I think I am very mad. Lauren and I were planning for our Sweet 16 when its so long later! Hers is later then mine please. We planned our guest list already and mine list cross 60 over people. Imagine if everyone came and squeeze in a small chalet. Cannot breathe man. I cannot wait for it to come!!! Hoooowwww... SSSOOOMMMEEEBBOODDYYY PLEASE DO SOMETHING.
Upcoming Events
- Tanning session
- Valentine's day shopping
- Valentine's day <3
- 16TH FEBUARY
- New Year
- After New Year shopping
- Party! =)
Somehow the feelings just aint fading. Whhhyyy?
Fuck you right back
Oh oh Oooh
No no no
(You know there is two sides to every story)
See I don't know why you cryin' like a bitch
Talkin' shit like a snitch
Why you write a song 'bout me
If you really didn't care
You wouldn't wanna share
Tellin' everybody just how you feel
Fuck what I did was your fault somehow
Fuck the presents, I threw all that shit out
Fuck all the cryin' it didn't mean jack
Well guess what yo, fuck you right back
Fuck what I did was your fault somehow
Fuck the presents, I threw all that shit out
Fuck all the cryin' it didn't mean jack
Well guess what yo, fuck you right back
You thought you could really make me moan
I had better sex all alone (ha ha ha ha)
I had to turn to your friend
Now you want me to come back
You must be smokin' crack
Im goin' else where and thats a fact
Fuck all those nights I moaned real loud
Fuck it, I faked it, aren't you proud
Fuck all those nights you thought you broke my back
Well guess what yo, your sex was wack
Fuck all those nights I moaned real loud
Fuck it, I faked it, aren't you proud
Fuck all those nights you thought you broke my back
Well guess what yo, your sex was wack
Whoa whoa
Uh uh yea
Whoa whoa
Uh uh yea
Whoa whoa
Uh uh yea
Whoa whoa
Uh uh yea
You questioned did I care
Maybe I would have if you woulda gone down there
Now it's over
But I do admit i'm glad I didn't catch your crabs
I can't sweat that cause I got to go
Fuck what I did was your fault somehow
Fuck the presents, I threw all that shit out
Fuck all the cryin' it didn't mean jack
Well guess what yo, fuck you right back.
oh oh uh uh yea
oh oh uh uh yea
oh oh uh uh yea
oh ohuh uh yea
You made me do this
Shopping shopping shopping, my love.
Bugis-ed. V8-ed for dinner =)
Bought my heels and earrings already.
The place was so packed till I have no mood to shop.
I dreamt that you died in a car crash last night.
Friday night shopping was great.
Especially with the 2 ladies.
Chinatown-ed, Vivo-ed & Marina Square-d within 4/5hours.
I happily bought my stuff like:
- Earrings
- Necklace
- Watch
- Dress
- Belt
And I happily left it in Serene's bag and happily came home. =) Lol.
Thanks Ladies for tonight! How crazy we were and how unglam I walked. <333
Sorry Lewis & Vian. Supper another night alrights?! <3
Be My Love Sexy, <3
Cause you're the one I miss greatly.
Busy busy busy..
Been sick for the past week and gave school a miss on Tuesday.
Test is coming up and all.
And I am in serious trouble for Accounts test next week.
Not kidding cause apparently, I have no idea what is DEPRECIATION which I would be tested next week leh.
Hello Depreciation, I am going to fail you so badly. =( Be prepared to get 0.
Shopping shopping shopping this weekend when I am so behind time.
24th January was alrights. Not that bad la. I mean come on man, not my first time. =) But my decision is still the same as before. :D
I MISS MY BEST FRIEND VERY VERY MUCH.
I MISS ELIZA TEO KAI LENG.
I MISS SERENE GOH CIJIE.
I MISS LIVIA TAN LI JIA.
I MISS VIAN LIM YING XUAN.
<3
Your kiss, your smile, your mind
You're sunlight in my eyes
I miss your breath on my neck
When we whisper in the night
Didn't wanna want you
Didn't wanna need you so bad
Didn't wanna wake up
And find that I was falling so fast
Didn't wanna need you
Didn't wanna need anyone
Now look what you've done
Decided not to go to school this morning but got disturbed by a 5am call. Lol. So headed down to school and played for morning assembly. Apparently, I couldnt play properly being so sick. The talk with Mr Eng finally came. So Eliza, Demelza, Serene, Kimberley and Amanda and I talked to him and all. Let me tell you HE DOESNT/CANNOT read my blog! Haha! This is super cool sia. He was saying that things written in our blog can lead us to suspension and demerit points and all? Demelza: Pon School
Kim: Underage Clubbing
Serene: Due to excessive time of using vulgarites and sucidal thoughts.
When he said it, I couldnt help laughing. Damn funny please.
OH MAN! My phonebill is going to burst worse than anything/anybody's please. I am so so so dead.
Was on the phone with Lauren just now and we were complaining about school. Its really killing us slowly man.
Tonight is s h o r t , so lets don't w a s t e it. =)
I am feeling so unhappy these days. Anyway tomorrow's 24th.
Vian vian vian!! 1 year already. Haha. 24012006! Ok, I am not prepared for tomorrow. Eeyer.
Hello stranger, I am finally tired.
Out with Serene was totally great. Shopped around town. We walked from Far East down to PS. I swear my legs almost died cause of my heels. Its supposed to be Serene's shopping day but ended up mine. Bought a dress and tube. I am going to get another dress! =) Bumped into best friend and her mum on the way home. =) Lol.
I am still sick, running nose, cough and watery eyes at night? I think I am the best in Singapore, sick still go jalan jalan.
I cannot wait for weekends to come so we can New Year shopping together though I have like so much clothes already. I bought so many stuffs already la but still I need another $200 in total for this week's shopping. Anybody wants to sponsor? Lol.
Serene, Demelza and I are going out on 16th Feb to do our threadding, mani&pedi. :DD
Just So You Know
I shouldn't love you
but I want to,
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you
but I can't move
I can't look away
I shouldn't love you
but I want to,
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you
but I can't move
I can't look away
And I don't know
How to be fine, when I'm not
Cause I don't know
How to make the feeling stop
Just so you know
this feeling's taking control of me
and I can't help it
I won't sit around
I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I tried my best to let go, of you
but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know
It's getting hard to, be around you
There's so much I can't say
and do you want me to hide the feelings
and look the other way
And I don't know
how to be fine, when I'm not
Cause I don't know
How to make the feeling stop
Just so you know
this feeling's taking control of me
and I can't help it
I won't sit around I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I tried my best to let go, of you
but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know
This emptiness is killing me
and I'm wondering why I waited so long
Looking back I realized,
it was always there just never spoken
and I'm waiting here been waiting here
mmmm.....oh
Just so you know
this feeling's taking control of me
and I can't help it
I won't sit around I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I tried my best to let go,
of you but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know ohh
Just so you know ohhh
Thought you should know
I tried my best to let go, of you
but I don't want to I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know
Just so you know
For one thing that I am sure of, things arent going to be the same.
You are not going to come back and tell me thats just a nightmare.
So I was in deep thoughts after reading some things.
I finally learn to appreciate those times.
But its just too late.
I dont know if there was a change in you or was it me.
But sometimes it just makes me smile.
But in front of others, I will just laugh and joke about it.
Cause I didnt realise that within just a short time, things got out of control.
You werent yourself and I werent mine.
Were you just playing your part to make me happy?
Or were you just thinking its alright, she wont bother about it anyway.
I thought you were still alrights then.
I still stupidly talk to you.
You answered. Thats it.
I still didnt know a thing.
I needed friends to inform me.
I needed others to find out for me.
I needed time to take it.
I needed to understand the whole situation but not being a bitch to cry over it.
I needed to know what was all this all about?
I needed to know what went wrong.
You chose not to tell.
You chose to keep it from me.
Things couldnt be settled by itself overnight.
Or maybe it has never before/ever settle.
We happily chose to leave it alone.
I dreamt of you.
In fact, it wasnt the for one time or was it the first time.
I wanted to forget about it.
I wanted not to dream about it.
Who on earth would want to make herself/himself sad over such things?
Not me, but I have no idea how not to.
After nights and nights of dreams, I am left with mornings and mornings of disappointment.
I have so crashed every single morning only to find out that things changed.
Its hard to take it.
Sometimes, I just want to lay on bed and continue dreaming.
Its a natural thinking.
But life still have to go on.
I tried to put on a fake smile and treated as nothing had happened.
I've been a great actress all along.
No one could tell how I felt.
No one knew what happened.
But I am very tired.
Every time I try to forget.
I tried to escape from it.
I told myself not to be so silly over such things.
I didnt know it was not that easy.
I regretted.
But it was not my decision for all these to take place.
It was yours right.
You knew from the beginning till now.
You planned, you acted.
I was in the play too.
But someone who didnt know how you would end the play.
Someone who just followed dumbly.
I tried, but disappointment crashed every single time.
The promises we made to each other is like for fun kind of thing.
You were never serious.
You were never able to understand how it feels like.
When I just go to certain places, it just hit hard and I would smile.
But in reality, you are gone.
Was it my fault?
For the first time
Are those your eyes, is that your smile
I've been lookin' at you forever
But I never saw you before
Are these your hands holdin' mine
Now I wonder how I could of been so blind
For the first time I am looking in your eyes
For the first time I'm seein' who you are
I can't believe how much I see
When you're lookin' back at me
Now I understand why love is...
Love is... for the first time...
Can this be real, can this be true
Am I the person I was this morning
And are you the same you
It's all so strange how can it be
All along this love was right in front of me
For the first time I am looking in your eyes
For the first time
I'm seein' who you are
I can't believe how much I see
When you're lookin' back at me
Now I understand why love is...
Love is... for the first time...
Such a long time ago
I had given up on findin' this emotion...
Ever again
But you live with me now
Yes I've found you some how
And I've never been so sure
And for the first time I am looking in your eyes
For the first time I'm seein' who you are
Can't believe how much I see
When you're lookin' back at me
Now I understand why love is...
Love is... for the first time...
Many things happened. I didn't know what to do and I know that escaping is not an ideal way of solving it but there's not other ways right?
First and foremost HELLO PI ! I think you are reading my posts or anything. I think you are too free or something? But anyway, thanks for reading luh, at least I know that I have a daily reader right Demelza, Eliza, Serene, Manda, Kim? HAHA! You guys should know what is that person. Lol.
Now I am down with Fever, Cough, Sore throat, Running nose and teary eyes? Lol. Parents said that its due to the pressure and stress from my daily stuffs that led me to this. I've been a big busy girl since school started and its not just going to end cause I am sick. Its going to end this year?
I am a big smart ass who knows that she is sick and still go out. Out with Vian and Lewis last evening. Swensens for dinner and Changi Point for supper. Having a car is a good thing cause you can go anywhere easily. They had to leave early cause I was very sick. My tears kept on flowing out because my whole face was burning hot.
For entertainment please ask me for a link for a video on buttons. Its very very funny. Someone tried to pump but it ended like shit. I can gurantee worse then anyone I see pumping. Seriously if you cannot pump, dont pump and dont put it online to let us laugh at you.
Secondly, I think I am still very mean disturbing people. Recess group make up 1 song for this couple and whenever we see them we would purposely sing it. Lol.
Everyone is drifting apart. I dont know what to do. Leave it or salvage it?
Oh yeah, there is this incident that make Eunice and I super angry please. It involves her junior, my junior and another girl. Things spread around and so. It really pissed the fuck out of us. Eunice face was burning hot when the thing happened. She wanted to throw the water bottle at her junior's face. I wanted to whack her junior up. And if that person ever makes anymore nonsense, I tell you she can no need to live till tomorrow.
Conferenced with Serene and Gabriel that night. Serene is very quite on phones if you realised.
I am starting to complain of not enough sleep and all. I've been stretched to the limit every single day. How come there is only 24 hours a day only? Tired tired tired.
I am shagged by everything. Drained out physically, spiritually and emotionally.
You won't admit you love me.
And so how am I ever to know?
You only tell me
Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps.
A million times I ask you,
And then I ask you over again.
You only answer
Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps.
If you can't make your mind up,
We'll never get started.
And I don't wanna wind up
Being parted, broken-hearted.
So if you really love me,Say yes.
But if you don't, dear, confess.
And please don't tell me
Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps.
If you can't make your mind up,
We'll never get started.
And I don't wanna wind up
Being parted, broken-hearted.
So if you really love me,Say yes.
But if you don't, dear, confess.
And please don't tell me
Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps,
Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps,
Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps.
Now that it's over,
you can't hurt me.
Now that it's over,
you can't bring me down.
I've got caught for pinafore again. Tell me why? I always thought I had the longest uniform in the whole school and stupidly thinking that our pinafore must be above our knees. (wtf, i know.) So now onwards I am going to school in my longest uniform like a Cinderella going for her Sleepover prom.
I am so committed to band. Yes, thats right. COMMITTED, ME! This is one of the few times I actually done something that is rather shocking. I am reaching home like 7 plus 8 plus everyday. =( Band is going to have a combine session with VS in their school their bandroom. Kill me please. If we are ever going to sit beside them to play I will die lehhh. So embarrassing can. And Eunice is so slow, she still thinks Terence would be there. If Terence was there, I first to chiong to sit beside him arh. Haha! Then followed by music exchange, camps, intensive trainings, mini syf performance and blahblahblah..
Was having some message exchange in the canteen yesterday afternoon. Eunice and Seetoh. Was reading all their messages. Haha. Most of them were like damn sweet kind? Haha. No one bother asking to read my messages cause my inbox/outbox/save messages MMMMMTTTTEEEEEEEE. =)
Out with Eliza, Eunice, Amanda and Seetoh just now. IT WAS FUNNN though tiring. I know I am the very typical aunty. When I see the books selling at $1 I cannot stop laughing. Went down to Bugis St. Bought my top, walked around and I have so much things to buy when I've got the money. =( Down to Bras Basah (?) I swear that place is simply very cool man! I WANT TO GO THERE AGAIN! =)) Then we can go saxophone shopping. I think I spend a lot.
I gained so much weight and now I am such a fat ass. School is stressing me out so I vent it out on food. So when I see food I whack. But I grew TALLEERRR!! I am not going to be lazy for PE and do my 300 skippings/pumpings/runnings. Whatever I will do and I am going to do 100 sit ups every night and not forgetting my evening gyms/swimming. I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT LEH. Anyone wants to join? I think I need slim pills now, so fat leeehhhhh. I am so far over my target of 40kg and that is insane. 43.2kg leh. ZHEN MER FAT!! Come, lets all go on diet and not eat.
How it reminds me of everything.
New Year Resolutions
- Stop disturbing others. (Since I feel a year older, but sadly I dont think I can make it because its fun disturbing!)
- Stop messaging in class and maybe quit messaging. (Ya right! Wait long long hor.)
- Do not exceed 40kg!
- Grow taller! (I dont want to be kateh ayam!)
- Sleep early.
- Do not 24/7 on the phone like its my life.
- Be more organise and not throw my things around (Cos I cant find my old neoprints alr.)
- Less vulgarities please.
- Dont be such a pig to only know how to sleep, eat and play only.
- Save money $$$
- Study real hard for N's.
- Pass accounts for N's.
- Go for tution.
- Be committed to band!
- Dont pon school.
- Stop breaking promises though its meant for breaking.
- Study well and not end up laughing or talking.
- Be nice to those I dislike.
- Stop thinking of plans to assasinate people. (lol.)
- Not be involved in anything that is related to CUPID Eg, quarrels, fights and all.
- Dont get myself in problems that will affect my N's.
- Stop putting others on aeroplane!
- Smile more cause my junior said that I am scary. (WTF)
- Dont anyhow cut my poor junior's queue.
- Be nice to others =)
- Stop being so mean.
- Learn to be independent!
- Stop sleeping in class.
- Control my attitude.
- Be fast & not dilly dally for everything.
- Dont drift from LEDS <3
- Be faithful to KOHTEOLIUANG and stop thinking about deleting the pledge!
- Dont be so stupid and dumb.
- Stop making the same mistakes again and let history repeat itself.
- No distractions please.
- Be more serious this year cause some people said that:"Can you please be more serious and settle down!) Lol.
- Stop exploding my phone bills.
- Do my homework and be a good girl in school.
- Dont think back of the past.
- Dont miss last year.
- Stop missing 3D2 06'
- Stop being such a depressed kid. =(
- Dont sleep during Chapel cause my lil cousin ask me who is Jesus' father and I said God. -__-
One Last Dance
One last dance with you
Even though what we have is strong
Both of us know that we've done wrong
You could lose everything need to give it up
Just one last dance with you
For all the moments that we shared
All the lies they don't compare
You gotta go back to him,
And I realize that every time I see your face
I know there's a part of me that can't bear to let you go
And I would give my heart give you the world,
Risk losing everything I got i'd give it all to you
Though I don't wanna stop
I know it's the right thing to do.....yeah
One last dance with you
So hard to find the words to say
But I can't see any other way girl
You've risked everything time to give it up
Just one last dance with you
And though it breaks my heart to leave
We both know it's time to let it breathe
You gotta go back to him,
Girl I realize that every time I see your face
I know there's a part of me that can't bear to let you go
And I would give my heart give you the world,
Rrisk losing everything I got i'd give it all to you
Though I don't wanna stop
I know it's the right thing to do.....yeah
So many times we tried to hold back
We been here before
Now girl and it feels so cruel,
Yeah a million tears won't change the fact
That I find it hard to play the game
When I feel like i'm the one to blame
But I would give my heart give you the world,
Risk losing everything I got i'd give it all to you
Tthough I don't wanna stop
I know it's the right thing to do.....yeah
And I would give my heart give you the world,
Risk losing everything I got i'd give it all to you
And make our peace with god
I know it's the right thing to do...yeah
MR LEWIS IS THE BEST! =)
Last night when I realised that I needed my Chinese Supplementary book in the middle of the night, he offered to help me take it. He drove all the way to Bedok then to Joo Seng Market ( the one opposite Cedar's Sec ) to buy supper for me. He is the best in the whole wide world. His service is better than FedEx sia. Somemore got free supper. Supper was my <3>
Its been 33 hours since I had my sleeeeeppp. I n e e d t o s l e e p but there is a truckload of work waiting for me to complete. Kill me please.
I think the whole wide world can just jolly well give up on me for my Accounts cause apparently my N's is coming soon and I have no freaking idea about it at all. Seriously so dead. I need to go Bras Basha (?) to buy all my guidebooks and I hope they have the accounts one cause the whole damn Singapore doesnt have it. Book shopping on Wednesday ! :DD Come to think about it, buy for what. I like cannot help in any way already. That is my life.
I might change my blog's password when I feel like it. =)
Ask me for it if you want or be clever enough to hack into it.
You can dance-every dance with the guy
Who gives you the eye,let him hold you tight
You can smile-every smile for the man
Who held your hand neath the candle light
But don't forget who's takin' you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darlin' save the last dance for me
Oh I know that the musics fine
Like sparklin' wine,go and have your fun
Laugh and sing,but while we're apart
Don't give your heart to anyone
But don't forget who's takin' you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darlin' save the last dance for me
Baby don't you know I love you so
Can't you feel it when we touch
I will never never let you go
I love you oh so much
You can dance,go and carry on
Till the night is gone
And it's time to goIf he asks if you're all alone
Can he take you home,you must tell him no
'Cause don't forget who's taking you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darling,save the last dance for me
'Cause don't forget who's taking you home
And in whose arms you're gonna be
So darling,save the last dance for me
Save the last dance for me
Save the last dance for me.
Sorry Angeline for not turning up for your party. Hope you had a great time with your friends!
BBQ was alrights. Demelza and Doralynn came over. They took so many spastic photos. Lol =) We had fun doing nonsense. Thanks best friend!
Demelza and I are such failures when it comes to bbqing. Doralynn had to cook for us. I better find a cook for my bbq in future or else everyone is going to eat uncooked food.
And im so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said im so sick of love songs so sad and slow..
School is still as screwed as ever.
Next week when we receive our new timetable, and during those empty breaks with no lessons, I have to be at the band room for sectionals. Sir is going to come and train us. WO YAO SI LE! Stress until I want to die can.
School is crazy. People dye hair also cannot. Short hair catch, bushy hair also catch! Lol. This is very funny. They caught LYT for shaved sides for her hair. I think her hair shorter then my friend's. Lol and then Azureen got caught because she've got too much hair. See I told you how crazy the school is driving us crazy.
I plan to cut my hair short after New Year. I am quite ready for New Year I hope, except for my bottoms and shoes. Hmm.. 2 more pairs of heels, skirts, jeans. Thats about it. I planned my new year already please. I am wearing dress on the first day of new year and I think the dress abit over glam leh.
How it hurts just by the thought of it.
Lewis: I think you've changed alot of a sudden.
Vian: You are a total different person girl.
Wayne: You are no longer the same.
Those were what the three told me on the same night. How coincidental. I realised the change. I am scared of the changes I had in myself too. Dont you feel that having so much stress all of a sudden would still get you a same old me. I really regret for what've I've done wrong. Too wrong. I shouldnt get myself inbolved in such a mess to realise that I cant find a way out myself. 'Those who stand for nothing, falls for anything' Sorry, not my way of handling stuffs.
Vian was just being so free to keep on reminding me that 24th January is coming. 1 year had passed. What had happened on 24th January 2006 should not be remembered and mentioned! Lol. I just felt it so. She asked me if I have ever thought if history really repeats itself again. Whats my response. Sorry, but it would still be the same. Too complicated to understand. Too much complications in life makes me not being able to breathe.
Do you think I would still want myself to get into this mess?
Do you think I want such stuffs to happen?
Do you think that I dont want to be back to my happy self?
Think about it before you comment.
Everything's just so different now. Friends and all.
Everything/Everyone changed.
Nothing stays the same, of that I am sure.
Sometimes, I wish all of this had never took place.
Just trying to treat it as a bad dream I've got, but sadly its reality.
How a straight girl could turn crook so fast.
I was really shocked.
Whatsmore its her.
And its unbelievable she turned crook just for that girl who dont give us the x-factor.
SiJin is so slow in knowing some things! :D
L's having the operation this Saturday.
Hope everything's would be fine alrights?
Dont worry, take care! <3
Lewis, the fake Louis Vuitton been bombing my phone this few days when I am having lessons. Crazy guy.
5th Day of school and I already got caught for fingernails, socks and pinafore. Shit la, how to survive the whole year. And Vian the big princess' pinafore is going to be so damn big because she loves to look like a pregnant woman so I am going to look worse then a pregnant woman when I wear her uniform. Lol.
7th day of school I still got caught for uniform. Hello eh! My uniform already very long already leh. You want me to wear like cinderella and touch the ground is it? Like going for prom. Lol.
My Love
If I wrote you a symphony
Just to say how much you mean to me
What would you do
If I told you you were beautiful
Would you date me on the regulars
Tell me would you
Well baby I've been around the world
But I aint seen myself another girl like you
This ring here represents my heart
But there's just one thing I need from you saying I do
Because, I can see us holding hands
walking on the beach our toes in the sand
I can see us on the country side
Sitting in the grass laying side by side
You can be my baby
Gonna make you my lady
Girl you amaze me
Ain't gotta do nothin crazy
See all I want you to do is be my love
My love My love
And I know no woman that could take your spot
My love My love My love
And I know no woman that could take your spot
My love My looooooooveLooooooove My loooove My loooove
Now If I wrote you a love note
And made you smile at every word I wrote what would you do
Would that make you wanna change your scene
And wanna be the one on my team
Tell me would you
See what's the point in waiting anymore
Cause girl I've never been more sure that baby it's you
This ring here represents my heart
And everything that you been waiting for
Just saying I do
Because, I can see us holding hands
Walking on the beach our toes in the sand
I can see us on the country side
Sitting in the grass laying side by side
You can be my baby
Gonna make you my lady
Girl you amaze me
Aint gotta do nothin crazy
See all I want you to do is be my love
My love My love
And I know no woman that could take your spot my
My love My love My love
And I know no woman that could take your spot my
My love My loooooooveLoooooove My looooove My loooooove
School yesterday really suck my blood man.
They called for a meeting in the hall with big bird.
She talked to us about attendance and all.
Who are the us? Normal Academic and Technical students.
What she/school feels is that we are the one who pulls the school reputation down.
We are the only ones who goes around to create trouble.
Please open your eyes bigger and looks at the others.
School really sucks.
And I am NOT going to PON school anymore.
I WANT to get promoted to Sec 5 next year!
People, please remind me to stop ponning and go for school! 90% attendance.
Was studying with Eliza at Club house and we overheard this guy's conversation with the friend about his girlfriend. I was like wahlao, how come the boyfriend like that one, dont trust his girl, thinks that she is two timing blah blah blah... This is so nonsense. When you hear this, it means that this guy doesnt bother about anything anymore. He had given up sort of thing. Lol.
Till now, you are still lying to yourself and me.
How long are you going to lie for?
Dont you feel tired of everything.
Tell the truth and everything will still go on fine.
Not if I would even bother to take my AK47 to shoot you or anything.
I am really entertained by your nonsense.
I really want/need to salute you man.
Carry on.
You thought that I dont know a single thing.
Too wrong.
I knew almost everything and you lost. =)
How I love this =)
Sway
When marimba rhythms start to play
Dance with me, make me sway
Like a lazy ocean hugs the shore
Hold me close, sway me more
Like a flower bending in the breeze
Bend with me, sway with ease
When we dance you have a way with me
Stay with me, sway with me
Other dancers may be on the floor
Dear, but my eyes will see only you
Only you have that magic technique
When we sway I go weakI can hear the sounds of violins
Long before it begins
Make me thrill as only you know how
Sway me smooth, sway me now
Sway me, take me
Thrill me, hold me
Bend me, ease me
You have a way with me
Sway (sway)
Other dancers may be on the floor
Dear, but my eyes will see only you
Only you have that magic technique
When we sway I go weak
I go weak
I can hear the sounds of violins
Long before it begins
Make me thrill as only you know how
Sway me smooth, sway me now
Make me thrill as only you know how
Sway me smooth, sway me now
Make me thrill as only you know how
Sway me smooth, sway me now
Sway me
Sway me
Sway me now
Christmas and New Year passed and now we start talking about VALENTINE's Day and our birthdays. How time flies. People start to plan what to get for Valentine's day already. Wait till that day comes then think la. Now, I just need a break from everything.
I cant be bothered if my birthday is around my prelim's and N's. I am just going to celebrate since Serene, Livia, Demelza and Eliza have no major exams this year. Probably a chalet. Mum doesnt allow Cupid which is totally so fine with me. =)
Seeing others going for O's this year, hmm.. i wonder how come i played so much in Sec 1 which landed me in NA and almost make me retain...
Seriously if you are unhappy that she have seniors to back her up then so be it. Dont go around telling others that you have whatever shit true feelings to confess and sit there and talk big. Sorry hor, she have seniors to back her and like her its her own problem. None of yours my girl. Mind what you say. Thank you very much. =)
After hearing from Eliza of being stressed and all. How I realised I am worse then her. I just cry for no reason and I am very sick of everything that is happening around me. People come up to me telling me about those things I dont want to hear. Seriously, its alright for you guys to say it but sometimes thinking back, I really cannot take it. I think I am far too stressed or what. I shouted at my sister to get out of the room and locked her outside leaving her to sleep with my parents. I really cannot take the pressure. Whatever it is, I know that life now is not easy. It wont be just filled with fun peace and laughter. Mainly work, stress, pressure and work again. Tell me how come my life seems worse then other people who are taking their o's now who are enjoying their life out there while pupils in our school are so stressed that they feel like jumping down from the auditorium. I think I can be the first girl in PL history to jump off from there. Its been useless typing what I really feel and not being able to let you see. Whatever it is, sorry to those who got quite affected by my doings. I know I am in the wrong. Very wrong indeed.You guys are not happy at what I decided and what I am doing. Sorry. Give me more time. This for I am sure, one day I will be out without all these shit. I hope I get expelled or whatever so I wouldnt have to care and bother about my work. Damn shit.
Vian told me this or rather said that I am feeling like that cause she feels the same way:
I can't be the kind of girl who can quietly stand by your side, watch your doing and be someone who always silently agrees with you,follow you and dont mutter a single word.it's because i care tht's why i bother to ask.it's because i care tht's why i can't keep shut abt your doin.it's because i care tht's why i wanna know wher you are.it's because i care tht's why i'm interferin ur probs.if i don't love,what makes you tink i care?i'm done with the appreciation,but its you who choose not to appreciate me.i hate doing thing so seriously and exclusively yet only get back truck and loads of disappointment.
She've got me into thinking. What are all these promises for? What are those words you told me meant for? Think about it.
Will you wait for me
I need to talk with you again, why did you go away,
All our time together, just feels like yesterday,
I never thought I'd seen, a single day without you,
the things we take for granted,we can sometimes lose.
And if I promise not to feel this pain,
Will I see you again, will I see you again.
Cos time will pass me by, may be I'll never learn to smile,
But i know I will make it through, if you wait for me.
And all the tears I cry, no matter how I try.
They will never bring you home to me, won't you wait for me in heaven.
Do you remember how it was, when we never seemed to care.
The days went by so quickly, cos I thought you'd always be there.
It's hard to let you go, though I know that I must try.
I feel like I've been cheated, cos we never said goodbye.
And if I promise not to feel this pain, Will I see you again.
Cos I miss you so, and I need to know, Will you wait for me.
Sweet Sixteen to : Angeline, Kimberley & Pearlyn L. :D
ELIZA! I know what you can get for those who are sixteen this year!
Girl: Pregency kit. Guy: Condom
Sorry, I am just kidding.
Anyway, my school system sucks.
Firstly, they introduce chowiz. Which already make quite a number of people unhappy cause we got to scan in and out and we have to use ez-link card to pay for canteen food. So troublesome.
Next they introduce Homeroom system.
Everyday, we've got to travel around with our books and bags for lessons. Very tiring. Lessons end late. My latest time is: 4.10pm and the earliest is: 2.10pm. Its like my whole life in school and I feel as if I have no more life. After school still have CCA that doesnt end early. =(
Monday: Lessons till 4.10pm and CCA from 4.30 till 6.30pm
Tuesday: Lessons till 2.10pm and CCA from 3.30pm till 6.30pm
Wednesday: FREE! Lessons end at 2.10pm and afterwhich maybe meet up lunch with some people/shopping/studying or taking a nap. This is the only day that I can do all these.
Thursday: Lessons end at 2.50pm and CCA from 3.30pm till 6.30pm
Friday: Lessons end at 4.10pm
Saturday: Certain weeks have cca which starts at 8.30am till I dont know what time!
Sunday: Tution.
PE is such torture. I have never done so much exercise in my life before and now I will stop complaining about fat. I rather grow fat then to have PE!
Band Auditions for the Sec 1s today. It was quite fun. I can play basson and clarinet! Damn cool. ((:
I have to sacrifice my accounts tution which is on Tuesday and Thursday night due to my overpacked schedule. I need accounts tution so badly to do well for my N's. =(
I have no life for the entire week except Wednesday. I need to study very hard this year due to N's which is brought forward. No more playing and fooling around kind of thing. I am starting to revise on my work already la. I dont even care if my day is just total studying and all. On a lighter note, I planned my next Saturday already. I am going to play la, once in a while not that bad right? Sentosa, bbq, rollerblading, breakfast, tanning! I am looking forward to that day only. =)
When I do my maths, better not come near me. I totally forgotton what I learnt last year. What the hell. I am so fustrated when I cant remember a single thing which end me up crying. Yeah, cry and do maths. Like what the fuck is wrong with me man. And till now we haven got a dear ACCOUNTS TEACHER. I can really start to dig my grave or maybe enrol myself in ITE Simei with Eunice and Vian (who thinks that she will fail her O's) for Nursing course. Lol.
You took my heart away
Staring at the moon so blue
Turning all my thoughts to you
I was without hopes or dreams
I tried to dull an inner scream but you saw me through
Walking on a path of air
See your faces everywhere
As you melt this heart of stone
You take my hand to guide me home and now I'm in love
You took my heart away
When my whole world was gray
You gave me everything
And a little bit more
And when it's cold at night
And you sleep by my side
You become the meaning of my life
Living in a world so cold
You are there to warm my soul
You came to mend a broken heart
You gave my life a brand new start and now
I'm in love
You took...
Holding your hand
I won't fear tomorrow
Here were we standwe'll never be alone
Lewis fetched me to school this morning.
Quite a last minute thing.
Sit his car early in the morning is a killer cause he speeds like nobody's business.
I almost vomitted.
CCA fair was alrights.
We played:
- Instant concert (wedding song)
- Spongebob Squarepants!
- High school musical
- Looney Tunes - back in action
Most of the seniors came back. And I saw Hannah after so long and she is going to DRIVE me when she got her license! Remember hor, dont forget.
I know I missed out a lot of fun from things happening in Cupid. Lol. Like on Christmas, most were there. Christmas party, Jon's birthday and he proposed to his girlfriend on that night. How sweet.. =) Heard that everyone was there and things got out of control after that. Lol.
I need to make up my mind if I want to join SYF by this Monday. I have to be very committed till Mid of April. No ponning and all. Whole week packed and all. Should i or not.
How you make it sound so sweet.
I think I am very updated with many people's life. Anything ask me uh, I like confirm know one. Lol.
Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Come back and bring back my smile
Come and take these tears away
I need your arms to hold me now
The nights are so unkind
Bring back those nights when I held you beside me
Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Un-do this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked outta my life
Un-cry these tears
I cried so many nights
Un-break my heart, my heart
Take back that sad word good-bye
Bring back the joy to my life
Don't leave me here with these tears
Come and kiss this pain away
I can't forget the day you left
Time is so unkind
And life is so cruel without you here beside me
Ohh, oh
Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Bring back the nights when I held you beside me
Un-break my
Un-break my heart, oh baby
Come back and say you love me
Un-break my heart
Sweet darlin'
Without you I just can't go on
Can't go on
"Winner's make commitments. Losers make promise."
-Danny A. Tzanks-
Last Year summary and New Year resolutions when I feel like it?
31st Sunday
Countdown at Esplanade.
Banglas everywhere.
I almost died of the crowd.
Never go for countdown on New Year.
1st Monday
New Year, studied with Amanda, Eunice and Eliza. =)
2nd Tuesday
ECP with Eunice and Eliza.
Rollerblade.
Eliza cannot rollerblade for goodness sake!
She fell down 10 times!
I had to pull and drag her along.
I dont mind rollerblading with them again because they make me laugh till I almost rolled on the floor and I had stomachache when the Silly girl ran into the male's toilet!
3rd Wednesday
First day of school.
Went back to old site and had to walk as the whole school back to Lorong Ah Soo. I miss that place very much. At least its so near to my place. We were like in a funeral thing cause everyone was like so dead tired. Whats missing is just Bigbird's big photo in the front! Lol. Homeroom system sucks like shit. Look at my timetable. I seriously have no more life!