one day and say, I’m not going to like you already. Bye.

Memories will fade, things will change, but the feelings will still be there :D

3:56 PM

Thursday, November 9

Hello Roti Prata/Rojak/Kachang Puteh man! :DD

If that group of people ever wants to join Kohteoliuang to work in our coffeeshop, we most probably be in Geylang cause of you-know-who! Hahaha!

Demelza: Lets go and get our tattoo after o's! You are damn crazy to want to have 2. 1 enough already la, later we end up looking like some you-know-what.

I have something like a bet with Eliza:
If mine comes and talk to me first, I will have to treat her.
And if hers talk to her first, she will have to treat me. (or give Mt Everest to me)
Eliza, please start to worry cause I bet you have got to save to treat me.

Oh my shit, I have band tomorrow. :(

I've learnt something. Don't make promises when you can't follow it. :( Thats me.

Words without actions MEANINGLESS

Let's see where it is going to lead me to..

10:26 PM

Wednesday, November 8

Its so fucking funny last night. V thought I was drunk when I was on the phone with her. If I was drunk I dont think I would remember calling her, most probably I would be calling some bitches to scold already. Anyway, I am in a really big financial problem. Maybe I shouldn't get my mum to buy the Versace shades for me and instead give me $. And sleeping problem is really so dead. I slept at 5 plus yesterday. How am I going to be able to wake up for band the next time round. I think I would sleep during sectionals.

Something seems missing.
I think its quite easy now.

I think Nightlife's coming back after those people O's. ((: Hopefully huh.

I've been making far too many empty promises and I've even broken promises. I should stop promising people when I cant even settle simple stuffs. Fuck.

Eliza! Lets go and walk around the estate soon.

Maybe you've long forgotten :D

2:27 PM

Tuesday, November 7

Back to the familiar
After so long, I finally attend band prac. I slept at 5 and woke up at 7. Was waiting for Ang Li Ting to reply my message cause she messaged me at around 3 plus then she fell asleep. I thought SimAi would be late so I took my own sweet time to walk in and I didn’t even being anything except my handphone, wallet and ipod. Everyone brought a bag except me. Very zai hor! (: The first hour was practically stoning when they were doing their warm ups, tuning and all. I was actually paying attention cause I was bored. Remembering sir taught us about tightening of embouchure, clear tonguing, rhythm, fast fingerings and all. It was all repeated stuffs. The feeling going back was quite weird. But it was comfortable. It seems like I didn’t even leave band for that period of time. Everything seems so clear, so yesterday kind of thing. I played back alto, tenor was being passed down to a new junior. (((: The new junior is weird. Ask her to play then she just laugh laugh laugh. Band is going to play: High School musical songs (breaking free, the start of something new, we’re all in this together) and SpongeBob SquarePants and Looney tunes. All are nice. And some parts are saxophone solo. (: Warm up became quite a problem, I used to play tenor which tuning note is C but now alto is G. Trumpets’ part was nice, they were doing most of the melody for those songs.

My lips are being cut by the reed. After playing every single time, I will cut my lips for god knows how. I remember at the beginning of the year we were supposed to play for Sec 1 CCA fair and my lips bled very seriously during the performance when playing 'That Thing You Do'. And my whole mouthpiece and reed is like stained with blood. It is GROSS. I need to train my stamina. And playing the instruments makes your stomach damn flat. Lol.

#*%^&$@(

8:37 PM

Monday, November 6

Vivo-ed yesterday. With Mum, aunt, uncle and chloe ((: Dinner was at Food Republic. It was hell crowded. But the food was not bad. It was damn crowded and everyone was pushing each other, I was trying very hard to balance my food. Lol. And you can see every single moment someone’s food would spill, drop, topple… Helped Aunt to buy coffee and hello arh, I asked her for like 7 times what she wanted cause she ordered, kopi o and teh c I don’t know what. I cant remember and it was damn embarrassing. I almost dropped the two cups of coffee la. And I just realized that I would fail when I am in kohteoliuang. Cannot remember simple orders. WTH. The place was shit noisy and I wanted to piss people off cause I was having a headache. I didn’t get a chance to go to the rooftops, outdoors. :(((( The purpose of me going there is for the outdoors then in the end didn’t go. And the shops are damnit spacious. I want to buy soooo many stuffs. This red adidas jacket! And there is no size for me. I think I am too fat that’s why. :( Its damn nice! Omg, even my mum initiated to pay for it cause it was only $45 compared to my $129 lousy jacket. Topshop, adidas, levi’s, edc, forever 21. OMG! Kill me please. Does anyone wants to hire me so I can earn money to buy stuffs?! I want to go again and I MUST go out to the outdoors. (:

I woke up late again. Bused down to tampines mall with Eliza, manda and fangs. Shopped around Century square for presents. Cabbed down to mdm zalena’s house. Stayed for an hour or two and headed back to tampines mall. And yes, we cabbed again. And this time round, it was more expansive due to the peak period and all. Walked around and finally settled ourselves in Swensens. 2nd time in a week. Talked and all. It was not bad. Bus ride home was the BEST! It was emo and all but I felt great after saying all out. Thanks for all those advices Eliza. It was GREAT. Can we have more bus rides??? Haha. Hougang point became a unfamiliar place to me. :((

The following is not lyrics to those silly people who thinks that it is. <3
What will you do if I said I miss you.
I’ve been thinking a lot.
Far too much till I couldn’t get myself to sleep.
Sometimes I really tried to forget but guess it was too hard.
Make the first day of school the last time I will think about it.
Make it be some wonderful memories.
But do you think it will work?
Its painful, having so much to say but not able to say.
All was too painful and emotional.
Why is it so hard to control?
Maybe you don’t feel it that way.
And maybe you aren’t even aware or affected by it.
Yes, its about you.
Can you give me a answer?

10:45 PM

Saturday, November 4

My official sleeping hours start from 4.30am. Thats quite sad. Cause its boring at night and I cant get to sleep. Headed down to Tampines Mall for Jessica's British Council Test. Swensens for lunch (: Actually, I am quite sick of it already cause I eat it monthly. Sometimes more than that. :(((
Anyway, shopped around till 6 plus. Was supposed to lunch there with Eliza and Eunice but in the end they didnt come so shopping with Mummy.

If you want to turn crook, please look for Ms Eliza Teo. Wah lao, all the photos she send DROP DEAD HOT man. Especially someone. Whoots. DAMN HOT SIA!

Jasmine: OH MY GOSH! drop dead HOT sia. HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT!! Die die die. Hot hot hot.
Eliza: I SEE. I KNOW IM HOT BUT YOU'RE EXXAGERATING! BUT THANKS ANW. :DSHE'S MINE HOR. MINE. MINE. MOIIIII.
Jasmine: Good! Better make her yours! So i can everytime SEEEE! ((: Faster make her yours before people snatch!

See how crazy we were. We still mention about nose bleed. WTF?! My computer is now flooded with photos. I am going to show the whole world. Come and ask me and you get to see the hottest photo. WTF again.

Stop it Jasmine! (((:

I AM SHIT HUNGRY. No dinner sia, hello hunger! :D

10:20 PM

Friday, November 3

No more lets go for a spin tonight. Lets go and die instead. =)

Too deep for me to understand.
Lets stop playing and just go to sleep.
No more energy to play along.
Very sick of everything.
Dont ask me anything cause I dont even know it myself.
Lets just listen to the last song.

Goodnight world. <3

11:10 PM

Got a call to start going for CCA so I can go for SYF. And I have to do extra work to take back all my CCA points back which like for 30 hours? Damn crazy. Nevermind, I am not the only one. Lol.
CCA is going to be my lover soon. Going back almost everyday kills my holiday. Bye Freedom.
I think Saxophone is going to be my first lover, then CCA and then I can have my friends. Bye shopping.

Eliza: can you please kill josephine for me and i'll give you another lollipop.
Jasmine:(can i kill you instead?! I am going to fall asleep and you come and ask me to kill your boss?!)
I have yet to reply her.

*^%(@%^$)%^@)!_%*#%$

The lazy ass here still yet to visit Vivo. *(@^Y@($
Anybody wants to go? I feel like going on Monday. ((:

3:14 PM

Lunched with Eliza, Demelza, Eunice, Fangs and Manda in Hougang Mall’s macs. As usual I was the last one to arrive. I think seeing them makes me quite happy. I haven’t been seeing them for quite some time already. Lol.

Was on the phone with Eliza when she was on her way home after her celebration with her gf and she suddenly said something like ‘Jasmine, your condo’s on fire!’Lol, Eiza dear, it wasn’t on fire, they are fogging the surroundings. That girl is damn funny. I hate them fogging cause it leads to many pollution. Haha. Nosie pollution, air pollution and land pollution (of cockroaches) You can practically see all those small black stuffs flying around and picnicking right infront of your doorstep.

Chomp chomp for dinner. If you do not have $30, don’t ever suggest chomp chomp. I am so tempted by every single food. I even wanted to buy prata eat also. I owe Serene a chomp chomp trip.

Phoned with Demelza till 2 plus. I think besides V, I cant find anyone who can tahan after 3am (Eliza, the latest among them) to talk to. All like 2 plus sleep already. Lousy pok. There is no need for a confession night for Demelza and me already cause practically everytime we have something, we tell immediately. LOL. Everything also said out already, nothing to keep. Haha! And I forced myself to bed everyday at 4 plus. :(

Demelza: ‘Maybe i might kidnap Jasmine's sister or Eunice's brother and hold as ransom. Hahaha but then again, i think both of them would gladly let me kidnap them away horr?’

Yes! You’re right baby. See what I replied her.

Jasmine: HOHOHO! Want to kidnap my sister? Sure man, i give you the permission. Please let her be with you for as long as possible. I've been waiting for people to do that!


‘You cant be upset provided I gave you the permission to.’

Whoots, off to bed.

Nights baby! <3

3:45 AM

Thursday, November 2

I want to learn to drive badly so I can speed on the highway on a lonely night. This is getting a bit emo. Every night is a emo night. So tell me when is my life getting less emo.

I have so many places that I want to go. But you know something? NO MONEY LA! I think I even have problem taking bus. =( Thats how poor I am. I think I should be like Seetoh and ride to everywhere I go. Can save money. I think most probably I will fall off the bike and die kind of thing. Ok, till now I have yet to get my lazy body out of my house to go for a jog. I think I am sibei lazy can. Supper became a MUST thing before I sleep. And I eat alot. Tell me how can I fit into my size 34 uniform on the first day of school? I think I have to get at least 42 to fit myself inside.

Sleeping hours became irregular. Sleeping at some ungodly hour at 4 or 5am? And waking at 1 or 2 pm? Tell me how am I going to adjust back when school reopens? I think nightlife suits me better. Next time I get some night job la. CHOY! (Demelza is calling me owl already.)

Holidays just started and it isn't even a week and yet I am talking about school reopen. Tsk. I bet those who haven started their holidays are going to throw chairs at me if I talk about school reopening soon. Lol.

And I just learnt a new word from the dearest eliza. ZAI! It meant very good and very cool. Its in hokkien by the way. Without going to school, you still get to learn new stuffs! Haha! She likes to use that word and not explaining to me the meaning. Lol. She is using words like: Kiam pa, ka cheng online and its making me laugh.

I've been a naughty girl recently. I've been skipping maths classes. But for your information, attending maths class or not doesnt make a difference. Ms Ferng doesnt even bothers and I doubt she even knows. And I think she would be much happier if I didn't attend so she doesn't have to stop and stop me from talking. Lol. Oh wells, maybe there is a difference. Its that I dont have to wake up so early to get ready and go to school and attend a 1 and 1/2 hours maths lesson that no one bothers to pay attention besides talking. Some people complain haven been seeing me for quite some time already. Very nice to see?
E: Can you come to school tomorrow?
J: Don't want, don't want to wear school uniform.
J:What did you learn on Monday's lesson?
E:Nothing! Oh I've learnt ________________.(its out of the point btw.)

Eliza wants to practise perfect English and thats what we get:
zai zais zaier zaid zaiest zaiering (LOL!)

I am proud to say that I learnt to change my blogskin without help! Yes, WITHOUT HELP. Zai hor? Oh my gosh, I think I should stop using it. Damn ah lian. The skin a bit weird. VICTORIA'S SECRET! HAHAHA! (only D and I understand the joke)

I should stop here and do other stuffs cause I've been stucked here for like 3 hours.
SAYONARA!

I'm, I'm not. (guess it)

1:13 AM

Wednesday, November 1

All i could do was to close my eyes
and wish that the slow song would never end.
But somehow it did..
and even faster that i expected.


Life is too short for you to be disappointed any longer. (:

10:38 PM