Monday, November 6

Vivo-ed yesterday. With Mum, aunt, uncle and chloe ((: Dinner was at Food Republic. It was hell crowded. But the food was not bad. It was damn crowded and everyone was pushing each other, I was trying very hard to balance my food. Lol. And you can see every single moment someone’s food would spill, drop, topple… Helped Aunt to buy coffee and hello arh, I asked her for like 7 times what she wanted cause she ordered, kopi o and teh c I don’t know what. I cant remember and it was damn embarrassing. I almost dropped the two cups of coffee la. And I just realized that I would fail when I am in kohteoliuang. Cannot remember simple orders. WTH. The place was shit noisy and I wanted to piss people off cause I was having a headache. I didn’t get a chance to go to the rooftops, outdoors. :(((( The purpose of me going there is for the outdoors then in the end didn’t go. And the shops are damnit spacious. I want to buy soooo many stuffs. This red adidas jacket! And there is no size for me. I think I am too fat that’s why. :( Its damn nice! Omg, even my mum initiated to pay for it cause it was only $45 compared to my $129 lousy jacket. Topshop, adidas, levi’s, edc, forever 21. OMG! Kill me please. Does anyone wants to hire me so I can earn money to buy stuffs?! I want to go again and I MUST go out to the outdoors. (:

I woke up late again. Bused down to tampines mall with Eliza, manda and fangs. Shopped around Century square for presents. Cabbed down to mdm zalena’s house. Stayed for an hour or two and headed back to tampines mall. And yes, we cabbed again. And this time round, it was more expansive due to the peak period and all. Walked around and finally settled ourselves in Swensens. 2nd time in a week. Talked and all. It was not bad. Bus ride home was the BEST! It was emo and all but I felt great after saying all out. Thanks for all those advices Eliza. It was GREAT. Can we have more bus rides??? Haha. Hougang point became a unfamiliar place to me. :((

The following is not lyrics to those silly people who thinks that it is. <3
What will you do if I said I miss you.
I’ve been thinking a lot.
Far too much till I couldn’t get myself to sleep.
Sometimes I really tried to forget but guess it was too hard.
Make the first day of school the last time I will think about it.
Make it be some wonderful memories.
But do you think it will work?
Its painful, having so much to say but not able to say.
All was too painful and emotional.
Why is it so hard to control?
Maybe you don’t feel it that way.
And maybe you aren’t even aware or affected by it.
Yes, its about you.
Can you give me a answer?

10:45 PM