Saturday, November 18
Living sucks, how come we must live? How come we cant die. I want to bring every single of my loved ones who doesn’t feel like living along with me. We can all die together and leave this world. Bloody world.
Steamboat this afternoon. I was the first to eat and the last to end. How cool hor. Eat so much. Like pig like that. Anyway, Vivo-ed and the weather was bloody hot. I swear I was whinning like a mad woman. Never go out at times like 4pm. Go out around 5.30 or so. I HAVE A BLOODY MOSQUITOE BITE ON MY DAMN FACE. DAMN BIG SIA! No need to go out already.
Supper with Eliza once again. PRATA! We were the last one to leave again. Fattening leh. Every night supper. We sat downstairs her block to talk and it was damn shit.
HOHO! Teo teared while prata-ing. She like too much water intake everyday. Cry every single time. :(
Alrights, I am feeling damn fucking guilty and bad now. I’m sorry. I should feel guilty for being so mean and heartless. That’s explain why I should leave this world and make life easier for others. My life is so screwed. Or maybe i screw it up myself. It's funny when you find yourselfLooking from the outsideI'm standing here but all I wantIs to be over thereWhy did I let myself believeMiracles could happenCause now I have to pretend That I don't really careI thought you were my fairytaleA dream when I'm not sleepingA wish upon a starThats coming trueBut everybody else could tellThat I confused my feelings with the truthWhen there was me and youI swore I knew the melodyThat I heard you singingAnd when you smiled You made me feelLike I could sing alongBut then you went and changed the wordsNow my heart is emptyI'm only left with used-to-be'sOnce upon a songNow I know your not a fairytaleAnd dreams were meant for sleepingAnd wishes on a star Just don't come trueCause now even I tell That I confused my feelings with the truthCause I liked the viewWhen there was me and youI can't believe thatI could be so blindIt's like you were floatingWhile I was fallingAnd I didn't mindCause I liked the viewThought you felt it tooWhen there was me and you.i know its random but anyway, Sorry!